Finally Confessed!

"Whatever our souls are made out of, his and mine are the same...If all else perished, and he remained, I should still continue to be; and if all else remained, and he were annihilated, the universe would turn to a mighty stranger." --Emily Brontë

I groaned in my sleep as my phone rang continuously. I sat up squinting my eyes to the light which was still there in my room though it's pitch dark outside. I managed to rub sleep off my eyes and reach out my hand to the lamp table to take my still ringing phone, looking at the caller ID with half-lidded eyes.

Tae Guy

I glanced at the clock on the wall and it was only 2 in the morning. Why the hell was he calling at this hour? Oh, it must be morning in there. Aish! Can't this guy get the time difference at all? And why was he calling me directly? We used to text, right.

With all that in mind, I answered the call.

"Hel-"

"MIA!!!OH MIA," he screamed right into my ear making me distance the phone from my dear ears. With the shout, Sunhee who was lying on the basket shot up and looked around alarmed, "M-Mia, I don't know what to do...why this keeps happening to him? He is always in pain. I-I can't see him like this..." he sobbed into the phone.

Huh? Why was he crying?

"Taehyung-ssi, what happened?" I asked as I watched Sunhee mounting down her basket and coming towards me as if interested in the conversation.

"J-Jimin...h-he..." my hands froze so did my whole body.

No no no no...this can't be happening.

Please tell me it's not what I think it is!

Just NO!!!

"W-What a-about him?" my voice barely audible as my hands shook violently.

"J-Jimin, doctors...um..t-they s-said...I-I don't...he..." he trailed off and I could say he was panicking with whatever he was gonna say to me.

"Taehyung-ssi, take a deep breath, c'mon do it," I said still able to contain myself.

I heard his ragged and fast breathing slowing down, "Mia, Jimin is in critical condition," there was a pause, "His heartbeat is fluctuating rapidly now and he has...he has breathing problems. The machines are beeping and the doctors are trying to restrain the situation. He is not responding to anything the doctors are providing him. They say there is some problem with his consciousness, it's completely slipping away..."

It took me a couple of minutes to process what he was saying. The whole world shrank as I swallowed the horror-filled news. My body shook and my hands became ice-cold.

You were the reason it kept beating...now it doesn't have a reason to

That bustard meant what he said. Oh no! The heart...how can I forget that important part. His emotions play a major role in its sustenance. Now, I've literally torn his life apart with the argument. Oh my god! What have I done?

His pained face came into my vision again.

Oh no- I didn't-

"Mia? You there?" asked Taehyung.

"Yeah"

I need to find him. He is not back into his body, he is somewhere around here. I need to find him before something happens to him. He can't go far away, a certain perimeter limit is there. He might be somewhere in reach probably crying.

I regret it.

I regret everything I've done.

"I don't know what to do," he breathed panic evident in his voice, "You always have answers to this. Say something, Mia"

"Okay," a plan forming in my mind, I got up from my bed suddenly wide awake and determined to find my fellow soulmate, "Taehyung-ssi, everything is gonna be alright. Jimin is a strong person mentally and physically. He won't give up that easily, as far as I know he always fights his way out of everything. I want you to do the same. Jimin would never want you to give up on hope in himself and lose faith," I gathered a theory in my mind that Jimin was not gonna be inside the house for sure. In our childhood, when he had a fight with his friend, I found him in a deserted park. He always said he'd like trees and plants when he wanted to fling off his sorrow. Judging from that the only place he might have run off to might be the..., "Have faith in Jimin, Taehyung-ssi. He's not gonna leave us like that."

I flung a jacket over my shoulders and put on my slippers rushing to unlock the door. But stopped seeing Sunhee jumping towards me and purring into my feet. I sighed and took it in one hand clutching my phone in another. Surprisingly, she didn't do anything but held onto my shirt.

"You are right. I should be strong. I should be strong for Jimin," he chanted.

"Good," I breathed out in relief as I mounted down the stairs in a hurry, "Are you alone there?"

