The start of it all

You're nothing and you will never be anything my grandma yells as she slaps me in the face. You're gonna end up just like you're dumb ass mama my grandpa spits as he pushes me to the floor, and just as he is about to throw the glass vase at me I wake up in a cold sweat. Breath Lisa breath it was just a dream I say to myself it's been four years since I moved out of my grandparent's house but the dreams haven't stopped. I lived with them for about ten years and even though I'm twenty-five now I remember those terrible ten years like it happened yesterday. They treated me like I was nothing to them all because my mother wouldn't leave my abusive father. They felt like it was her fault that he would hit her that only if she would quote on quote listen to him then she would have the perfect marriage. But in reality, if they would have just helped her get away from him as normal parents would then she would still be here to this day. It got so bad to the point that they didn't even go to her funeral. But anyway as I get out of bed to check the time I see that's it's four in the morning I take a deep breath and grab my favorite red and blue hoodie and my black fuzzy blanket and walk into the living room. I set my blanket down on the couch then walk into the kitchen to start the coffee. Once the coffee is done I pour myself a cup then make my way back to the living room as I flop down on the couch I turn the tv onto Criminal Minds my favorite show. Funny how a show about people with horrible thoughts can help me take the focus off of mine. Ever since I was a little girl I wanted to be able to have a relationship like the one Morgan and Garcia has. But I know it doesn't work like that in real life. A few days ago I ran into the man I'm still in love with we dated for almost four years then one day he just left no explanation, no goodbye no anything just gone. It hurt like hell to know someone that you love, someone you fell in love with and put all of your time and effort into can just walk away and leave you broken and confused. As soon as I saw him all of the love I had for him that I thought was gone came running back. The feeling of my heart pounding and the butterflies in my stomach came back letting me know I don't know I guess that I am still in love with him