Job of your life

Berat was riding my wheelchair through the hospital garden. Spring with all its colors, that I skipped noticing were so vivid and clean. Even in wheelchair it was freshening to open heart to the beautiful scenery of the garden, with a stranger having the warmest smile in the world.

- "So, what's your name? What do you do in Istanbul and your Turkish is really good. Are you a translator or something?"

- "I am Eleanor, El for short. No, I am not a translator, I am an auditor. We check clients' financial statements for accuracy and etc. Got a very interesting project in here, but another person is already got assigned to it. I am Russian and I guess that's it. My whole life is simply covered by my job, nothing more, actually."

- "Oh... I really do feel sorry that I got crashed into you and because of me you lost that project. I was having a bad day and didn't see your taxi coming..."

- "Let's forget. Tell me about your life, about that bad day if you feel like sharing."

- "Not as glamorous as yours. I am a live streamer with addition to gaming and I live alone as live streaming starts at night and mainly lasts till morning. Let's skip bad day part for now."

- "How interesting. So, you're in influencer? That's really cool to do the things that you adore."

- "Not always. Sometimes, I think does it worth it, as followers can be rude and mean. We got network of people, that I often forget and consider as friends and betrayals each time make me feel devastated."

- "I see... Yet, you are a lucky man, that many people are inspired by you, I bet."

- "Of course, but at the end of the day my job is entertaining people, at some point, I feel truly alone, within thousands of people. Do you have a boyfriend or person that you love, El?"

- "Oh... no, I don't."

- "Sorry, was that too personal to ask? Don't get me wrong, it's just think, that..."

- "If you are not loved, even having a dream job is not enough to make your life a dream."

- "Exactly, that was very poetic ending of my though." – He stopped and sat in front of me on a bench, looking straight to my eyes. I could feel how my heart started to beat faster. I wonder what he feels right now, does he feel same, or he is just sad about crash and injuries, that he caused?

- "Be honest, El. Why are you not angry of me?"

- "You know, the moment before the crash, I was sleepless, wondering, where I wasted my years. Each day is same, each day is boring, each day, I wake up and first thought is "here we go again". But today, I woke up to a completely different story, I had a rest, I am talking to a live streamer and learn to look around. Can I ask you to send me your profile, today you will have one more follower." – I said smiling . While I was talking, I could see deep understanding in his eyes.

-"Of course! You are my favorite follower, now. Follower, that lost her project because of me, but still wants to support on social media." – We exchanged our numbers and he helped me to get to the doctor. When he was leaving, I couldn't help but stare, he, all of a sudden, looked back and smiled sincerely. I could read from his lips saying "See you tomorrow, princess". My heart jumped. What was even going on between us two?!

Whole evening, I spent watching his videos and archived live streams. He is unbelievably kind to his friends in videos and mainly played games with serious face, even while making jokes, what made people extra entertained.

Suddenly, I received a notification from HIM. I shuddered after seeing his name, my heart started to beat faster. I felt warmth, which is main feeling, that I feel whenever he comes to my mind. Strange. But even seeing a sun, feeling its warmth makes me to remember him. How it feels to hug him? To smell his cologne and to cuddle with him, I wondered.

Notification said - "Can I invite you my live stream, princess?".

- "Sure, I'm coming." – I texted him back. I wanted to write something in addition, but I postponed to show or ask why he keeps referring to me as "princess". I feared, that maybe he will understand my thoughts, that I already got attached and even missed him.

One more notification saying -"Berat started a live stream". I entered the live stream and felt how atmosphere changed, I felt sun next to me. He greeted his followers and apologized for not being able to open live streams for several days. Then he started to talk about our joint car accident.

- "Guys, of course we will play games, but I have a question for you. How you can tell whether you've met your soulmate?" – I felt like butterflies got born and started to fly in my stomach. What if? I started to read his live chat, where followers were writing and I could see how people started to wonder why he Is asking this.

- "Berat, bro, what is even going on? You want to confess something?" – a guy stated with enthusiasm in his voice. Berat simply smiled.

- "Okay, let me take this over." – another guy interrupted and it was annoying that I didn't know them. Its strange, that I get annoyed just because I don't know his friends. – "I think, that the answer is, when you see a person for the first time, you feel like you know that person, but in reality you don't, you want to spent all the time with her, want to hug her, but you can't, as you are not even that enough."

- "You know Yusuf, you described it as, if you are now in my head." – said Berat and I could see how he liked that everyone were freaking out. Mainly he was very serious and never talked much about feelings, at least in videos, that I managed to watch during whole evening. I felt hope, I was trying to concentrate, but it was impossible, I dreamed being in his arms, tightly hugging and feeling his body around mine. That felt so right, so healing, but current reality was seeing him through monitor of my mobile phone.

- "No, guys, don't get me wrong, I am single. Maybe spring makes me feel this way and to dream a bit with you here, who knows. Gaming time!" – he started his online game with his friends and I could not resist but continue to dream about now him kissing me. I guess, that is it. I already, fell for him, badly.