"No," I heard him as I clutched the phone close to my ear, "The members are here as well. We rushed into the hospital hearing the news from the doctors. It's worse seeing Jungkook cry," his voice tightened.

I reached the main door and opened it without any noise and stepped outside to meet the chilly breeze of the retracing winter. I shivered as it hit my exposed skin. Sunhee crawled closer to me and I held her tight flashing the flashlight I've taken from the stand. It sure looked creepy in the middle of the night and only the sight of the clear sky with stars all over it fueled my determination to find him.

You are indeed my star, Mia. You always are.

"Tell them to stay strong," I said, "Jimin is gonna be fine. Trust me."

With that, I ended the call and pocketed the phone. I ran towards the fence and placed Sunhee on it. It's tall but I can make it. Determination flooding through me, I jumped off it and landed perfectly on the other side.

"C'mon girl, jump," I said and Sunhee gladly jumped into my outstretched hands, "Gotcha! Now let's go find your master!" I ran in the direction of the field.

The cold wind was making goosebumps rise in my skin and I rubbed myself along with the cat to induce some heat but no result. My teeth shattered but I pulled on the hood and kept walking shoving flashlights everywhere. I can't actually shout so I kept racking my eyes and walked through the starry night. Every breath I exhale became mists and the blowing wind was not making anything easy.

I can do it. I can do it.

I chanted to myself but I knew I deserved all this. I hurt him so much and it was intentional. How can he ever forgive me even if I find him? Those piercing words, I winced when I remembered them. It was enough to break anyone's heart. For all the things he has done for me, is this what I give back to him? By breaking him? By leading him to his death?

In fear of my broken heart, how could I break someone whom I adore and care for since time immemorial?

Why didn't I even think about him for once? Those smiles and hugs that I secretly adore, every kind words coming from his mouth, wiping his tears away and teasing him about his chipmunk cheeks. And all those cuddles I got from him every night along with his cheesy yet sweet lines that had never failed to skip my heartbeat.

I chuckled remembering every moment I had with him.

Those were indeed precious to me.

"You know, Sunhee?" I asked the cat, "I'm an idiot. I didn't acknowledge the happiness right beside me. I hurt my own soulmate without even thinking twice. I'm a monster, right? I won't be surprised if God decides to kill me in this coldness. I totally deserve this"

I kept mumbling to myself as I walked but at one point, I felt Sunhee raising her head alert and jump off my hand, running towards somewhere.

"Yah! Get back here," I hissed and followed behind her vanishing form.

Taking some steps forward I saw the silhouette of a man facing away from me sitting amidst the tall dancing grass. Sunhee ran towards that dark figure and meowed. The man turned around and picked the cat up holding it close to his chest and petting it.

I stopped in my tracks realizing who it was.

"How did you get here, Sunhee?" I heard his angelic yet hoarse voice which immediately soothed me from head to toe.

I stared at him with relief washing over me that I found him and my instinct was right. I watched as the cat jumped off from his hands and skipped towards me, laying on my feet as if answering his question. His eyes followed the cat and finally caught my shivering form.

Our eyes locked and shivers went down my spine.

He was in the dark and I couldn't see the emotion on his face but I knew from his latter voice what he'd been doing. A strong wind blew causing the hood to fall off my head and my hair to fly around, swaying my already weak body. We stared at each other without saying anything with Sunhee at my feet looking between us. My mind was a mess not knowing what to say to him first. But remembering that his life was in my hands, I had to do something. I can't afford to lose him, I'm not gonna allow it.

Breathing in and failing to form any sort of words miserably I walked over to him taking slow steps. He was only a couple of feet away but the walk felt like an eternity. Finally, standing just a foot away from him I peered into his eyes. It was blank; he was holding back his emotions.

I didn't think twice before I hugged him, tight as if my life depended on it. He stiffened under my action and stood still. His warmth was radiating into me and I sighed in content hearing his rhythmic heartbeat.

