CHAPTER 005

May 31, 2013.

I'm not happy, honestly I'm not, but I must be, and I don't understand myself.

My birthday is in two months, I don't know whether to celebrate it, my father has already talked to my mother about the divorce and also about what we will both do.

It is hardly impossible for me to believe that my mother, Rose, didn't say anything, she just said:

"Sounds good for you."

Those words echo in my head, it's not that I don't love my mother, just that I find myself more with my father Carlos than with my mother Rose.

I find myself having cereal with milk for breakfast, while I eat it, I see my mother come to the kitchen.

"How are you Colette?"

"Well mother, you?" I ask with total caution.

"Perfectly, I'm going to buy the things for your cake." His voice sounds calm, so much that it worries me.

"Okay, do you want me to accompany you?"

"That would be perfect, but I have to do other things," he says happily.

"It's okay mother." She approaches me leaving a chaste kiss on the forehead.

"I love you, I do it for you ... "

"I love you too mother. "

After a while I find myself getting some things ready for the prom, I have the best dress ever and now that Mathías had told me to be his date at the graduation I was a bit happy about it.

I wanted my dress to match Mathias's outfit, it would be so romantic that I can't help but sigh. Sometimes he can be distant at school, I understand why he is, we don't want Bastian to be mad at us, but I also think we are cowards not to tell him.

I had talked to Mathías to see us and feel better, but he couldn't because he was going out with Bastián. At the moment it was better not to tell him that we were something because it would be another problem that neither of us wanted to address for now.

The day goes by very fast so much so that I am surprised, I spend it finishing some class assignments that I missed, when my mother came home from shopping I helped her organize the house for dinner that we will have in a few days for my graduation.

I was like new with the good bath he had given me, I am looking for the clothes that I am going to wear, I want to be representable in such a case that Mathías comes to visit me.

I'm going down the stairs quickly, I'll make some delicious chocolate cupcakes for my guest. Of course I do all this without knowing if he will come or not, he still hasn't told me anything which seems strange to me, but knowing Mathías he surely pays all the attention to Bastián, fulfilling his whims.

Basically that is how Mathías and I are, some puppets of Bastián's parents, but even if it were, I have no doubt that both Mathías and I love Bastián very much regardless of their condition or that we are their puppet.

I mix the butter with the sugar when I see that everything is fine I add the eggs.

I hear a knock on the door, I quickly thought of Mathías, but I dismissed the idea because he had not contacted me to come. I stopped what I was doing and I go to the door, I take off the mitten from my right hand to grab the knob and turn it, I am surprised, my most anticipated guest is one step away from me, I smile like a fool .

"Hello, can I come in?" He asks smiling.

"Hello, of course, I was waiting for you all afternoon." I commented with a tender smile.

I made him pass and after this I closed the door, he turned to me giving me a chaste kiss that left me wanting more.

"What are you doing?" He asks something curious.

Nervously I take him by the hand and lead him to the kitchen, I bring him closer to me giving him a short kiss on his cheeks.

"I'm making chocolate cupcakes for you." I spoke hesitantly, I felt stupid.

That was not me, she was a determined girl, I mentally slapped myself.

"Are you really doing them for me? Do you want me to help you?" His disposition made my heart skip.

We take some time to prepare the mixture and then pour it into the molds. All that time I was making cupcakes with Mathías was splendid, I felt very good after all.

"Mathias, watch out for peanuts, you must remember that cupcakes have peanuts." I warn him, because I'm allergic and my father is too.

"Okay, those with peanuts have a dimple," he says laughing.

It's nine to ten, and Mathías had to go. My parents had already arrived, each one was in their room, no one wanted to share with Mathías for a while, I wasn't insistent either, but it was time for her to go home according to my mother.

"I loved this timeshare," he says giving me a kiss on the cheek.

"I love you more Mathías every day." I give him a slow and tender kiss on his lips.

It did not go unnoticed that he is uncomfortable, it is like he does not want me to kiss him, maybe it is my mind that makes him think ridiculous things, but anyway I separate. Surely he wants to continue the kiss but I'll let him do it on his own.

I was happy with Mathías, it was impossible for me to believe that a boy like him could exist. It is everything I want and seek at this very moment.

I open the door for him slowly, I hope he kisses me, but he doesn't come, he leaves the house, and I'm excited for a little affection.

I see that Mathías stops in his tracks, I don't understand his attitude until my visual field captures everything.

"You are a traitor!"

I felt the great push that this gave me falling to the ground, it was so light that with the minimum push I could fall and hit or scratch myself.