Chapter 13

Up until now, I was still shocked. He already walked away but I'm still staring at where he sat down earlier. When I realized that, I quickly fixed myself and started thinking about everything he said.

I'm happy because he'll do everything to be deserving of my love but I guess I'll be happier if he'll do that for himself. I want him to be fully healed for himself because I know that, that's what he deserves, I want him also to prioritize himself this time, and most importantly, I don't want him to do things that he will surely regret in the future.

Regardless of what he's trying to do, I can say that I'm very proud of him I saw him wasted and almost giving up so I am very proud to see him like this, and I'm also proud of myself for helping him overcome things.

When I realized once again the real reason why I'm here, I stopped myself from thinking about what happened and I just went down to clearly remove the negative vibes that I'm feeling right now. My main intention is to release stress but why am I stressing myself over this matter, right?.

I just decided to go to the mall and pampered myself. After everything that happened this week, I know that I deserve to chill. I just did my usual routine when I'm at the mall, the only difference is that I watched a movie alone earlier. It was a romantic type of movie.

The next day, I woke up early because I still need to go to school. Even though the finals already ended, we still have lots of things to accomplish and most importantly, the results of our finals exam will come out today and I'm very nervous and at the same time, I'm also very excited because of that.

To be honest, I'm actually excited by the fact that I'll be able to enjoy my life after this day. Although I'm enjoying my life right now, it's still different when you get to travel and see nature. Well, I am a very beach person, that's why.

Right now, I'm praying. I hope I passed all my subjects because I don’t want to take some supplementary classes. After all, it lasts for 2 freaking months. It’s definitely a hassle.

When I arrived at the school, I went straight to the garden and sit on one of the benches to freshen up my mind. I don’t know what’s happening to me because I’m really nervous even though I know that I did my best. I just don’t want to disappoint everyone especially my parents, I guess.

When my alarm rang, I went straight to the bulletin boards because that’s where they will post the results of the exams. Actually, students came here today just to see the results, we don't actually have classes today so we're free to get wherever we want to and I guess that's my favorite part here.

When I saw the result on the bulletin board, I wanted to cry. I wanted to cry not because I failed but because I made it on top. I am the rank one in my course. I didn't expect this because I had answers that I'm not sure about. This one's really a blessing for me. All I just wanted to say is thank you, Lord, because without his guidance I know I can't achieve this.

When I kind of get over the results, I confidently walked towards the cafeteria. I'm in a good mood so I greeted every person that I know here in the cafeteria.

When I went to our table where my friends are seated, they gave me a teasing smile and I'm sure that that's because I greeted everyone which is kind of unusual for an introverted person like me.

"Someone's in a good mood today hmmm," Aaliyah said, maybe she went straight here that's why she didn't know why I'm happy.

"Yes super! I topped my course!!" I announced happily. I can't hide my happiness anymore. There's this weird feeling inside me. I just feel like this is the fruit of my hard work.

"We're proud of you!!!" They all said except for Vince. He seems annoyed and like, bothered so I stared at him to observe his moves. When he noticed that I was looking at him, he met my gaze and mouthed congratulations. I just smiled at him but when I saw what he's looking at, my smile eventually faded. It was Bryce, talking to Danica. I noticed that they're not coming here to the table and I know exactly the reason behind it but of course, my other friends don't know about that so they now keep on talking about them.

"You know what, I just noticed, ever since the exam week, they didn't come with us. Did I miss anything? Why do I feel like I know nothing here?" Audrey stated.

I just looked at Leah and Leah just gave me a nod as a sign to tell them what really happened.

"It was actually my fault. You're all aware that I'm helping Bryce forget and move on, right?" I asked and then they nodded.

"I'm helping him forget about his feelings because I know that he doesn't deserve what he's been through but unfortunately, while he's still in the process of healing, I fell for him," I told them honestly

"And then, things happened. Kaye and I went to the bar the other week, unluckily Kaye got drunk and she accidentally confessed her feelings towards Bryce. That happened during weekends and when Monday came, Bryce ignored Kaye the whole time then after a week, Bryce suddenly went to our room to confess what he really feels towards Kaye. He said that Kaye healed him" Leah said. She continued everything for me since this one's still a very sensitive matter for me.

When I looked at my friends' reactions, they're all shocked especially, Vince. Well, I guess he didn't expect that those things happened to me. It's okay though.

They just smiled at me, well, I got shocked because, for me, they're kind of weird, I mean, I just don't get them but I just let it be.

"Wait, wait so you do have mutual understanding, right? Then why are you still avoiding each other? I just don't understand" Audrey asked

"Can't you see, Audrey, he let Kaye suffer and it's not possible to just forget about that, he needs to learn his lesson" Leah answered for me which made me shocked. Audrey was about to answer but I stopped her because I can sense a war between the two of them,

"Well, actually, right after our exams, I went to the rooftop to grasp some fresh air because I wanted to somehow release my stress, but, Bryce was there coincidently. He got the chance to talk to m because I was seating next to him. He told me that he realized his mistakes and right now, he understands that it's still not the right time for us to continue what we feel for each other. He also told me that he'll fix himself first to be deserving of my love" I told them honestly which made their jaw dropped. Yes, all of them including Leah because I haven't told her about that.

"Well, that's good, at least Bryce knew what's wrong. He chose to analyze the situation first and for me, that's something great" Brianna said

"Yes, he did the right thing, in case, while you are having fun now, someone is still hurting," Vince said seriously.

I was shocked, actually, he's right. Bryce is still hurting but I guess, it's not wrong for me to be happy now since I accomplished a lot. I'm proud of myself now so I don't see any wrong with what I'm feeling now.

"Oh come on Vince, don't make it sound like it's all Kaye's fault. He needs no fix himself, okay?" Aaliyah said.

Vince and I stayed quiet, I just let them do their chit chats while me, I'm glancing at Bryce secretly. I kept on doing that but when I was about to glance at him for the fifth time, Lea saw me and immediately elbowed me as a warning to stop what I'm doing.

"Kaye, stop" Leah whispered. I obeyed her because I know that I'm at fault here. A good thing, they all decided to go home so it's a win-win situation for me.

While I'm on my way home, something came up in my mind that made my heart so excited. There's this something in my head that I know is very helpful for me, and that is

To escape my problems through a simple vacation...

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