Seems like I am as pathetic as you. But you won't notice and I won't mention...
I am sorry but please don't misunderstand cause I can't explain either.
[ Flashback; One and half years ago ]
[ Heidie POV ]
Hey dear pretty love!I saw you with her once more. You look absolutely stunning with her. You have an affectionate expression on your face as you look at her. You don't believe me...do you? Yes I love you. I love you to death. Yet I'm terrified. I try to recall a time when you looked at me with that expression. I would never believe you have a sweat side if she didn't exist. you can also bear skinship too. Just not with me. I am scared. I feel like losing you even when I didn't have you. I am well aware that I am insufficient. I'm well aware that I'm lacking in a variety of areas. I know I am not the type you would like. She is flawless. While i have so many flaws that I stopped counting now.