Chapter 32: Am I going crazy?

Clarissa is eliminated. I still can't believe it. She was the first one who suspected this place and I didn't believe her at first. I was so stupid. If I believed her sooner we might've been out of here. I thought as I paced in my room. I cried, yelled, threw things and no one noticed. I sat there staring at the wall. I couldn't stop thinking. I couldn't even sleep. All I thought was the things they can do Clarissa. I didn't notice that it was the next day. The guards entered my room and gave me breakfast. Tossed me the tray like a real prisoner. I looked at him angrily and he chuckled leaving my room, and slamming the door making me flinch. I immediately thought of one day attacking the guards with something, I don't know. Why didn't I notice before? There was this one small knife. If I hid it, The guards would see it missing and they would go all crazy on me. I couldn't do it. I couldn't break my window and jump out because I would end up killing myself and I don't want that. Even though it sounds better than being chopped up and eaten by some psychopath. It was a harmless knife but if I did a lot of pressure would it work? I don't know. I ate but I didn't touch the meat not even once. The guard came in to get the empty plates and everything else.

"Where's the knife?" He yelled and I stayed silent. He noticed it quickly. "Answer me!" He grabbed my shirt and pulled me close to him, yelling at my face.

"Here it is," I said silently and instantly, with all my strength I stabbed him in the neck. He backed away shocked, grabbing his neck, which was bleeding a lot. What did I do, what happened?

"Bitch," he said and he fell down. He choked on his own blood and I saw him slowly dying. I kneed down and I started sobbing. I've never thought that I will kill someone. It was for an attempt to escape and survive. I panicked he grabbed me and I thought that he was going to hurt me. I felt insanely bad. I've never killed a man in my life. It was my life versus his and I'm not going to die in this place. I want to go back to my mom and Oliver. I removed the knife from his neck, cleaned him, and hid the body, Which was the hardest part. I hid the knife in the back of my jeans and covered it with my shirt. I opened my door a little and I peeked to see if there were any guards. There weren't any, at the moment. I decided to enter the room in front of me to see if I found Jacks, Damien, Louise or Veronica. I slowly opened the door and I saw Louise and Veronica talking to a guard. I closed the door and they looked at me.

"What the hell?" I asked. Why were they with a guard? They are basically the enemy. They work for Aristole, for god sakes.

"Why are you with a guard and how did they let you in a room together with Veronica?" I said to Louise and she walked to me.

"He knows my dad. I know that he worked for security but I never thought he worked for Starsdom" he gave me a small smile and I ignored him.

"We can't trust him," I said and she scoffed,

"he's going to help us get out of here" "It's suicide, Louise" I argued softly. Didn't want anyone hearing us.

"Why are you giving up? Weren't you the one who couldn't stand Aristole and wanted to get out of this hellhole?" Her tone got more serious. Veronica stood in a corner playing with her hair.

"I have everything planned out," he said.

"Like what, tell me," I said as I walked to him.

"At night I will sneak the girls out and I'll guard them with my gun" What? The girls? What about Jacks and Damien?

"What about the rest of us?" I asked angrily.

"I'm only getting them out. Is what they want" he said pointing at Louise and Veronica. What do they want? they can't be betraying us, not at this moment.

"Louise, why?" I asked confused.

"All we ever did was sit here and wait to get killed. Looked where that got Clarissa! I'm not letting that happen to us. I'm using you as bait to be free" I couldn't believe her. After all this time I was her friend!

"She's right. We're leaving. I'm sorry. I just can't stand this place and I'm scared to stay here and be the next one to leave" Veronica stood in front of us. I couldn't process it. It's just so unexpected I never thought they would do this to us.

"Is best for you to go to your room. It's too dangerous for all of us to be here" he said. Louise nodded and crossed her arms.

"I will never forgive you for this," I said and I stormed out of the room. Returning to mine. I fell down on my knees and I started crying. They betrayed us, They are just going to leave us here to die. I whimpered and I shook my head. I stared at the huge bloodstain on my carpet. I killed a man. Am I going crazy? I rocked back and forth talking to myself telling myself everything is going to be ok. The door slammed open and one guard came in.

"Where's..." he gasped before he could finish the sentence. He saw the bloodstain and grabbed me.

"What did you do to George?" He asked angrily. I pointed at the closet. At this point, I didn't even care if he found out. He opened it and George's body fell down. He gasped and grabbed him.

"You're crazy!" He yelled at me dropping the body and grabbing me. He took me out of my room and started walking. I don't know where he was taking me. I tried to free myself but his grip was too strong. "Let me go!" I yelled and he ignored me. One door opened and I saw Jacks.

"Let him go!" He yelled. Once again he ignored him.

"Hey!" Jacks yelled. Suddenly Jacks jumped on him and punched him right in the jaw, knocking him out cold. His grip loosened and I freed myself. I fell into Jacks's embrace.

"Are you ok?" He asked.

"We need to find Damien" I saw as I grabbed his hand and I continued walking.

"What about Louise and Veronica?" He asked concerned.

"It's just us now" I said and he stopped.

"What, are they dead?"

"They decided to plan a new escape plan without us. They leave tonight" He looked shocked.

"Why?" His voice softened.

"It doesn't matter, we have to hurry" we started waking and we found Damien's room. He was staying in his original room. I knocked on the door rapidly and he opened it. He looked angry for a straight second but when he saw us, his expression softened.

"Adryan, Jacks. What's happening?" He said. His eyes were red and he had bags under his eyes.

"Are you ok?" I asked worriedly.

"That doesn't matter. What's happening?" He shrugged.

"We need to hide, somewhere else. They're coming" I said and Damien left his room.

"Where are we going exactly?" Jacks asked.

"I don't know. We'll hide somewhere" We walked the entire hallway and when we reached the elevators the place was filled with guards. They noticed us immediately. And they walked towards us. I was ready to fight but everything went black.