"I'm sorry," I mumbled into him, "Please forgive me"

I felt him wrapping his arms around me with shaky hands. I smiled and immediately melted into the hug. I couldn't explain how comfortable I felt in his arms. Amidst the cold wind blowing through us, under the starry sky, in the depths of a field, I found my soulmate again.

I broke the hug and looked up at his face. I cupped his cheek with one hand and caressed it as he leaned into my touch closing his eyes. His eyes and cheeks were blotted probably from all the crying. How long had he been crying? Guilt started to eat me alive as I looked at him.

"I'm really sorry, Chim," his eyes opened at the nickname, "I was an idiot. I lied about everything. I just...I couldn't bring myself to accept the truth. I'd always shut people out of my life in fear of getting hurt, I'm afraid I'll get hurt, again. I wanted to accept you and trust you, I really did but...my past didn't allow me to. In this fear, I didn't realize I'm hurting someone else. I was selfish, please forgive me, Chim."

He smiled and that was all I wanted. He held my trembling hands in his as he stared deeply into my eyes, "How can I not, my star? Especially when you call me Chim so lovingly?"

I blushed but smiled at him.

"Mia, you don't have to dwell on your past. I don't know what happened but I want you to forget all that and live in the present, where I will always be there for you. It's not just because I'm bound to do that as a soulmate by fate, it's because I want to, I genuinely want to. You are the first person to change my perspective of viewing the world, you taught me many things that no priest can ever teach me. Your smile alone brings me happiness. So, please never look down upon yourself"

"But...I'm not pretty nor talented. Why-"

"Don't say you are not pretty, you're the most beautiful person I've seen inside and outside. Beauty is not only what we see outside," he gestured towards my heart, "It's right there too. And I don't have to spend years with you to say that you have got an angelic heart. You are more than enough for me; you are just perfect." he smiled squeezing my hands in reassurance, "Love yourself, Mia. You are beautiful in your own ways".

Tears rolled down my eyes at his words. Their impact is unexplainable. No one had told me something like that and I'm so thanking God for giving Jimin as my soulmate. He is everything I can ever imagine.

"Look who's crying now," he chuckled and wiped my tears with his thumb.

I smiled at him through the tears.

Oh, there is one more thing. Okay, Mia. This is it!

I don't want to hold it in again. I don't want to regret something in my life and live my already miserable life a disaster. I've had enough drama already. It's time to forgive myself and move on. I've lived under a rock for years hiding all my emotions. It's time to tell him how I really feel about him. I don't want to hurt him ever again. I want to express how much he means to me and how much I want him in my life. I want to be there for him to wipe his tears away, I want to be there to love him.

It's now or never!

I breathed in.

"Jimin, I-"

"I love you" he whispered, gaze fixed on nothing but me, "I always have, since a long time ago."

My eyes widened and stood still for a moment then I pouted playfully, "That was supposed to be my line"

"What?" Jimin was perplexed.

"Aish! You stole my line and now you're acting innocent, you crazy little chipmunk," I teased to ease the tense atmosphere.

"What the hell, Mia!" Jimin exclaimed.

"It was supposed to be romantic, sweet, and cringe but you stole my line. I'm clearly upset," I turned away from him acting as if I'm sulking.

"Did you just imply-"

"Yep, I love you too, Park Jimin," I said nonchalantly, "Wanna be my boyfriend?"

Jimin gasped at first but then he gasped dramatically, "Don't just say that simply. Put some emotions into it. You and your emotionless face," he shook his head with disappointment facepalming himself.

"Okay," I chirped and ran away from him. I was deliberately trying to light his mood. Yeah, it was cliche but I wanted to see that smile on his face. Also, I wanted my confession to be different unlike the boy saying 'I love you' and the girl repeating it back with a 'too' then both of them kiss; end of the story. I don't want our story to be an ordinary one so I'm trying to add some 'extra' to it.

I just wanted to fill him with joy and laughter. He deserves the best.

