Chapter 26 (Josephs POV) Savior!

I looked at John for a few moments, as I shivered just the slightest bit at the same time as well. I was not so sure if what he had just said, was in fact true or not. I wish that I could have the self confidence to believe in my self like that, but I knew who I was, and I knew that I would choke as soon as I walked up on that stage.

I wished that Julia was here with me, as it felt like she made things a lot better, and made me feel a lot more safe for some reason when she was around. I knew that she was busy helping Adrian around the farm, with my sister as well, who I also wished was here with me right now.

John had told them not to be though, as he had said that I did not need any sort of distractions. Some times, it felt like John did stuff like that on purpose, as some sort of test to me, as I was not so sure how he could think that it would hurt me, rather than help me.

I had told him time and time again, that I was purely awful at talking to people in big public spaces. Normally, when I thought of stuff like that, it was just a few people, and even that gave me a fair amount of anxiety. This, this was going to be a lot worse than just a few people.

There were thousands of people that were going to be there, listening to me give a speech. Even if the speech was a simple one, and I would have to do far harder ones in the future, it still did scare me, as to the fact that I was about to have to step up to so many people, and speak to all of them.

I gulped a little bit, as I blinked my eyes at the same time as well, as I did my best to get my self out of all of the thoughts that I was stuck in at the current moment. After a little while longer as well, I let out quite the loud sigh, which seemed to resonate all through out the small room in the tent that we were in right now.

It was just me and John though right now, as I knew that there was nothing that I needed to be worried about at the moment. John knew how I felt right now, and he could see it on my face. He might not understand why I was this way, but he could tell that I was under a lot of stress at the moment, at the very least.

John stared at me, with his eyes squinted on me at the same time as well too. It did not make me feel any better at all, as I dipped my head to the ground, as I was not sure what it was that I should do, or what I should say to him right now.

I blinked a few times again, as I did my best to not get too worried about it. I knew that there was plenty of things out side of the tent right now, that I needed to be worried about, rather than to be worried about the fact that John was staring at me, like he always seemed to do for some odd reason.

John let out a bit of a sigh as well, that was not quite as loud as the sigh that I had just had. I looked at him for a bit longer too, as I nodded to him. He nodded back to me, as I realized that it was now my time to speak up to him, which I did in fact do so as well.

"So... We were in a rush earlier, but now we are not... Are we going to go out there?" I asked him. He looked at me for a few moments, as he tilted his head at the same time too. He looked to be quite a bit surprised, which I did not blame him for it either, as I had said it in a bit of a strange way.

John looked down at the ground, as he had been seeming to do a lot of over the last few days. It was a bit strange to me, as he normally had a quick response to what it was that I had said to him, but now that suddenly did not seem to be the case at all, which confused my quite a bit.

I was worried for him, as I knew that he had a lot on his mind. He was the leader of a very big legion, which was one thing that I could say was true. It meant that he was the leader for all of the humans in the world at this point, which I could see how it could put a lot of stress on one person.

I felt a lot of stress, just based off of the fact that a lot of people looked up to me, as they expected big things. I had never had to deal with that ever before, as I wish that I could just go back to the old days, before all of this had ever happened to the world, and all of the people in it.

Things were a lot more simple, even if I just worked at a bar, and I came home, and often times went straight to bed. I missed the simple times, and I most importantly missed my mother, and Pops. Things seemed a whole lot different without them around me all of the time.

I closed my eyes, as I felt sick by the fact that I was thinking about them again. I had been doing my best to clear all of it out of my head lately, but it had seemed to be to no avail at all. I did not just want to erase them from my memory, as it was a good memory, but at the same time, it was also a bit of a sad memory as well.

I needed to be focused on the fact that I needed to save the world, on not on the past, and the people that I had lost due to all of this. I knew that would get me no where, and there were a lot of people looking up to me, as they expected me to do better than just that too.

Every single person in the legion, looked up to me, with a little bit of hope. Even the people that were in the tent, and were used to this type of stuff. I knew that I could not let them down, as there was one thing that my mother had told me, was to be the person that I was meant to be.

It was always a bit confusing to me, as to what it was that she had meant by that. It seemed clear to me now, as I some times wondered if she had seen this coming all along. It would make sense, as I was sure that she had the same dreams that I had, every single night.

