The New Iwaizumi

Parental Guidance recommended! This includes heavy topics! Suicidal thoughts warning!

I couldn't sleep, every dream. I had him falling right before me. Every dream was a little different, was it a sign? My parents wanted to hold a funeral, but I couldn't look at them to give them an answer. Every time my parents would even look at me, I would get frustrated. I would run out of the house to go to my favorite bench. I would imagine, him holding my hand. I feel so lost without him, and I walk to the spot were he touched me. It feels like forever since, he was here. I feel so empty inside, the last moment, I felt something was when he was slowly leaving me. When he was falling from the building, he saved me from. The minute he was gone, I lost all feeling of love. Maybe that's the punishment of him saving me. My parents found me on the bench, and my dad sits next to me. "Ushijima-san called he offered you a place at shiratorizawa Academy." My dad says handing me the phone. "You should call him, it's a great opportunity for you." He continues speaking. "I don't want it, I wanna stay at Aoba Johsai. I have so many memories here." I say frustrated. "If you understood, you wouldn't of asked me to go. You wouldn't of tried to persuade me as much. You just want to be like me. You wanted that opportunity." I say almost yelling. He tried to hit me and all of a sudden. Someone blocks him. My heart beats so fast, just for a second it flutters. "Iwa-chan?" I say surprised. He touches my face for a second, he feels so warm. He came out of nowhere. He is alive? "You are alive?" I start to cry, my voice could barely say it and my elbows dig into my knees.

He looks at me, he holds me tight. "Oikawa-chan you are so special. I am here to tell you, I choose to let you live. Don't let me stop you from living your life. You understand, You made a mistake and you are gonna have to live with that. I loved you so much, jumping to save you. Holding your hand for the last time, was all I wanted. Remember my dying wish. Never forget to live, I will always be here to help in hard situations. I get it, Oikawa-chan. I wanted to marry you and I will marry you. Not right now. Maybe in the far future." He disappears, and my heart just stops. "WHY DID I HAVE TO MAKE A STUPID DECISION." I yell, "HE COULD OF BEEN- HE COULD OF BEEN- MY HUSBAND." I cry and scream on the bench. "YOU STUPID IWAIZUMI! YOU HAD TO BE THE ONE THAT DIED FOR ME!" I could barely breathe, and I see Ushijima-san comes over to sit down. "Oikawa- san please breathe. I heard about what happened, you don't have to talk about it. I came cause I was worried." He says softly. I didn't know how I could see Iwaizumi, but he looked at me on the other side of the bench. He whispers,"please forget about me." Ushijima looks at me, grabs my hand. "I like you." He looks into my eyes.. I couldn't, stop thinking about Iwaizumi. I felt so stuck. I see him, with my phone. He was listening to the song, that we listened to together. Suddenly I kissed Ushijima thinking it was Iwaizumi. I blinked for a second, and it wasn't Iwaizumi. My heart was beating so fast, I couldn't think. I couldn't breathe. I felt everything around me going wrong.