What Am I Going To Decide?

Parental Guidance is recommended. This chapter includes heavy topics!

I was walking back to my parents home, from practice. Ever since Oikawa had lost Iwaizumi, it's been hard on everyone during practice. I still haven't decided how I was going to convince my parents about transferring to Karasuno high school. I put my hands into my sweatshirt, and I see Oikawa on a bench. I sit down, "Hi Oikawa. How have you been holding up?" I say softly. "It's all my fault, you didn't hear about him saving my life. They just told you he passed. I get so angry, cause I can't forgive myself. He died for a pathetic person like me. I am sorry Daichi, I wish I was a better partner at the time, and you deserve Suga so much more." He says holding back tears, I couldn't believe it. He totally apologized for his actions, he was always selfish. I get up and he grabs me. "Do you see Iwaizumi?" He says softly. "I don-" then all of a sudden he comes out of no where. "I thought he passed?" I say confused. "I don't know, maybe it's a second chance. I can't feel him, or touch him. I thought I was going crazy, no one could see him." He says confused. He seems so angry, what happened between Iwaizumi, and Oikawa?

I couldn't understand him, not now. I was still angry for him leaving me alone that night. I know, it's selfish right. Could it be that I was jealous of him liking someone else? I don't like him right? I start to walk and Oikawa walks with me. "I am sorry but, can I walk with you?" He looks down at the sidewalk, "It's been hard, cause I can't stop thinking about the way we left things." He puts his hands in his pockets, "It hurt me." I say, my heart shatters again. "I thought, I was over you. You brought up my feelings, and they never left." I say softy. I start to walk, and he grabs my arm. "I really want you, and I don't think. I can do this without you." He says looking into my eyes. "Oikawa, this is why I blocked you. You wouldn't be there when, I needed you. Then you suddenly be here when, I am there for you. Like it makes me feel, used. You only cared about people when it was too late for everyone." I wipe my tears with my hand. "Daic-", I rip my hand from his. I run to my parents house. Every step hurt, worse. I forcebly open the door, and go to my room. "Why can't, I forget about him?" I cry and sob into my pillow. I punch it, and Suga looks in from the window. He knocks on it. May I come in? I couldn't even look at Suga, to tell him. Some part of me still likes Oikawa, he comes into my room. Rubs my back, "What's wrong?" He says concerned. He looks at me with the soft eyes, and he hugs me so tight. I couldn't even speak, and I feel so ashamed. I couldn't move, he just stayed there. Until I was able to say something. "I am terrified, I wanna be with you at Karasuno. I don't know how I feel about Oikawa. Cause he left me, and he suddenly comes back when I am happy. I don't know how to tell my parents about Karasuno, and what if they-" he stops me. "Shhh, It's okay to not know how you feel about Oikawa, he treated you badly. He left and he doesn't deserve you. About your parents what ever they say. I will help you, and you always have the team. I would really want you to come to Karasuno too. I don't wanna influence your decision since I am biased." He smiles, and he holds me tightly. "I won't let go, until you are ready." He said this so softly. I hear my parents answer the door, They yell to my room. "Daichi, it's Oikawa." Shi-