If she had known some thing about it, I just was not sure why she had not said some thing to us, or hell, even the city, and all of the people in it. I am sure that the government would have done some thing about it, as they were the ones that had made this legion in the first place, and they were the ones that had been hiding the fact that there had in fact been dragons this entire time.

I shook my head at the same time too, as I lifted my head up, and I opened my eyes, as I finally, after quite a bit of some time of silence in the tent, John decided that he was ready to speak back to me. I saw a bit of a strange look on his face, which I could not cypher, as I shook it off, and began to listen to what it was that he had to say to me as well.

"Well... I just did not want you to go out there, and be freaked out..." He said to me, as I looked at him for a bit of some time, as I had my eyes squinted at him at the same time too. He did not seem to be bothered by it, as he usually did not, when I was to do things as such, as he shook his head, and then he continued to speak to me. "If you are ready, than so am I..."

I looked at him for a little while longer, as he dipped his head to the ground, and let out a heavy sigh once again, which I was still a bit confused as to what it was for, and what it was, that was going on with him at the exact moment. I figured that I should not be worried, but at the same time too, I could not help but be.

He was the leader of our legion, and he was a bit of the guy that was supposed to be mentoring me. It kind of felt like at the moment, that I was the one that was mentoring him. It was as if I was my uncle, and he was the young kid, and I was telling him what it was that we needed to do.

I knew that was not the case at all how ever, as I remembered the fact that I was about go out of the tent, and speak to thousands of people. At the thought of that, I now began to feel as if I was the one that was the small child now, as I too dipped my head a bit low to the ground.

I knew that I should not be that way, but at the same time as well, I could not help but do so, as I almost wanted to cry as well. I shook off those thoughts, as I knew that I could not be a coward. I was never one to back down from a test before, so I knew that I could not just let that suddenly change.

I felt like, when I was younger, my uncle had told me a few times, that he had seen some thing in me. Just based off of all of the powers that I had been told that he had, I wondered if he could perhaps even see in to the future, and he had seen what it was going to be like for me.

Some of the things that he had said to me when I was a young kid, now felt a bit strange to me, as I thought back on it. When I was younger, I thought that he was just a weird guy, but now that I knew all of what it was that I knew now about dragons, it felt like he was trying to tell me some thing.

I still was just not so sure as to why my mother had hid that from me and my sister, as from what I had been told by John, my uncle told him and my cousin all about it when they were very young, as he had felt like he had to warn them about some thing that was real, and some thing that would come for them.

He was not wrong either, as they did in fact come for him, and my cousin, as I had heard that my cousin had died just a few days after turning 18. I had been told that it was a homicide, but now that I knew all about the dragons, and the fact that they were looking for my family, I now knew that it was not the case at all.

I shook off all of those thoughts at the same time too, as I was not sure why I was stuck in my head, on those thoughts right now, as I had a lot of other things that I needed to have on my mind. Like the fact that I was not so sure what it was that I was going to say to an entire legion of people.

It was easy enough for the people in the room to tell me, that all I had to say to them, was that I was a powerful man, and I had these types of powers, and that we would win the war. They did not know how stressful it was for me to speak in front of so many people at the same time though.

Well, besides that one older man, as he had seemed to understand just a little bit, as I had remembered that he had told me that my uncle had been the same as I had been. It made me feel just a little bit better, as I knew that he was not lying, just to give me a little bit of a boost of self confidence.

He had seemed to be genuine with what he had said, and I had to assume that he was not lying, as he looked to be in his late 50s, if not early 60s. He was in amazing shape, as there was no denying that, but I could tell that the man had been through a lot in his life, and he had seen a lot of bad shit.

Hell... Every one in that room had, as I was not sure how all of those people had managed to stay sane through all of that, as I some times felt like I was a crazy person some days. I let out a bit of a quiet sigh to my self though, as I shook my head as well, to shake off all of those thoughts, that seemed to be swarming all through out my head at the current moment in time.

I then looked back up to John, who I saw no longer had his head to the ground, but he rather had his eyes squinted at me, such as he had just a few moments ago. I looked back at him, as I had completely forgot what it was that we had even been talking about a little while before hand.

It then hit me, as I looked around at the fact that we were in a big room, that was in quite a big tent. If you compared it to a house, it was still small, but it was an amazingly large tent. I blinked a few times, as I shook off those thoughts at the same time as well, as I knew that they were useless, and quite a bit of some pointless thoughts.

