Am I insane???

In the evening

Vicky! Are you ok? Vicky.. Open your eyes.

Vicky! Stay with us.

Victoria...

Vicky..

All of them were screaming. It...It was blur. My head was bleeding. It was my mistake, I knew I was the one who did it but I didn't want to. It was like, I couldn't control myself like there was someone who was commanding me. I couldn't do anything of my own will. It was like I am a puppet.

I could sense my cousins' taking me someplace, and then it was nothing but darkness.

A few hours ago...

Today, I am the one driving again. I had to ruin an hour persuading them to allow me to drive. Not like I am fond of driving or something but I couldn't have allowed any of them to drive. I had to stop them and it wouldn't have been possible if any of them drove.

"Where specifically is this area? We have been driving for hours but there is literally nothing for miles. It's just forest on both the sides of the road." Complained Tyler.

Well! Maybe we gotta have some more patience, which clearly all of us are lacking.

Hmm. Andrea is right. Let's just wait and it's not every day we have such adventuresome trips. Let's enjoy it a little. Some music, snacks, chit-chat and it's the best day.

"I can clearly agree with Vicky." Said Ryan.

We were just talking about some old incidents along with the light music and of course our favorite snacks that Tyler made for us in the morning. I never imagined I would say this but I think I can definitely endure them. We have been together from childhood and we had all the fun of our life but we still considered each other the most annoying creatures in the world that we could neither let go nor live with but this trip, actually made me realize they aren't that bad. Like most of the time, I am annoyed with them, it's just not real. It's all a facade. We all enjoy each other's company but we would never confess it.

So guys, you remember the prank we played with Vicky. I still can't get over that.

On second thought, no I can't bear these people. Why the hell exactly did Kol have to get this conversation out of nowhere. I hate that day. That day was officially the worst day of my life.

Present Time

My eyes opened and I was in that mansion again. So, was I succesful? Did I actually do that right? My first instinct was to check everyone. I had to make sure all of them were alright. What I did was risky and I didn't want anyone to get hurt but somehow I did it. I didn't care if they live or die. For that one moment, I did what I had to, I could have killed them but I didn't hesitate. I did something that I never even thought of doing. I knew I did it by myself, I wasn't forced or controlled or manipulated or anything, it was all me. It was like the parts of me that I never knew existed. The parts that were just buried deep inside. The parts that I would never want to come to the surface. The parts that were dark and flawed.

I could see Ryan's hand bleeding but this was the least of the things you expect when you crash your car in the woods. Not like I had any choice either, I had to stop them from going, I hurt them so they wouldn't have any choice but to go back. I had no idea why. I sometimes get some strange visions and I know what I have to do. It's like a strange voice in my head telling me what to do and I just can't fight it. I just follow everything blindly because I know that's my subconscious speaking. There's something in my head, some memories that are coming out in form of visions. It's not clear, like I said, something I don't have accessed to. Something I am able to see only when it wants me to. I was so thankful nobody was serious. They just had minor injuries. I could sense how worried they were and how relieved at the same time. They were worried because of my condition but were relieved because I woke up.

"Are you okay? Does it hurt?" Asked Andrea crying.

I am alright, just a bit lightheaded but I am fine.

"Thank goodness, I-I-I thought we lost you. You are so stupid and insane, I swear to god, I feel like slapping you right now. I hate you. Do you have any idea how worried we were? You almost took the life out of us." Her voice was cracking as tears started to roll off her cheeks.

I am so sorry, I have no idea how I lost control of the car.. I am really sorry. Are you all okay?

Andrea, don't you dare call her insane. Remember the last time we dared call her insane, she literally raised Cain over us.

"Well! Kol, was it before or after you played that stupid prank on me?" Yes, a prank we would call it because none of us were ready to accept the fact, that it was all real. They really felt guilty and all of that they did was to make me feel better, I really felt grief and I couldn't have taken it if it was real. We cared no matter we showed it or not.