Doctor’s Visit

I wake up this weekend, my heart filled with dread. It's hopeful all the same but I can just feel that with my family there I won't be able to fight for what I know is right. The anxiety deep inside is building up and all the possible things that can go wrong start flooding my brain.

I get dressed as quickly as I can, the pain has disappeared today. I've also come down with sinus so that makes blood tests a lot harder. I hate getting sick when you're trying to find out other stuff. "Raven please get into the car or we're going to be late!"my mom announces from downstairs. I make my way slowly down the stairs, I haven't slept in days and I'm exhausted from it. I struggle to sleep every night cause of the pain. Pulling my muscles and dislocating my shoulder wakes me up some nights.

I'm tired of everything but I want to be alive. I make my way and finally sit in the car with the rest of my family. The short drive to the hospital feels like hours, then we arrive to reveal my nightmare. A prestigious hospital in our town! "Hello ma'am! What's the name of the patient?"the nurse says politely. I drown out the sound of my mother's reply and just sit in the corner with Fawn looking at me worriedly.

When we're finally called to see the doctor, the getting up to stand sends my heart racing a thousand miles an hour. I push it aside believing it to be the lack of sleep I've been recently enduring.

"Hello ma'am! Dr.Catherine is waiting for you inside,"the nurse announces a second time while I try to regain my thoughts while colors light up my vision. I walk slowly but eventually make it to the door. "Hello! You must be Raven,"the doctor announces.

I nod not even seeing everything or knowing who's there as my eyes are blurred. "Are you ok?"she asks me as I'm wheezing a little. "I'm just so tired!"I say seriously. She laughs it off, "Late night?" "Nope, I can't sleep no matter what time I go to bed. I always fall asleep at about 4am or later even,"I say seriously. "Is this why she came?"the doctor asks my mom. "No! She came cause her knee is causing her trouble a doctor referred her to go to an Orthopedic,"my mum says seriously.

"Well she seems to be really suffering if she can't sleep and such,"the doctor says kindly. "I doubt it! No kid can go through that much pain all the time,"my mum says seriously and continues, "I think it's all in her head."

The doctor looks taken aback, she says, "Um let's do some tests! We'll do some blood tests but as you're sick there will be some obstructions. We'll do some X-rays and based on that we will go forwards." "What is the most likely cause?"my mum asks kindly. My blurry vision finally cleared and I am feeling quite a lot better except that my knee is paining and I still have sinus.

"I can't possibly say,"she says and continues, "anything else?" "Yes, can you make sure my parents don't just assume before it's actually proven. My parents will believe anything right now,"I says seriously and she nods.

My parents glare at me, my sister hugs me tight. I take blood and I do the x-ray, we then go home. I go straight to my room as I wait for the results. The results come in 2 days later and my mum calls to make an appointment. "Sorry, Dr.Catherine has gone on vacation!"the nurse says politely. "Is there any other orthopedic that we can see?"my mum asks agitatedly. "Yes a Dr.Sally,"she says kindly. "Thanks! What time?"my mum asks impatiently. "At 2 on Sunday is her only available slot,"she says nervously. "We'll take it,"my mum says and then hangs up.

She shouts the timing and day to me. I shout back, "OK! I GUESS NO SCHOOL THEN!" I hear her laugh, "You're going to school and then I'll pick you up an hour before that time,"she says seriously. I groan. I've been fainting a lot in private, I think it's from the lack of sleep.

I've been trying to sleep for the past 3 hours, it's almost time for dinner. After dinner starts another sleepless night. After the weekend ends, I go to school and wait for my mom to come so I can finally hear what is wrong with me. The time finally comes.

They race to the hospital and my mom tries to rush me to the doctor. I walk slowly at my own pace while my mother runs ahead. "Hello...I'm...here...to see...Dr...Sally,"she says out of breath. I laugh at her uncontrollably and then I start to cough uncontrollable. "That's what you get for laughing at your mum,"she says ignoring the fact that I need water badly. Eventually she realizes I'm actually choking and gets me some water.

"Thanks,"I say happily. "Hi I'm Sally,"she says politely and continues, "nurses around here are saying you're our latest hypochondriac." I roll my eyes. "Everyone is worried about their health and I for one am sure somethings wrong with me I'm not stupid,"I say seriously. My mum just looks at me like she's misjudged me but as quickly as that look appeared it disappeared. "So results?"the doctor says and then looks on her computer. "Is anything wrong?"me and my mum ask at the same time. "No! Not in the blood tests that they took, even the x-ray shows nothing,"she says kindly. "So you're saying it's what then?"my mum asks.

"Well we can do a MRI if you guys want but that takes time for approval,"she says seriously. "Do whatever to get it done so we can make sure she's ok,"my mum says seriously. The doctor nods.

The approval takes weeks on end and we never get called. My dad finally calls and complains that they aren't taking my illness seriously. There could be something seriously wrong and then what would they do. I eventually get called to do the MRI. They usher me in and give me the emergency button to hold. The music plays in my ears but the sounds of the machine abound, it takes long and it's scary. I'm a kid. I've heard stories about people getting injured with MRI machines that pull them in and kill them because of the magnetic. The loud clanging and banging and buzzing noises aren't drowned by the light music playing through the headphones, every new sound sends my heart pumping and all the thoughts of what can go wrong emerge in my mind and take me captive.

I eventually get my results which takes days as well, by then I have a new problem.