I looked at John for a bit longer, as I nodded to him as well. John seemed to just be staring in to my soul though, as he looked to be trapped in his own head at the moment. After a bit longer how ever, he did in fact nod back to me, which let me know that it was now my time to speak, which I did in fact do so as well.

"Alright... Well lets go..." I said to him, as I blinked a few times, at the same time as well. If I was going to be truthful at the moment, I at first had thought that I might in fact be ready for this, but I now began to realize, that as soon as we walked out of that tent, there was going to be a whole lot of people staring right at me.

Even that freaked me out, as I was not sure what it was that I was going to do, when I had to step up to the entire legion, and speak to them. I wish that I could just stay in this tent, and never have to walk out of it, to see what was on the other side, waiting for me.

I shook my head, as I knew that I could not do so at all right now. I looked at John, as I saw him nod to me, as I tilted my head, as I was not sure what was going on right now, and what it was that we were even doing. John blinked a few times suddenly how ever, as he then began to walk out of the entrance to the tent.

I shivered a little bit, as I let out quite the bit of a heavy sigh. After a couple of seconds had passed, I then began to follow him, as I no longer saw him, as he had gone out of the tent. I did the same as he had done, as I was almost tempted to close my eyes, as I felt like there were going to be a lot of people staring at me.

It would not drown out the voices at all how ever, as I could hear them loud and clear out side still, even though it was not as loud, once you went in to the tent. As soon as I walked out of the tent, the voices seemed to get louder than ever before. I had my head low to the ground, as I just did my best to follow in Johns foot steps.

It felt like all the eyes were on me at the moment, as I was about damn sure that every one was talking about me right now too. I just continued to follow John all the way over to where it was that he was taking us, just as he had said for me to do in the first place.

We continued to walk for a little while longer, as I drowned out all of the voices, as there were too many of them, to try to focus on a single one of their conversations right now. I did not want to any ways, as I felt like they were going to be talking about me, and that they might be saying how I looked to be a bit of a disappointment.

I some times felt like I was, as I was not some big dude, like my uncle was, as I was not nearly as buff as he had been either. I could see it in the eyes of the people that knew my uncle, as they did not seem to look to be too sure that I could do what it was that John said I could do.

Hell... I was not even sure if I could do so my self. I knew that I needed to have the self confidence, but I was not sure as to how I was going to be able to have any, if I was not sure what I could do in the first place. I mean, sure, I could see the dragons in my dreams, but that only went so far, if I had not a clue as to where I was at, or what was going on a lot of the time.

I shook off all of those thoughts though, as I saw that John suddenly stopped for some odd reason. I stared there for a few moments, as I was a bit confused as to what it was that was going on at the current moment, as the voices of the people that were in the crowd, seemed to be louder than they ever had been before.

I just stared down at the ground still, such as I had been doing before, as I did my best to not focus too much on it, as I let out a loud sigh, which seemed to fade in the wind, as I had not even heard me do so in the first place, due to the fact that there were so many people around me right now.

I stared at the ground for quite a bit of some time, as I suddenly felt some one grab on to my shoulder, as I looked as to who it was that could have done so, as I lifted my head up. I looked at who it was, as I realized that it was just Uncle, as he had his eyes on me, as he could tell that I was a bit stressed by all of this right now.

I could tell that he felt a bit bad for me, but if I was to be honest, I did not even want that from him at all, as I just wanted to be alone right now. I shook my head, as I knew that I could not do that at all, as I knew as well, that there were a lot of people looking up to me right now, and expecting great things from me.

Uncle looked right in to my eyes, as I looked back in to his, as I did my best to not focus on all of the people that were around us right now, as I could see that it was just me and him. We stared in to each others eyes for quite a bit of some time, as he suddenly smiled at me, for some odd reason or another.

It was a bit of a weird, and a funny smile, but at the same time, it kind of lightened me up, and made me feel a bit better. I was happy to see that he was happy. It had been a while since I had seen him that way, but as of late, he had seemed to be a lot better, as he had cleared all that had happened out of his brain.

I could tell that it was true as well, just based on the fact that he had gotten in to a lot of conversations with Padre, who I could see was right behind us right now. It had seemed as if those 2 had some how become friends with one another, even after the fact that I knew what it was that Padre used to do to him and his wife.

