Every good thing has and ending

After streaming and the amazing time that we've spent together, we went to his terrace. Yes, in his flat he has a small, cozy terrace with beautiful view to the Istanbul. We took our tea, it was 4 in the morning, when stream ended.

- "El, I feel like I know you whole my life. You see, how easy it was to game, to join live stream and the chat actually loved you! They understood how sincere you were." – he was enthusiastic while talking about our joint stream.

- "Or people around you are totally like you, kind." – I said and he smiled breathing in smell of my hair.

- "Please, El, don't live in hotel, live with me here for several more days. I promise, I won't let you feel under pressure or..."

- "I thought you never ask!" – I leaned and silenced him with a kiss. – "You make me happy, Berat!" – I said and smiled happily, he tightly pressed me to himself and kept kissing me. We waited for the sunrise together, made a wish. He gave me his bed to sleep and went to sleep in the sofa himself. The moment, I put my head to the pillow, I fall asleep with gratefulness in whole my soul for the best day I've ever spent in my life.

The next days were like a heaven in earth. I checked out from hotel, without any problem took from doctor health bulletin for two months, rechecked my visa and with Berat, who helped in everything, returned to his flat. We've been making breakfasts together, walking in the streets of Istanbul, chilling in his terrace, talking about everything. Berat's friends were coming over and we spent amazingly funny time altogether.

I loved living in Turkey and Turkish people, their cuisine and culture. Everything was unbelievably familiar to me. I seriously, started to think to move in here and find here a job. I even applied to the consulting firms. Nights were innocent, we were kissing for goodbye and never spent the night together.

It was another night after the live stream, when he approached, brought me a coffee sat next to me in sofa. I, as usual, laid down to his chess to feel his heartbeat and took a sip of coffee.

- "I should tell you something, honey. Today, our guys were telling something about new video shoot coming and they told, that I must spend whole day with them, tomorrow."

- "Sure! Don't even think about it! Have fun, life." – I said. We were living together for 40 days, now.

- "Come here!" – he literally grabbed me and hugged tightly kissing my neck – "your understanding and smooth character makes me think, that you are an angel! I've never had this many beautiful days in harmony in my life. I never was so happy... Seeing you trying to live here, to change your life, being far from your family is just... I never knew anyone could care about me this much."

- "You worth it, you so much worth everything." – while being in his arms, I remembered my previous toxic relationship with Oleg and how I've been running from my emotions last 3 years and how I started to breath again next to Berat.

I woke up next morning and saw the note right next to me from Berat saying "Princess, had to go, didn't want to wake up. I already miss you! xo" – I smiled and went to the kitchen to have my breakfast.

While eating I was thinking how life is easier, as my hand got out from plaster two days ago and now, I could use it as usual. I changed my cloth and was ready to search for alternative jobs, when someone knocked on the door. "Berat has keys, so who is that?"- I thought approaching the door, opened and Faruk was standing in there looking nervous.

- "El, hi! Listen, Berat has video shoot today, but I must put some go-pros (hidden camera) in your flat for upcoming prank. Can you help me out?"

- "Oh, what video? Come in, want some tea, coffee?"

- "Thank you so much." – he entered, but looked nervous, not as usual. That was strange.

- "So, as you know, we are doing videos to our youtube channel and we have content of pranking one another, but Berat is too good in this and we must hide cameras in the most unexpected places." – I brought him coffee knowing he likes it, while he was putting on the table three go-pros. – "Thank you for the coffee!"

- "Welcome! What are you planning to do, is it going to be something too harsh on Berat, I am a little bit worried." – I said smiling nervously. Faruk stopped getting the equipment from his backpack and looked at me seriously. Something was not right.

- "You always worry for Berat and we never understood, how could you? You know each other only for several weeks and sometimes you act like he is the most important thing in your life."

- "What if its true? Is there something wrong with that?" – I was feeling bitterness coming inside of me. Faruk never was this open with me, to share his feelings about my relationship.

- "Listen. We know Berat whole our life, you are not his first girlfriend, and be sure, that you are not the last one." – I felt slapped in the face. – "I know, I am being rude, but I care about you and I do care for Berat!"

- "You are not being rude, you simply intervene in things that's none of your business, Faruk. We are not kids, we went through different bullshit in life and whether we will be together, or we will fall apart, we are ready. Without experiencing we won't know!"

- "Said the girl, who simply left the job, family everything behind for the person, who never cared! What he left behind for you? Have you ever thought of it?"

- "What do you mean? He was next to me, helped with everything. He..."

- "He did it for views! To get more views! I am sorry, but I truly don't want you to ruin your life because of the person who never cared! Open your eyes! Have you noticed, that after coming out about your relationship he got much more views!" – he was raising his voice, I was feeling urge to ask him to get out.

- "You are his best friend..."

- "El, listen! I know, you are not together in real meaning, you... you never made love to each other and.."

- "Shut the fuck up, Faruk, this is none of your business!!!" – I stood up in anger and was ready to hit him in the face.

- "But Berat doesn't think this way!" – he said silently this time, and he was right. Why Berat is talking about us and our relationship with guys in details? – "First, calm down and let me to tell you everything."

Headache started fiercely striking, I remembered my past. All, from what I was running from were coming out again. I was feeling it. The home that I found in Berat's arms was going to get ruined. Is it time to wake up?

- "I am listening."