Is it bad that i don't want to stay in the home town that i lived my whole life in, i feel no connection to this place even though my family and friend are here, but i guess the heart ache, lies and nightmares outweigh the good memories that I've made throught the life span of my life. 
How to do even tell your family all this without them saying your mental?
How do i tell my mother the one person that I'll miss the most out of this drama that I'm leaving and never coming back even though I'll break my being for leaving her, but i know it's the right thing to do is leave
I guess your wondering why does a person that has his whole life in Texas want to leave so bad, what was so bad that leaving is his only option to keep himself from having a mental break down. 
I'll tell you, mady you'll agree with me, but mady you won't but that doesn't mean I'll change my mind.
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The tipping point

I was released from the hospital a week ago, as weird as it may sound that was the happiest moment of my life because i had everyone i cared about in the one room and i didn’t have to care about the environment outside, but now i’m faced with a decision to make and what that choice i make someone is going to get hut which is the last thing i want to do. As I’m sitting outside in the backyard of Hunter’s cabin watching my brother and little sister run around playing tag with each other while Abigail sat next to me under the tree in the backyard while my mother in the cabin upstairs making the last details of their “trip” to Canada while Hunter s at work. Just thinking of all the pros and cons of staying for going is starting to hurt my head as I close my eyes to try and stop this headache from becoming a migraine. 


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