His Pain

He looks away from me and takes a deep breath " you don't have to tell me if you don't want to I'm sorry I asked " " no I'll tell you just promise me that you wont tell anyone please " " I pinkey promise I won't tell anyone " he chuckles and takes another deep breath " okay ma so it was a long time before I meet you but the guy my mom used to date used to do these terrible things to her and one day when I got old enough I walked in from school on him I'm trying to rape her and I beat the living shit out of him and put a gun to his head and said if he ever came near her again I was gonna blow his brains out so he left but about five months before I had to um go away I was getting these phone calls and text from a number I didn't know saying they know where I am and where my mom is and shit I ain't think anything of it because I had my boy looking into it to see who it was but by time he did it was too late I went to visit my mom and um I saw him beating her so I pulled him off of her I shot him but I didn't kill him I almost did though and so I had to go away for a while to make sure everybody was safe because he knew where you lived at the time and I couldn't let you get hurt like I did my mom so the cops took him to jail and he got found guilty for sexual assault and lots of other he's been running from the law for so we went into a protection of my own and I moved my mom and when I was sure she was set and safe without me being there i still got my people looking after her but I'm back "

" tears fall down my face he reaches over and whips my face " don't cry baby girl it's okay" " can we leave? " " yeah sure " he gets up and throws our trash away and I get up and start to walk to the car as he comes over and opens the door for me I walk to the car and get in and close the door he looks sad but he gets in and starts the car " Can we just sit here and talk? " "yeah if that's what you want to do" he turns the car off and turns to face me " as we sit there in a comfortable silence it starts to rain as my mind drifts off as I look out into the rain "you still love the rain " "yeah it's my favorite " " I know I remember that year we first started going out it was a few days before our five month anniversary it was raining so hard and all you wanted to do was go play in the rain and we did and you got so sick that we couldn't do anything for the next few weeks " I smile as I drift back to that day " yeah I remember that we couldn't do anything for our anniversary I mean I wasn't complaining since we just stayed home , talked and cuddled " as I let the window down some and puts my hand out to feel the rain on my skin " yeah that's also the day you told me about your grandparents" that day was the first day I had ever even spoken to anyone about my past and he's the only one I've ever told about it " yeah I know it was one of the hardest things I've had to do " " I know ma if it makes you feel better you are the only one I've told about with my mom ever well besides the police officer that we called that night and I still didn't tell him all that I told you and um I didn't tell you all of it " I'm confused what did he mean he didn't tell me all of it " you didn't ? " no " he says as he grips the steering wheel " you don't have to tell me Warren it's okay I understand " " no I want to ,I need to tell you I've never told anyone this and this shit still hunts me till this day " I turn to face him as he looks out the front window I put my hand on his arm and I can feel his body start to relax he takes a deep breath " okay so when i was about seventeen my mom got pregnant by him and it was a baby girl and one day he was at work and she ran to the store and I was at home he got home before her and I hear the door open and it's her but the first thing you hear is him yelling WHERE THE FUCK YOU BEEN and as shes saying she went to the store which was pretty obvious since she had bags in her hand but in the middle of talking I hear this big ass thud and I run in there and I see him kicking her in the stomach and i run over and pull him off and start beating his ass and once he's knocked out I run to cheek on her and all she could do was hold her stomach so i rushed her to the hospital and since she was close to her due date already the took her into a immediate labor or something like that i'm not really sure but um when she pushed Princess out she was um dead from head trauma " as he says this tears rolls down his face and I can could feel his pain I wipe his face and hug him the best i could " I'm so sorry " he turns in his seat and hugs me and he just cries and i comfort him just like he did with me " it's my fault if I would have never went into my fucking room my baby sister would still be alive " "it's not your fault don't say that" I just hug him neither of us saying anything he's never cried in front of me before he's in so much pain we both are but we have each other after about ten minutes of me holding him he sits up and whips his face " I um I have to go do something do you want to come with me or do you want me to take you home " he says starting the car up " can I come with you please " I say as I put my seat belt on " yeah want me to stop by so you can change ?" he starts to drive down the street " Nah it's cool I have an extra pair of clothes in my bag " I reach in the back seat and grab my back pack "close your eyes " i joke " okayyyyy but I don't drive good with out my eyes " he laughs I climb in the back seat and start to take my dress off and I look up and see him looking in the review mirror " hey pervey eyes on the road " he chuckles " aw I'm sorry princess " he looks back at the road smirking knowing that I love being called princess as i slip on my baby blue vans i climb back into the front " much better " " you look beautiful ma " " why thank you now where we going " " I gotta handle some business " I know what that means " baby you remember what you gotta do when we get there ? " yeah after you get out get in the driver seat and push the button for the tented windows and if you don't come back in less then thirty minutes pull off and go a block up and if five minutes your not there then leave " " and whats the last thing " i think for a minute " oh and if i hear any gun shots leave " " okay baby we are almost there I love you so much I should be back quick they good people " as we pull up to the place he gets out and I climb into the driver seat and flip the switch for the window tint he grabs a bag from the trunk and as he walks past the window he kisses his hand and puts it up and i do the same then he walks in I sit there and turn the music slightly up so that it fills the car but not to loud to be heard from the outside it takes about twenty minutes before he comes back out and knocks on the window from me to let him in " sorry it took so long that nigga loves to talk " he says as the throws a back pack in the back seat I drive up the street to park so we can switch back as i get back in the car i look out the window at the rain that's still falling I feel him put his hand on my thigh " what's wrong baby girl " as i slowly move his hand he looks over at me then back at the road " did I do something " as I whip my eyes " you just scared me a little bit that's all" as he pulls up to his house he gets out and comes to my side and opens my door " I'm sorry baby I know me taking a long time scares you and I promise i tried to get out but it's rude to just walk away when a big time client is talking I'm sorry Lisa I'm going to make it up to you I promise