Nine

Collection of Pages part 2

A lover's Remembrance to endure.

My husband gave his life ten years ago for the clan and our family. For ten years we live without a new head to our hunters. For ten years I lived in grief and pain because of my duty to our child. I have taught him our ways and told him of your stories, he mourns you like we all do every year. My heart was never complete without you near me, it longs desperately for its other half. My heart beats so hollowly now like it's dying and I understand why because my body has become weaker, I cannot eat most days those are the days I cry silently. I use to have so much resolve to hide my emotions but lately, I am failing to do that. I suppose you were truly my strength I borrowed and now you are waiting for me on the other side. I am coming my love for I cannot bare this life without you any longer.

" Dearest Atrius,

Forgive your selfish mother but I do not have the strength I once had nor the resolve. So I hope this letter is enough for I can no longer guide you, forgive me.

You know of your father's sacrifice, the lives he saved but I wanna tell you the story of his strength, and how selfish I truly am.

I told him that everything must return to the earth. This is his choice to make but know I cannot bare this burden of loss should you be claimed by the earth. And if our child is born without his father as a mother I will feel I have failed my duty to him. I am not the strong one here my love. So if you must go take my amulet with you and may our gods protect you. And if they don't then I beg you find a way home to me for I will not say goodbye this night. That night haunts me most because that was my most selfish moment, but your father's strength was defiant to the end. He crawled home to us just so I could say goodbye and send him off.

That amulet was my mother's he kept it safe so please wear it as a reminder of the resolve I once had and the strength your father had in life. Become the man he would be proud of and do not become selfish like me my child.

Listen to our elders they will guide you through life and raise you better than I. The elders are wise so absorb their knowledge so you may forge a life of your choosing.

The hunters are our family and have been since your father became the head of them. If you need strength lean on your family for they know best our pain of loss.

The craftsmen of our clan will teach you how to forage and build, so learn from them. They will help you find resolve moving forward like they once did for me.

Forgive me my child I beg of you but I must go to him he has waited long enough. Just know we love you and will always be with you.

Goodbye; Atrius"