Being a guest of a live streamer

Weather was friendly with us, people walking by were cheerful, colors in the sky were vivid and transparent. My world turned around. I felt my heart being free. Without overthinking anything, neither future, nor the past, I, in his arms, walking in streets of Istanbul, smelling in the peachy smell.

- "I am happy to see you calm and smiling. Actually, I feel relieved that, there was nothing to be afraid of, to show my feelings." – he said.

- "You were afraid of your feelings? Why?" – I asked realizing how same was happening to me.

- "Its been only few days, that we met. I was afraid, that as sudden as that car crash, you will leave me, this country and I won't get another chance to reach you."

- "You're right! Its insane! For the first time in my life, after several days knowing a person I kissed!"

- "You regret it?"

- "Not even a second of it! You were so kind, so gentle to me, that I am the happiest, now!" – I said and looked at his reaction. He had such a happy face, warming me up with hope of our feelings being mutual.

- "To be honest, when you left the hospital without telling me, I felt really devastated. I thought, I won't see you again. Then nurse approached and said that, the day before you left, they heard you talking to yourself and saying, you have to pay costs so, I won't pay. They even noticed you, in pain approaching with cried eyes after the payment. Nurse told me, to be a bit smarter, a girl with no feelings and care wouldn't have done that. For real! You lost the project, had issues in your job, but you were caring about me paying for you."

- "That's so nice of the nurse to notice these many things! My faith in humanity is just restored. Hahaha!" – I was so happy, that everything in this world came together to bring us together!

- "Listen, join today my live stream. Come over, maybe we even can watch sunset together. Maybe if you let, I would love to spend the night cuddling with you. Don't get me wrong, please. I just want to spend as much time with you, as we can before you leave."

- "You are a pro in melting people! I have no idea, what to do in live streams, but with you I feel like, I can do anything, I am all in!"

- "That's the dream of a man to be able to make his girl to feel!" – when he said "his girl" he looked at me as for an approval, I smiled at him in means of approving.

He gently, hugged me and leaned to my ear saying - "I will never let you go, princess. You are mine, now". – I Felt the goosebumps all over my body and understood that I am home, now.

- "Promise?" – I tried to put all my love and sincerity in this one word

- "Promise!"

Whole way to his house we were talking about our jobs and our life. I told him about Kat, he told funny stories about his friends Faruk and Yusuf. He was very upset about me being from different country, so I told him that I had to take a sick leave and during these days we can manage to come up with idea how to see one another more often. Deep inside I was worrying, but confident in each action of mine

We reached his flat, entered and I thought, that I get insane, but, somehow, I was here before. In my DNA I could feel familiarity. Strange to admit – but I lived in this house. Sometimes, I feel lucky, that people can't hear my thoughts.

- "Be like home, princess." – he said showing me where to sit and he had no idea that I already felt being home.

-"Your flat is so comfy, I got to tell you."

- "You'll get much comfier with chat, soon!" – By saying chat, he was referring to the people, who were texting to the subscriber only chat during live streams.

Berat's flat was clean, he got 2 rooms, sofa his desk with huge PC with additional camera on the computer and a laptop. "Office of a streamer" – I thought. I was sitting in the living room waiting for him and smelled warming smell of coffee with... Chocolate!

- "Berat? Mmm! What a smell!"

- "Coffee with chocolate, I noticed how you got happy in hospital seeing a chocolate desert during breakfast! I was staring and I guess that was the moment, when I first thought I want to be closer to you." – he gave my coffee and sat before the computer table opening it.

- "OMG! You are opening the live stream, now?" – I freaked out. – "What should I do? I should come when you will call, or what?"

- "Haha! El, no worries, you will sit next to me, my friends are already waiting for me, they know that I won't be alone. You'll like it, trust me, sit next to me, princess and trust me." – He was so chill, not even realizing how far from me is live streaming. I sat next to him, though. I saw how he started his live stream and was very cheerful, not as in all his streams, this was special one I could feel. I got so nervous, that my hands were shaking. Here we go! I saw live chat and people started to type really fast about ME!

"Who is this girl?"

"His girlfriend?"

"Ooooh, brooo, good for you, not single anymore!"

"Berat??? You are not single anymore?"

"Answer to us, who is she?"

Berat was chill and smiling, I looked at myself looking nervous and red, even turned dark purple as beetroot.

- "Guys, hi! I missed you! Look who is with me! So, I brought El, girl, that I crashed into. I told you about the car accident. Thought, you should know this beautiful person!" – after his words I got something between purple and dark violet!

- "Bro, we are truly happy, that you are okay!" – said Faruk (I was able to define Berat's friends from their voices, after watching so many videos of them.)

- "You are lucky, that El is not suing you, bro!" – said Yusuf laughing.

- "I'll tell you more, she is just an angel, she paid costs herself, not letting me to do so!" - chat started to write such beautiful compliments and sending lots of heart emojis, that I felt overwhelmed.

- "Berat, I will fall now from nervousness, please stop complimenting me." – I smiled.

- "Alrighty then, princess!" – him saying princess made chat to go crazy and he liked the reaction and started laughing.

- "What?!!" - screamed Faruk

- "Guys, you are friends or more, Berat tell us already!" – Yusuf asked and was laughing at the same time.

- "El is a very special person to me, as we've been in a crash, where both could die and as you might see, she is already got red from all the attention, so please let's start our game and by time I am sure you will get used to our new participant." – said Berat and I felt relieved.

Gaming went funny. We were playing racing game, as Berat thought in other games two hands for playing are needed. First several rounds I was crashed in seconds, but by time I learned to lean from "enemy cars". Faruk and me were in same team with few more moderators and Berat was playing with Yusuf and 2 additional friends.

We've been playing in live stream for about like 2 hours but felt like several minutes. I don't remember time, when I was this happy and spent such an amazing time! I was feeling like I have an alternative family. In a warm, cozy flat with chocolate coffee and the Sun itself right beside me.