DEPRESSION

this is not an easy thing to write...

but still, I'm going to because sharing this might be helpful to somebody out there.

being constantly sad is weird for me because you don't know what might be the reason for being sad.

or did someone make you sad?

but sometimes I know that I'm just sad because I'm sad for no reason...

you also don't want to move or do anything just stare at the ceiling waiting for nothing

does it mean I'm crazy? because I'm sad even though there is nothing to be sad about?

but the thing is I don't know how to be not sad.

I want to be happy like anyone else...

but how?

if the feeling I'm constantly feeling is being sad?

and no one knows...

only me...

How? if no one is believing?

the sadness that I'm feeling is slowly eating me...

it's like I will be forever sad and lonely...

I tried to reach out but no one else can see my pain, my sadness, and my loneliness...

how?

how?

how?

it's never-ending sadness...

but I know it's not the end I can be happy in my own way.

In my own world...

but I know that I also need to help myself.

I need to go out more and have fun more

I will not let this sadness eat me

because I'm strong and I can fight this I know can get through this and hope that the sadness will lessen slowly

I know it will never be gone. It will always gonna be part of myself but I know that I will not let it control me and eat me by my sadness.