twelve

Jake arrives at the precinct

"Hey Peralta, y/n feeling better yet?" Rosa asked, not giving away anything.

Jake sighed deeply and rubbed his face in frustration and stress. "Nope she was sick again this morning, she hasn't improved either"

"Bye." Rosa quickly spoke and speed walked away to the evidence locker, where her and Amy decided what to do.

"We need to tell her right? You know so she can take a test..." Amy said worriedly

"Yeah definitely."

They stood in an uncomfortable silence

"Soooo...are you gonna or-" Amy said awkwardly

"No. You do it"

Amy took a breath of fresh air before unlocking her phone and scrolling down to y/n's number.

It rung 3 times before she heard y/n speak tiredly.

Y/Ns POV

I saw my phone was ringing and was surprised to see Amy's name on my screen. I accepted and placed my phone beside me.

"Hey Ames"

"Hey y/n...um me and Rosa heard about you being sick....and we were thinking you might, well you should probably take a pregnancy test."

It suddenly dawned on me, the morning sickness, my awful cramps and the exhaustion. Plus my period was 16 days late.

Shit. How did I not notice that

"Y/n? You ok?" I heard Amy's voice again down the phone. I swallowed hard,

"Um yeah but I don't have any tests on me at the moment.

I heard Rosa speak up :

"I'll bring you some before I go investigate a scene later."

I breathed a sigh of relief. "Okay thanks...Guys ima go I just need to have a moment if that's ok?"

"Of course" Amy said before saying goodbye and hanging up the phone.

Now I was alone, with my own thoughts. I had to face this. I tried not to cry, taking shaky deep breaths before giving in and letting the tears go down my face.

I knew mood swings came with pregnancy which made me cry even more, thinking about how emotional I was going to be.

I didn't know what to think. I had always wanted kids, but maybe this was too early.

How would I possibly manage a baby?

What about Jake ?

I started crying even more, if that was even possible, thinking about Jakes reaction. What if he was angry? Or upset? What if he wanted me to get an abortion? No, he wouldn't do that.

Jake never seemed fond of kids though. What if he was really annoyed.

I tried to calm my breathing, closing my eyes and telling myself everything would be ok. Jake usually comforted me and told me I was fine.

I needed him.

I almost hated how dependent I had become on him, just to be there for me and That could all be gone by tonight.

What about our wedding aswel?

We had just started discussing venues and now all that would go.

My mind flooded with thoughts taking,me on an emotional roller coaster.

A different stream of thoughts came my way. What if I had a baby, half me, half Jake. Imagine having someone you loved so much in a mini person, that belonged to both of you.

It made me happy but I knew I couldn't guarantee that happiness.

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Later that day Rosa dropped off the test. She gave me a quick and stiff hug before leaving, from Rosa that was a lot.

I followed the instructions on the box and set a timer for 10 minutes on my phone before sitting on the couch. Counting the endless time.

After what seemed like forever my phone buzzed and I carefully picked up the test from the bathroom sink, reading it's result

PREGNANT

I stood in shock, trying to process the information. I carefully placed the test in one of my bedside drawers before sitting on the bed, waiting for Jakes arrival.

Eventually I heard his key in the lock, and the pattern of his footsteps coming to our bedroom.

He hurried in and sat down next to me before placing a hand to my forehead, checking for a temperature. I still didn't have one which was about to be explained

"Do you feel ok? Can I get you anything? Y/n how is it on a scale of 1-10? Did you throw up again?" He bombarded me with questions, his brow furrowed with concern

"Yes, no thanks, 2 and nope" I responded to all of his questions

He breathed out in relief "phew, okay" and he smiled at me.

Jake gave me a confused look when I didn't smile back.

"Jake, something happened today, i just need you to promise to listen."

He mimed zipping his lips and took both my hands in his before staring intently at me

"Jake...I'm pregnant."

It was only afew second but it felt like eternity waiting for his response.

To my complete surprise a huge grin spread across his face. I started seeing tears in his eyes before he moved closer to me and wrapped both is arms tightly around me.

I felt myself starting to cry again, in relief.

"You aren't mad?" I said quietly

"Whattt no of course not y/n" he chuckled softly. I felt some of his tears drip onto my head as we sat together, comforting each other as we both cried. 

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I caught Jake looking at me for the 4th time that evening. His eyes were full of love.

Both our faces were red and puffy from our happy meltdown as we cuddled up on the sofa, a huge blanket over us and a film playing though neither of us were engaged with it.

I couldn't believe I had such a wonderful fiancé. I didn't believe i would ever be this in love, yet I was living it.

Jakes POV

Y/n was leaning back on my chest as we sat together, a random movie playing quietly. I gently placed my hands on her belly and my heart soared.

I didn't care if our baby was barely pea sized, it was still there, in the woman I loved most in the world.

I knew instantly she would be the best mother to our child ever, and I swore to myself I would be the best dad I could possibly be.

I started thinking about our baby.

If she was a girl she would be my little princess. Looking as beautiful as her mommy. I would make sure no boys broke her heart.

If he was a boy I would also treat him as a prince. Make sure he grew into a sweet young man.

It didn't matter, either way I was going to support our child no matter who they grew to become.

I gently rubbed my thumb in small circles on y/ns belly. My top priority now was making sure she was safe, comfortable and happy.

I knew we could do this no matter what. I loved her that much.

Old me would've never managed, but y/n had helped me grown as a person and I knew now I would rise to the occasion and make sure I gave my family the best life I could.