CHAPTER 006.

May 31, 2013.

I saw Mathías's face turn pale, but Bastián's was indescribable. I felt ashamed to see myself in this position, I had no word to amend the situation, I know that at some point he would find out, but I did not think it would be that fast, I could not even hold my friend's gaze, I just wanted to disappear and more watching how Mathías was not helping at all.

"Bastián I can explain this." Mathías said nervously.

How could I get up from the ground, look at Bastián who had his gaze fixed on me, but instantly turned away to look at his friend.

"What are you going to explain to me? What I saw is a product of my imagination?" His scathing tone confirmed it, he hated us.

Look for a moment at Bastián, I know we have hurt him but it is something that he could not even stop, I love Mathías and he me, because it was so difficult to understand that.

"I know we should have told you, there is no excuse for it." I took a deep breath. "We didn't want this to happen. You more than anyone have said that we can't have anything except a friendship."

"And if you know, why did you do it?" His voice finally sounded disappointed.

"Bastián, you more than anyone knows that I wanted a relationship, I want to experience new things, I don't even know what a real relationship is." Some rebellious tears came out, I wanted to hit him for all this.

But suddenly I realized that Mathías did not speak, he did not say anything, he had just remained silent and did not understand his attitude towards the problem that we had above.

"What happened to my proposal? Am I not enough for you?" I felt like passing away." I could offer you that and more, but you prefer the easy thing, which would not take you a second to know. I'm the most difficult man, but I could have changed for you! " he yelled, hitting his chest.

He could not be being serious, I was perplexed by what he said and there was no word. I just couldn't even meet his gaze.

"If only you let me be the one by your side, this would not have happened. Both Mathías and you are dead to me." His voice was firm.

I closed my eyes, I could not believe that this was happening to me, I wanted for a moment to yell at him and say many things but it would not be the right thing for either of us.

But I never imagined that I would be so disappointed when I heard those words that I never thought I would hear from her lips and it was the straw that broke the camel's back.

"It is not a big deal either, it was just a game for us Bastián, you are not going to spend 5 years of friendship for a woman who never looked at you with different eyes, she only saw you as a brother 'a friend's." He pauses to look at Bianca who is crossing the street, all the boys were there looking inside their luxurious cars." It's not worth it, also Colette never loved you, this was just a test for you to see the kind of person what is" his smile made me sick.

I was immediately disgusted when I understood his every reaction to not kissing me, not wanting to share with me and ignoring me at school, I just felt like my feelings were destroyed by a "she's not worth it." No, I couldn't resist. Explode.

"What the hell did you say? A fucking game? Am I not worth it?" The tears came out without my being able to just stop it.

"Have you been deaf?" Bianca speaks, I looked at Mathías, I tried to understand if it was a damn joke, but it wasn't.

"You deluded my friend with false hopes, do you think I would fall in love with you? I'm loyal to my best friend." I looked at him hurt, the lump in my throat was so tight that it hurt a lot.

Bastián only looked at me, but I didn't have the strength to hold his gaze.

"No ... Pretend ... I'm a ..." I was interrupted, I just didn't want to continue with this crazy show.

"Enough, I'm sick of you ignoring me and just seeing the others, I'm tired, I told you Colette, now I feel like she hated you." I cried more, seeing that I was the only one on trial at the time.

At what point had Mathias stopped being guilty? Why was Bastián only claiming me? Why am I still standing here watching everyone make fun of me?

But I lost my sanity, I threw myself to beat Mathias, I wanted to make him pay for everything, I wanted to take away my kisses and caresses that I had lovingly dedicated to him, I got a little closer to the boy who had broken my heart in just seconds, he did not he imagined he would hit him but it was better that way. I took impulse and gave him a punch in his face that did not give him time to hold himself falling to the hard and cold ground, I could only punch him nothing more, because I did not come to Bianca Saabagh who pushed me so hard that I hit my head with soil.

It all ended when I fainted.

Hours later I couldn't stop crying although my father had comforted me and for the first time my mother Rose had been there to comfort me too, I just couldn't.

My parents never let Bastián stay to sleep in my room, they made an exception for tonight, because I was very upset.

I am the worst person in the world, he practically confessed his feelings to me and I only cried for an idiot who was not worth a tear.

"Bastián, forgive me for everything bad I've done, I was just immature." My sobs didn't stop, I just wanted to disappear for a moment.

My head was bandaged, a while ago we came from the clinic that Bastián's parents paid for. I had no contuction, it was just a blow, but I had it well deserved.

I only saw how he nodded, but I knew it was going to be the last time I would see him and when I reconsidered all that I instantly regretted it.

"This is our goodbye, right?" I asked between sobs.

"Yes." His voice sounded broken.

I turn it carefully to me, without using so much force, I look into his eyes with curiosity. She smiled nervously at him when she looked at me.

"I'll make Bianca pay for what she did to you," he says angrily.

"Bast, please forgive me, this blow deserved it, but I will not be able to live without your constant fights." I took him by the waist, closing my eyes tightly, I loved him very much but not in the way he wanted.

I took it so delicately by her face, I felt her tears run down my hands and at that precise moment I wanted to be hit by a Gandola. But I had the audacity to approach his red lips and kiss him as I had never kissed someone. I gave him all of me, I offered him my soul but not my heart, I just hope that it is worth something for him and that he can continue as he has been doing.

He pulled away from me a bit. "Don't make this more difficult, you don't love me and that's what I want from you." He snored, he's holding back.

I take it again without his permission and that's when he looks at me with desire and corresponds to each one of them. And yes, that was my best friend's goodbye, I had lost the right person to someone who was worthless.