She's hurting and so am I

Me and Aria are currently at the airport waiting for our flight. It's funny how i can see the excitement in her eyes but she's nervous at the same time. She's acting like a obsessed fangirl everyone and it's cute but i just wish i'm that person she's fangirling with.

"Oh shut up Chloe.. you should be happy for your bestfriend." I said to myself.

But.. i am happy for her even if it's hurting me. I don't know i never had the guts to tell her what i really feel about her and it's useless now 'cause she likes someone else.

"Jaehwa! Hey It's time to go now" she called me.

"Oh right.. let's go" i said and smiled.

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Currently she's sleeping beside me resting her head in my shoulder. And it always gives me butterflies in my stomach whenever we are this close to each other.

I can smell her perfume and i can't help but to touch her face. She's sleeping so peacefully and her beautiful face that is so hard to resist not to look at. God.. i so love her. But i can't.. i should stop because no matter what she's not going to love me the way i love her. I'm just a friend to her that's all.

I sighed...

After hours of travel finally we arrived in New York City.

A busy city but it's nice here at least i'm going to spend time with her and it's all fine with me.

"Chloe I'm hungry..." she pouts like a little kid.

"And you think I'm not??" We both laughed.

So after we check in a hotel we are currently in a restaurant eating our dinner it's almost 7 pm now.

"I'm gonna finally meet her tomorrow Chloe!" She's so hype right now.

"I know i know calm your horses down Aria." you are embarrassing me. She's so loud.

"So what's really your plan for tomorrow?" I asked her while i drank my wine.

"Not much i'm just gonna follow her all day" she confidently said. I almost spit out the wine in my mouth.

" WAIT WHAT?!!" is she a stalker or something?

"Seriously Aria that's your plan? I mean aren't you going to creep her out? 'Cause if i were her i'll be sure damn will be creep out by that." I said raising my eyebrows.

"She will not notice me. Yes she will not. I'm a genius right? " she asked while she chuckles and shakes her head.

"What the actual fuck Aria? seriously?" i can't believe her..

"I'm just messing with you Chloe. Smile a bit" and then she laughs and pinch my nose.

"Ugh! I hate you!" I roll my eyes to her.

"I love you~" she said cutely and my heart just skip a beat. How i wish she mean it for real..

"C'mon let's go outside! Let's explore this beautiful city and find me some beautiful ladies yay!" She cheerfully said while dragging me outside of the restaurant.

"WHAT BEAUTIFUL LADIES ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT HUH MS. ARIA SAEE-LIM?!!"

"Oh that..I'm just kidding, Jane is the only person who's beautiful in my eyes" she said.

OUCH...

How about me? Am i not beautiful to her?

"And... of course my chipmunk is beautiful too than any other girl here" she chuckles while she taps my head.

"Such a smooth talker.. really now" i said as i poke her forehead.

"At least i'm not lying right? Can i take a picture of you?" She asked while she took her camera out.

"Uhm.. sure" i smile and i make a pose under the street light.

"Aww Dollface is really pretty"

"I know" and we both laughs.

We walked and walked appreciating the city lights. Everything is so pretty but the person i am with is prettier..

She's currently holding my hand while we are walking back to our hotel and i can't help but blush because of it. I hope she won't notice it.

I hope we can stay just like this but i know deep inside it's going to end soon. And maybe sooner or later she'll end up with someone else and of course i know my place as a friend we can't do such things like this anymore. I don't want to cause trouble and hurt someone she loves.

But if she's happy. I'm going to be happy too.. for her. Even if it's hurting. And i hope that my feelings for her will end soon 'cause i don't know how much i can take it seeing her with someone else, seeing her being all happy and not Me being the reason. I'm not that stupid to let myself drown in sadness.

But...

If we weren't bestfriends and met in a different way or situation or different time and circumstances, will i have a chance to make her love me?

Notice me Aria... please...

I love you.. not as a friend... but more than that..

I was an idiot for denying that for so long.

I love you.. but

I can't make you love me..

Because you love someone else.