Alive

...'' What's wrong with you?!! If you don't want her, then leave her.'' Logan utters while trying to hold himself: ''She's the only person I have in this world, and I can't let you hurt her no more''.

I kept quiet for a while, then I admit to him honestly '' I care about her too, it's not like I know her since forever, but this fucking mate pull is doing crazy things to me. Everything about her is driving me out of my mind.''

I looked at him, and he was looking at me weirdly, probably he's not believing me but I don't blame him for that, I wouldn't believe myself if I was him, and I'm not even believing that I'm saying this to him.

I stopped for a while then I added '' She would be in danger if I let her go, and she would be in more danger if I kept her with me, I'm lost and I don't know what to do''.

He was about to say something when the noise of glass shattering came from my mate's room. We ran toward her room to be shocked by the scene in front of our eyes; she was trying to kill herself.

Logan seemed to be having some sort of conversation along with her, but my brain was not registering anything from what was happening, it was as if I was locked in a time-lapse.

The moment my brain came back to life, it was too late, her throat was cut off, she was lifeless between Logan's hands, who was crying badly as I should do.

I felt as if I was running out of breath, then like dying. After a while, everything went black, and I lost conscience.

I woke up in a room that seemed to be one of the royal hospital's rooms, and I wasn't alone. The king, the queen, Albert, but no Logan, were there.

'' How do you feel, sweetheart? It must be horrible what happened to you?'' The queen exclaims, but I don't know what was she talking about ''What exactly happened to me?'' I wondered not being able to remember what already happened.

'' Your mate.. Killed herself in front of you.'' now it was the king who was speaking, and it all came back to me like a movie '' Where is she now?'' I asked while getting the hell out of that stupid bed I was in.

'' If you're talking about her grave, it's there '' the queen pointed out from the window to the palace graveyard, '' I'm talking about my mate, not the stupid graveyard'' I said, and she adds'' Sweetheart, ..... '' but I cut her before she says what she was about to say '' She's not dead, I can't feel her death,'' I explained but again it seems that they refuse to believe me, '' Now get the fuck out of here, all of you''… '' Now'' I growled at them all.

As I was left alone, I shifted into my Lycan, and got the hell out of here. I went for a long run for what seemed to be hours; I was trying to figure out what the hell is going on… I mean she killed herself, true. But why do I still feel that she's alive? Why can't I feel the break of the mate bond?

After fighting with my own demons for hours, I end up in the palace's graveyard.

I walked toward her grave, step by step my heart tightened, and I felt life-sucking out of my body. Tears ran out of my eyes for the first time in a long time. The hell I did?! I killed my mate; I caused her death by myself.

All I wanted was to keep her safe, but I killed her inside. I should've known better than to mess with her feelings.

She was soft, innocent, and beautiful, and this world is too much for an angel like her. Why did she end up with the devil himself? How did she end up with me?

A broken soul that never knew how to love, it was always about power and only power.

I didn't even get to know her, neither get her to know me.

Guilt is killing me inside, I didn't mean it. If only I could get her back to life, I would never cause her to cry again, I would love her with all my soul and heart, get to know her better, make her my one and only. But it's too late now, she's gone, once and for all.

I was getting ready to leave for the day, but I heard a special heartbeat, this heartbeat was coming from her grave. She's alive, I knew it. My mate is alive.

Without even realizing I shifted to my Lycan form and started digging deep into her grave. I reached her body; she was still dead, but something caught my attention. Her body wasn't looking like a dead body, and the cut on her throat was no longer there. Next to her body, there was a necklace, the one that she used to wear around her beautiful neck.

I reburied her dead body, but I kept her necklace with me. Still believing that she's not totally dead. And even if it cost me my own life, I will bring her back to life.