Chapter 37

John

When I got home that night, I couldn't help but think about how my life will the drastically change tomorrow

If I go on that trip with the other seminarians there is no going back

Do I go and leave the girl I like behind?

Do I stay and let my mother down? I will also be letting myself down because I have worked so hard for this ever since I was a child

I sighed and sat on the edge of my bed

Is Ruby really worth it?

Do I really want to live a life of pure celibacy?

I like Ruby and even if we don't end up together in the long run, I may want to experience life with women.

I may want to start a family too. I've never questioned my intentions of becoming a priest until Ruby came into my life. Is this a sign?

What of my mum? What about her wish for me?

"What about your happiness?" a voice said to me

I became startled. Am I hearing things?

Read Ecclesiastes chapter 9 verses 7 to 9

I suddenly remember the passage my father told me to read. I took my Bible from underneath my pillow and open the passage. It read

Go, eat your bread with joy, and drink your wine with a merry heart, for God has already approved what you do. Let your garments be always white. Let not oil be lacking on your head. Enjoy life with the wife whom you love, all the days of your vain[a] life that he has given you under the sun, because that is your portion in life and in your toil at which you toil under the sun.

I laughed and shook my head. Crazy old man. He's still teaching me life lessons even to this point

After an hour of final thinking, I finally made my decision

I took my phone and sent her a text

Come over Please. We need to talk