CHAPTER 23

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Taehyung and Jungkook came out of the room a few minutes later. We got into Taehyung's room, but I couldn't stop crying. I lied to Taehyung, I didn't know how to explain it to him and I didn't want to talk about it. 

My head was a mess, I couldn't understand why Seokjin stopped talking to me and it was hurting me, a lot. It was hurting me more than I wanted to, I wanted to be strong, keep smiling, but I couldn't.

I understood that I needed to do something about it when my mother noticed it too, she asked me why I was so off those days, why I looked sad and, again, I didn't know what to say, so I told her I was on my period and I wasn't feeling well.

Thursday afternoon I decided to go for a walk, maybe breath some fresh air and some time alone would help me know how to fix what was happening. I stopped at the park, anyone was there. When summer comes it becomes more quiet, everyone is travelling or spending time at home because it's too hot to be outdoors.

 It wasn't like this though, I looked at the sky, there were grey clouds everywhere, I couldn't see the blue sky. I liked it, it was like the weather was trying to reflex my feelings. I felt better for a second. I spent all the afternoon there, sitting on a bench. I tried to remember my last moments with Seokjin, trying to find a clue, but nothing came up. I read again old conversations, but I couldn't find it either.

My head was hurting due all my thoughts. I took a deep breath when a drop of water fell in my hand, I looked around, it was raining.

I decided to go home. I walked slowly, paying attention to the water crashing on the floor. When I arrived home, I heard voices behind me. I turned around and I saw Jin and Samantha in front of a car, they were talking, Seokjin grabbing the umbrella.

I looked how Samantha hugged him before she got in the car. I saw how she drove away of our street, our homes. I saw how Seokjin looked at me, I froze. I noticed the tears in my face mixed with rain. I couldn't move for a few seconds, until I decided to get home.

We only shared stares that day.