CHAPTER SIXTEEN: The Head Master of Taika's Academy

Meeting the Head Master made me, err, what do you call this? Kind of, nervous. Something is telling me that I should be happy about this opportunity but also half of me says that this isn’t good for me. well, I have no choice, if I try to go somewhere to hide this creepy secretary will find her way to know where the heck am I.

“Why does he want to see me?” I asked without an emotion on my face yet a little cold.

“Because he finally found you.” She answered and that made my brow furrowed.

“Do I know him?”

The way she said that ‘he finally found you’ seems like the Head Master knows about me. Who the heck is he?

“Maybe? It’s either yes or no, depends on how you believe.” She said and her creepy smile is still on her face. Now, I want to tear it off. “Well, actually, you might end up hating him when you saw him. Or maybe not?” This creepy secretary is really getting on my nerve. She acts as if she knew everything about me- everything in my life. “It is for me to know and for you to find out.”

I stopped talking to her and just followed her to Head Master’s Office. As far as I know, this Head Master never shows himself on any occasions and always this secretary is the one who talks and announces everything that the Head Master wants. This Head Master is a mysterious one, no one saw him not even his hair. So, I am kind of freak out right now because he actually wanted to meet me. What the heck is happening on Taikanious World right now?

Seriously? This school is full of crazy and weird people. I am not fond of them so I really wanted to graduate as soon as possible or else I might end up like them.

When we arrived at the Head Master’s Office this creepy secretary opens the door and let me in. I roam my eye and I did not see anyone else here aside from me and this creepy secretary. Oh, now what will happen to me? My original taika is still not yet unsealed. Ah, my head started to hurt and I am started to get mad. I don’t know if this secretary is playing with me but I wanted to teach this one a lesson.

“Are you kidding me?” I said with and by the tone of my voice you can see that I am getting mad. But instead of being scared, she just smiled at me and then walked away from me. “Why are you walking away from me?! I am asking you!”

“As I expected this going to be your reaction if someone fooled or betrayed you.” My forehead furrowed and glared at her. I did not speak anymore and then she walked towards a door and then she knocks on it. “Head Master, she’s already here.” She called.

Tsk, even though he didn’t invite me to be seated I will sit and make myself comfortable. I have no intention of giving them special treatment just because they’re the ones who run this academy. They just, all the same, they just wanted to use me for their own gain.

“Abia, are you okay?”

“I’m okay, Jenny. You don’t need to talk to me right now.” And I blocked HaliMau’s taika.

The woman- the creepy secretary finally left so I could breathe easily because shit! She’s creepy as hell! She has this very mysterious vibe around her. When I saw the door that the creepy secretary knocked opened, I immediately look at it. Well, part of me is interested in who and what kind of person the Head Master is so I looked that way. The second part of me saying that I know that person.

When I saw the person behind the door I feel like all my anger rises but even though I was mad I did not know why I am crying right now.

“You-you're alive!” I exclaimed as I stood up and looked shocked.

“Alive and still kicking my dear little sister.” He said to me while smiling.

My big brother that I thought was dead, the big brother behind my tears before when he suddenly disappeared could not be found at then the person we thought was dead, my brother who was the reason why my mom became weak, my big brother that made my big sister cry, is still alive and kicking as he said. I don’t know if I’m going to feel happy or not.

My body moved spontaneously and kicked my older brother causing him to fall. I immediately sat on his stomach and grab his collar.

“How come you’re still alive? They said that you were dead!” I felt weak as I asked him. I am crying so hard that I almost forgot to breathe. I leaned my forehead against his chest. “Do you know what happened to our family?” I asked weakly.

“I do. I know Avabi…” he said to me softly.

“Then why?! Why didn’t you do anything? Where were you when mommy and daddy died? Where were you when our sister was taken? Where were you when the Elders tried to kill me? Where the f&ck are you!”

My tears won’t stop. I feel like all the feelings, all the sadness that I buried due to my hatred came up when I saw my brother. I felt like I became weak again. I told to myself that I will never cry, never again but why am I crying right now? Why my tears won’t stop falling? Why?

“I’m sorry… I’m still weak.”

Weak.

I stood up and then wiped my tears even though they won’t stop falling. Weak. That’s what he always calls to himself even though he knows that he is powerful, he just doesn’t want to use his taika correctly. He just wants me and my sister to suffer.

“I hope you really died,” I said without emotion and sat on the sofa trying to calm myself.

I need to get back to being strong. The me that is not affected by the people around me. I can’t and I don’t want to go back to the old me, the cry baby, the person who knows nothing but to cry. I have to be strong and if he thinks that he stills weak the I have no choice but to be strong for him. I can trust no one by only myself.

I saw tears running through his eyes but I ignored him and he wiped it immediately and her female creepy secretary came in.

“Looks like you’ve already talked.” She said and prepared us a tea. “It’s not just a good talk.” She added.

They are both in front of me but I did not show them any emotion after my breakdown. I have no emotion for them to see, I don’t want to be weak in front of their eyes. I don’t want them to see that I am happy that he- my foolish older brother is still alive.

“Avabil…” my older brother called me but I did not speak instead I just took the tea and sipped, “Si Acadil…”

“The Denim took her,” I said without any emotion but it stings in my heart.