He watched dumbfounded as I plucked that caterpillar-shaped grass with pollen all over its stem, like a dandelion, wild plant but yeah. There were no flowers visible so it's the only thing I could think of and besides it was cold, too cold. This was the only thing that caught my eye...in a wild and weird way.

I bundled it together with a grass knot and spread it like a bouquet.

I hummed satisfactorily and walked towards him. He gave me a questioning glance. I smiled widely and clutched it in one hand.

"What are you-" his eyes widened and nearly fell off the sockets as I kneeled down in front of him with one hand behind my back and the other extending the wild plants towards him. I did that cliche pose that guys do when they propose to their lover. Yep, just like a gentleman, well a gentlewoman here.

I put on a smug smile.

"Would you, Park Jimin my beloved soulmate and childhood best friend, like to be my handsome boyfriend and cherish the moments of your life with me?" I asked with the boldness of a man.

He was dumbfounded by the look of it. He just stared at the plants in my hands and at me with hands over his mouth. Did I actually render him that speechless? Oh, was it too much?

"Uh, my knee is hurting a little and it's cold?" I asked still maintaining my posture.

I think he broke out of whatever his daze was and now smiled wide rushing towards me and picking me up, twirling me around by holding my waist up high. I was shocked at first feeling myself levitated off the ground but eventually clutched his neck to steady myself and giggled along with him.

"Woah! Put me down, young man," I shouted and he did, slowly but his hands never left me for a second.

"Of course," he said giddily taking the plants from my hand, "I'd love to be your boyfriend."

"Glad to hear that," I sighed as I watched him look at the plants with much adoration as if I'd given him a hundred-dollar bouquet, "Sorry, I didn't get any flower to enhance the romantic atmosphere," I said apologetically.

"Wow, I didn't know you were this romantic," he teased.

"Just you wait," I winked to which he blushed.

I laughed at his adorable reaction.

A cold wind blew through and I swayed shivering. Jimin noticed this and held my hands tightly with a frown and it morphed into a horrified expression.

"Mia! You've been out in cold for so long!" he exclaimed, "No wonder you look pale. Woah, I'm an idiot I can't feel coldness, aish," he flicked himself to which I chuckled. Cute!

He wrapped his arms around my shivering form, "You're shivering. I'm sorry you're out in the cold in the middle of the night" he looked sad as he rubbed his arms to warm me.

"It's alright," I sighed to the feeling, "You alone make me warm"

I felt his hold tightening and after a moment he removed his coat and dropped it around my shoulders. I'd have looked like a penguin when he pulled on my hood over my head and tying a knot under my chin. He chuckled saying 'cute'. Only then did we notice Sunhee playing with a cricket a distance. Jimin took her off the ground and passed her to me. I gave him a confused look. But what he did next was totally unexpected.

"Jimin!," I squealed when he picked me up bridal style, "Put me down. I can walk" I struggled clutching Sunhee in one hand and claiming a hand around his neck, "If someone comes this way they'll freak out seeing me up in the air!"

"No, no one will come this way. It's the middle of the night, Mia," he started walking easily as if he was not even carrying me, "Just hold me tight" he winked with a smirk.

"I'm heavy, Jimin," I sighed frustrated.

He turned his head and looked at me our faces only inches away causing my breath to hitch in my throat "You are light as a feather, baby"

I blushed and looked away shrinking in his hold. I felt like burying myself in a hole hearing the nickname he gave me. His chest vibrated and his chuckles filled the air. I laid my head on his chest and listened to his calming heartbeat to ease my flaming cheeks.

"You are too cute" I heard him mumble.

Sunhee gave me a judgemental look again but I stuck out my tongue at her.

"You are tired," Jimin mumbled into my hair, "Sleep"

"I am trying," I responded.

I just couldn't sleep not knowing what happened to the real Jimin. Taehyung didn't call me nor did I have the courage to call back, I was worried. I didn't even know if this happiness on his face had reached his body. I desperately wanted to know Jimin's condition and thus I couldn't close my eyes an inch waiting for a call from Taehyung. I was tense and my mind said Jimin can sense it too but chose not to ask.

