Is it bad that i don't want to stay in the home town that i lived my whole life in, i feel no connection to this place even though my family and friend are here, but i guess the heart ache, lies and nightmares outweigh the good memories that I've made throught the life span of my life. 
How to do even tell your family all this without them saying your mental?
How do i tell my mother the one person that I'll miss the most out of this drama that I'm leaving and never coming back even though I'll break my being for leaving her, but i know it's the right thing to do is leave
I guess your wondering why does a person that has his whole life in Texas want to leave so bad, what was so bad that leaving is his only option to keep himself from having a mental break down. 
I'll tell you, mady you'll agree with me, but mady you won't but that doesn't mean I'll change my mind.
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The tipping point

“Please Marcelo, just please try to calm down. Breath in and out” I tried pleading with him at the same time trying to get inside the room all of it unsuccessfully. I couldn't hear Marcelo’s raped breathing anymore as I pleaded with myself that just maybe he had calmed himself down enough to regulate his breathing, as I looked underneath the door frame I could see that Marcelo was passed out on the floor as panic surged through my body as I slammed my body against the door to try and break it down. 


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