Permission Granted [8]

(Malory)

Olivia and I hop into a taxi and head off to Ron’s house. She’s got directions to the house from him, and she’s pulled out the gift to show me.

I love the red bow against the gold paper.

A depressing thought hits me.

It’s Ron’s birthday.

Kyle will be there.

Ever since the… incident… I’ve been distancing myself, thinking about what I should do.

Why am I holding back?

I should have already told someone.

Every time I sit to think about it, I feel like I’m about to have a panic attack so I stop and do something else.

What would it cost Kyle if he told me everything? I would know more than I already know –and what I already know is more than enough to make a person go insane.

Olivia is ranting about something –but I can’t focus. I can’t focus on what she’s saying. I’m dreading seeing Kyle at Ron’s house –I’m dreading seeing Kyle at all.