Right after we reached home I drank a lot of hot water and kept myself warm. Thankfully I won't be sick tomorrow. Jimin looked more than happy here with a smile adorning his face every time I look at him. I could only hope this will reflect on his body. But this tension is killing me of not knowing Jimin's condition.

Now, he's hugging me close to him with Sunhee safe in her basket. He pulled two more blankets out of my shelf and tucked me inside them. I'm like a blanket burrito now, hehe, with his slight warmth too. I snuggled into him and he held me tight like he always had, patting my head.

"I'm sorry, Mia," he whispered into my hair, "I kept you awake, now you can't even sleep. I'm so sorry, now tomorrow at scho-"

I heard my phone ringing and I shot up. I jumped off the bed and picked it up from the nightstand with slightly trembling hands. My heartbeat increased when I saw the caller ID. I glanced over at a confused Jimin sitting on the bed.

I answered the call and gulped, placing it in my ear.

"H-Hello, Taehyung-ssi?"

"Mia, our prayer is answered, " happiness was there in his voice and I sighed rubbing my forehead, "He is still in a coma but the doctors for the first time informed us that we have hope. They said that Jimin is responding to the treatments," I put the phone in the speaker, "We finally have a huge possibility to hold on."

I smiled widely at his words and I wanted to go hug Jimin right now. But he was still confused a little but I think his widening of eyes as Taehyung continued blabbering might've caused him to match the pieces.

"I'm happy for you, Taehyung-ssi," I smiled, "Jimin will of course wake up soon. We just have to wait." I winked at Jimin.

"Yeah," came a reply from another side.

After talking a bit to him I ended the call smiling ear to ear. Then I jumped into Jimin to hug him with all my might. I rested my head on his shoulder.

"Never leave me like that, Jimin," I mumbled closing my eyes, "You gave me a heart attack"

"I'm sorry for making you worry," his voice came out muffled as he rubbed my back, "I didn't even think about that. I just...wanted to die that time"

I pulled away and brushed his hair away from his eyes, "Don't say that. If you go, who is there for me, hm? Please don't think or say something like that. Even if you have no one in this world, I'll always be there for you. I need you, Chim"

Tears formed in his eyes hearing that.

"Aish and please...don't cry," I smiled tracing his cheeks, "It breaks my heart to see you cry. I want you to smile and always be happy. Now c'mon, give me my all-time favorite cute eye smile of yours,"

He smiled chuckling and hugged me.

"I'm thankful and grateful to God for giving you as my soulmate," he kissed my neck, "I don't want to think what I'll do without you. You're everything to me," he kissed my head and pulled away and stared into me with so much love that I melted into him.

"I love you already but you are making me fall for you again and again," he now leaned in and kissed my forehead, "My star, my love".

"Aww... too cheesy," I pinched his cheeks, "You beat Dominos Cheese Pizza. Cheese level is too high for me to handle," I dramatically clutched my heart and gasped.

"You're too funny," he laughed and hit my arm embarrassed.

I laughed along with him.

I don't know why I exaggerated and thought about unwanted stuff. What was the need for that useless drama? Aish, because of my overthinking I almost got a heart attack and ruined everything. I should have just confessed in the first place, yeah but outsiders can say that they aren't the ones living in it. It's hard, with lots of uncertainty and confusion along with a whole bunch of frustration but if you're meant to be together, everything will be fine.

Things may never go smoothly 'cause this isn't a fairy tale, even in a fairy tale there are challenges. You won't get anything easily in life. If it was like that then we won't know the value of what we crave the most. We should know how much it's important to us and what we'd to sacrifice to acquire that.

All that running in the cold night was worth it because everything between us cleared. I was unsure, yeah but I regretted my mistake and decided to correct it, you see the result was fruitful.

Now, Jimin is my boyfriend.

This was the beginning of something new in both of our lives.

Our Lovestory.