I honestly don’t know who I should trust and should not. I don’t know whom I should blame. Is it the Elders of our clan, the Lord of our clan, to the Denim who took my sister away from me? Ah, or maybe I am the problem here.

“Why I did not get about this?” he asked angrily at his secretary.

“Because you didn’t try to know what the hell is happening to us,” I said and give him a bored-looking face. I saw that he was hurt by my words but I just let him feel that way, I don’t blame him though. “What now? Is this the time you’re going to act like our big brother? Now that there is only me? Now that Acadil is in the hands of Denim?”

I know, I shouldn’t have said those words to him because it’s not his fault that it happened to us but what can I do? I have nothing to blame! I blamed myself but it’s still not enough!

He looked at me sadly and asked, “What happened to you, Avabil? Why are you so different now? What happened to you before?” His eyes were full of worries and it’s not good for me. That is what I hated the most now but why I feel warm or something in my heart? I have to bury it! I know he just wants to get back to our old good days but it will be ruined everything I planned if I let my heart dictate to me again. I won’t do that.

“She’s dead,” I said without emotion that made them surprised that makes them ready to defend themselves and I chuckled a bit. They don’t trust me, it hurts a little. Just a little. “You, all of you killed the old Avabil. She will never come back no matter how hard you try. This new one will be your new little sister the one that cannot be knocked down by anyone.” I added.

“Killed?” my brother asked me in surprise and I lowered my gaze and looked at the cup that I was holding.

“When you lost one-fourth of my life died when our parents and grandparents died it took the other half of my life. Now that my sister is not here, I am now good as dead.” I could see the guilt in his eyes so I immediately avoided his gaze. “And when the Elders wanted to kill me, that is how they thought me of killing without mercy. I won’t show mercy to anyone, not even you- even you’re my brother. I will take my sister back even if you don’t help me. After all, I am used to no one helping me.”

“How can you do that without anyone’s help?! You will get yourself killed!”

“Is there something you can help me with?” I said rudely, “Like what you’ve said earlier, you are weak right? I don’t need someone like you that can’t even try to find out what happened to their siblings. All I need is my sister and I hope you just don’t block my way. I just hope you won’t come back to my life.” I said and stood up.

“What the F are you talking about? Are you a spoiled brat?” said the creepy secretary.

“Spoiled brat? Yeah, maybe? You can call me whatever you please.” I replied.

I avoid the dagger that is flying in front of me. At its speed, those untrained students may get some nasty injuries from it but I was well trained. It is nothing to me.

“Don’t you know how much the Head Master suffered just to find you?” and then she rushed towards me and kicked me at my left side stomach but my fist was much faster than her so it hit her face but his kick still landed on my left stomach and I bit my lip in pain. “Don’t you know how much he suffered just to overcome his loneliness?” she said more and then wiped the blood on the side of her lips. “Didn’t you know that he was always looking for the both of you every day and night! You didn’t know that he was almost died in the hands of your greedy elders just to find you! The elders always tried their best to interfere with your reunion! It’s not his fault!” she yelled at me.

Elders, Elders, it’s always the Elders. I will kill them all. I won’t show any mercy to them.

“I don’t care. Why did he not think of coming back when he disappeared?”

“He came back! He tried! He tried to come back that is why he’s here!”

“Stop!” we both looked at my older brother and I stood up properly.

He still scared the hell out of me when he’s mad but I don’t care.

“You liars! I can only rely on myself! I am the only one in this world left! It’s just me and my sister!” I burst out.

I left immediately without hearing their reply. I don’t want them to see me weak. They’re weak so I have to be strong in able to defend them, my older brother is still weak so I have to protect him, I don’t want history to repeat itself. I don’t want to lose him again.

When I arrived at my room I immediately lay down and cried. Why it’s not stopped from falling? I said that I won't cry anymore, right? Why am I crying right now? Ah, Avalene, why?

As I tried to stop my tears something came into my mind. Hold on, he tried to come back, he tried to find us, to be with us but those Elders did not stop to hunt him down. I know everything and he’s not the one I should blame, the Elders, they should be the ones responsible for everything that happened in my life. The misery in my life, they should pay for it. I will definitely make them pay.

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“My, oh my. My dear Avabil, you’re crying again?”

“I can’t help it,” I said softly.

“You’re happy, right?” she asked and I nod my head. Who wouldn’t be happy to see your brother still alive that you thought was dead? “Then why are you still crying? I really don’t get you, people.” She added.

“That’s because you’re a goddess. You really won’t understand us. You did not experience what we are experiencing.” I said and is stopped when she laughed at me then sat down in front of me and serve me the rose tea that I always love.

“You’re wrong, Avabil.” She paused for a moment and looked at me, “It’s not because I am a goddess and we can no longer feel what the normal human feet. Once we belong to someone like you, what you felt is what I felt.” She said and point her index finger to my heart and smiled at me. “We also can feel, we also have an emotion. In other words, all your emotions are also my emotion.” Then she drank her tea.

“Did I do it right? Did I do the right thing?”

“For you, yes, it is. But for him? No. You just wanted to protect him but you did it in the wrong way.” she answered me honestly and looked me in the eye, “And the woman before…”

“Ah, that creepy secretary?”

“Yes.”

“What’s wrong with her? I did feel something strange to her but I just can’t tell.”

“She’s one of us, she’s a goddess.”