I remember the night that he had threatened to kill Julia, as it was still a bit hard for me to forgive him for that. If Uncle was willing to do so how ever, than it felt like I should follow in his foot steps, and be the same way as he was. I knew that I some times dwelled to much of the bad things that were in my past.

Those thoughts seemed to clear out of my head at the same time too, as I saw the smile on Uncles face disappear, which I was a bit confused as to why, as all of the sudden, the loud voices that were all around me at the current moment, seemed to swarm all around me.

I wanted so badly to just freak out, and run away from all of it, but I some how managed to stay strong, and to hold my ground, as I fought through it. Uncle nodded to me, as I tilted my head a little bit, and then I nodded back to him. After a little while longer as well, he decided to speak up to me, as I listened to what it was that he had to say to me too.

"You've got this Joseph... The world is not against you... They are for you, and they believe in you... It is about damn time you believe in your self..." He said to me. I looked at him, as I was a bit surprised by what it was that he had said to me, for just a few moments, as I blinked my eyes, as I tried to take it all in.

It was quite a bit bold, but at the same time, it also made me feel a bit better, and it made my self confidence, begin to sky rocket at the same time too. I looked at him for some time, as his smile hopped right back on to his face, that he had just had a few moments before now.

I blinked a couple of times, as I then smiled right back at him. After a little bit longer, of us just smiling at each other, I heard a loud voice speak up to me from behind. I turned my head, around, to see who it was, as I heard my name be said.

I looked right behind me, as I saw that it was just John. I was glad that it was not some what else, as I let out a bit of a grateful sigh, as I then listened to what it was that he had to say to me, as I nodded to him too.

"Alright Joseph... We gotta go now... I just wanted to have some words with them before we get this started..." He said to me, as he nodded his head over to some thing in specific, from very far away from us. I squinted my eyes, as I did my best to see what it was that I needed to be looking at.

I then realized that, what it was that I was looking at, some not some thing, but rather it was some one. They were staring right back at us as well, as I could tell that they were starting to get a bit annoyed by it. It was Travis, as he was the deputy to John, in this legion.

I wondered if John chose his deputy, as a lot of the time, it did not seem like those 2 got along at all, as they never seemed to be able to agree on the same thing. It began to become a bit clear to me, as to the fact that John said that it was important that he looked good to all of the people too.

I felt like now, that he had not chosen Travis to be deputy at all, and it had been a vote. It made sense, as it felt like John was worried that the council might vote him out of leadership, and give it to Travis. Travis did not seem to be a bad guy at all, but I certainly trusted John a lot more, as I knew him a lot better.

I shook my head, as I shook off those thoughts once again, as I saw John beginning to head over to Travis, who was in front of the entire crowd, getting ready to speak up to all of them. None of the people seemed to be paying him any sort of attention at all how ever, as they seemed to deep in conversation with each other at the moment.

That was, besides a few people in a certain section, who I could see had their eyes right on me, and were not talking to one another at all. I blinked a few times, as I hesitated with my steps whilst I was following John, which I knew was not a good look to the people looking at me, as I knew that they had seen me notice them.

I looked at the for a little while longer, as I then realized that one of those people that were looking at me right now, was my father in fact. I tilted my head a bit as well, as I then saw Zoe as well, and it hit me as to the fact that they were the people that I had just spoken to in the tent.

I let out quite the sigh of relief, as I knew that they realized that I was in a bit of some stress, and they would not judge me for it. Just as I let out the sigh how ever, the entire crowd of people that were around me at the moment, seemed to go dead silent.

I gulped a little bit, as I wondered if that sigh had some how managed to fly to all of them. I blinked a few times as well, as I looked away from my fathers group of people, and over to some of the people that were at the tables in the crowd at the current moment in time.

I saw that their eyes were not on me at all however, as I was a bit confused as to what was going on right now. The crowd seemed to stay silent for a few more seconds too, until I heard a loud voice begin to speak to all of the people that were around me at the moment. I turned my head over, to see that it was Travis, as I listened to what it was that he had to say as well.

"Welcome everyone! We are here today, so that you may meet a certain guy..." He began to say, as he nodded to the certain guy that he was talking about, which was me in this case, as I was about 20 meters away from him. That is when it all got to be a bit bad, as I saw the entire crowd turn their head over to me. Travis had a strange grin on his face for some reason, as he continued to speak to me, whilst moving his hand for me to come over to him. "This is Joseph! Our Savior!"