Chapter 8

~kiss~

The kiss was slow and passionate. At first, it seemed like Harold was taken aback but soon he joined me. His hands were cupping my face. Soon he pinned me on the wall and now his one hand grabbed my butt and another one trailed down my waist. We kissed until both of us were gasping for air. But that didn't stop lips to find their way to my neck, leaving love marks. His lips seem to not leave my skin even for a moment because his lips were kissing my cleavage now. I could hear my own heartbeat. My breathing was slow and so were his.

Everything got heated up in an instant. I was thinking about Owen and Char but then this urge to kiss Harold took place inside my body, mind and soul and everything. Kissing him was like cheese in the pizza, it melts. I perfectly melted with his kiss and his touch. If he was pizza base, I was cheese- perfectly fitting.

I didn't even realise and I was moaning his name. I was panting, taking slow breaths.He left my body and I left cold breeze embrace my body. I opened my eyes and found Harold sitting on my bed.

Did he not want me? Was I not good enough for him? Did I do something to make him mad? Again, my mind was bombarded with questions. I ruined something beautiful. I was on the verge of tears when Harold broke me off my thinking.

"Hey, look at me." Harold was now holding me into his arms.

"I-i-." Why do I stammer so much?

"Never think so lowly of yourself. You can never ever, listen to me carefully, never ever ruin anything. You are everything I need."

Tears were rolling down my cheeks. He wiped my tears and rubbed my cheeks.

"You can do nothing to make me mad. You are pure and someone I have desired all my life." He paused for a second. "I want all of you, all of you but it's too soon. I want us to get to know each other and take everything in slow pace. I want you to feel everything. We don't need to rush everything. Alright?"

I nodded and Harold kissed my cheeks.

"You should rest now. I want you to follow our training routine so you will be able to help yourself in need."

"Wake me up in the morning?"

"Sure." Harold left small peck on my lips and waved me bye.

As I laid down on my bed, I couldn't help but think, how was Harold able to reply everything I was asking myself? It felt like he could hear my thoughts. But it can't be it right? I mean how can he? I need to talk to him tomorrow.

He just made me feel lucky. He didn't want to rush anything and neither did I. I wanted to know him and his family. I cannot be part of his past but I want to be his future. He must have waited for his mate. I want to make up for the time he was alone. If I wasn't a werewolf, will I have been lucky enough to meet Harold? What if Harold had someone as his mate? I don't remember falling asleep thinking about intimate moments with Harold.

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"You're a little too early for training Roseanne." Mr.Atkinson said coming towards me. I knew the sarcasm in his voice.

I'm not the type to wake up late in the morning. I have been suffering from partial insomnia ever since I know. Only if partial insomnia exists. Ever since I came here, even though it's not that long but I have been getting good sleep and maybe all those sleep that I was deprived of are slowly coming into my eyes. I closed my eyes to smell the fresh wind but then I remembered something.

Flashback----

Harold was trying to wake me up from the past 10 minutes but he just could not, instead what he did was absolutely freezing.

Splash.................. the bucket full of water on me, EARLY IN THE MORNING.

''What the heckkkkkkkkkkk?'' I shouted standing on my legs. Seeing me wet and sad and angry, Harold's face expression immediately changed from a smirk to sadness. He was now holding bucket with guiltiness. Looks like he regretted throwing water on me.

"What is this Harold?" I said with a sharp tone hugging myself. I thought about playing with him for some time. I turned my back on him.

"You should leave. I'll meet you downwards after warming myself up." I said with teary voice, devil's smile on my face.

Harold hurriedly came, "Babe I'm sorry.'' He holded my hands and now I was facing him, staring him with watery eyes. ''I'm so sorry. You were not waking up. I was trying for ten minutes. I didn't want to leave you so I just thought to sprinkle some water but then my hand slipped and I accidentally poured all water on you. I wouldn't have done that, I even pinched you but nothing was working. I'm sorry.'' He was now cupping my cheeks wiping my fake tears.

''You are so cuteeeeeee.'' I said bursting into laughter. ''You actually believed my acting. Oh my goodness.'' I was now holding my tummy and crying at the same time. ''Its been long since I laughed this badly that I'm crying.'' I looked at Harold only to see him smiling at me.

''You are not angry?'' I said wiping my happy tears.

Harold nodded. ''If this can make you happy, I would let you do anything to me, just to see you happy.''

''Anything?'' I said whispering into Harold's ear.

''Anything.'' He said nuzzling into my neck.

''Help me excuse myself for going late.'' Pushing Harold slightly I again burst into laughter.

''Late where?'' He seemed confused.

''Training. You forgot already.'' I threw my hands in the air. "Did you think about something else?"

''You don't need to make excuse for attending late. You are soon-to-be luna. No one dares to say anything to or about you.'' Harold said authoritively.

''Exactly. I am their soon to be luna. I need to be an example for discipline and respect. Even though werewolves are extremely punctual, according to my survery", I said raising my eyebrows resembling my proudness, I continued," I don't want them to think I am using my power unnecessarily. Rules are made for everyone. They should not be biased just because we are on the higher level of hierarchy."

''Okay my Luna. As you say.'' He said kissing my forehead. ''Let's hurry now.''

"But you pinched me." I said pouting.

"You sure can sleep on another level. I pinched on your arms but it didn't even work on you." He said pulling my cheeks.

Flashback ends------

Harold was about to say something but I cut him off. ''I was tired and couldn't wake up in time. I'll be regular from tomorrow onwards. But what are you doing here? My parents sent you to keep an eye on me?'' I said chuckling. I wonder if he knows I'm joking.

''No Roseanne. I am here for Marilyn and Peter.''

Harold and I simply nodded.

''I'll see you later then. Train well.'' He waved us bye and entered the palace's mansion.

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''You sure can run well.'' Harold said handing me water bottle and towel.

''I have been running ever since I started living with Margot. After I turned 18, I ran unusually fast and wondered why but now I see why.'' I said drinking water and sprinkling some on my face.

''I think I need some of your help for running fast.'' Harold suddenly grabbed my waist and pulled me closer making my cheeks turn pink.

Everybody had left, because I was late, I wanted to complete my training. I watched everybody do 'stunts' and learned various techniques. I decided to run today and officially start my training tomorrow.

Harold trailed his hand on my back. I was only wearing my sports bra and leggings. He whispered into my ear, ''And when you look this hot, I think I should take you for private sessions. Just you and me.'' He bite my earlobe sending shivers all around my body.

I was merely breathing but panting more from running or Harold's touch, may my heart know the truth. My hot breath against harolds neck, I could barely speak.'' I'm all sweat. I-I-think we sh- should go to my room and sh-shower.'' I barely spoke.

''Sure.'' Harold said leaving kisses on my shoulder. Before he could do anything, I ran away.

Under the shower, I was still panting. Harold's simple touch can make me so weak yet I feel so powerful.

I got dressed up and came outside my room but Harold was no-where to be find. I suddenly felt chills all over my body. Bad chills. I felt coldness inside my heart. All I could think was what if Harold left? But he wouldn't. My heart knows it. Harold won't abandon me. I need to be positive. Keep your shot together Roseanne.

I went downstairs and saw everyone, they looked pale. Harold wasn't there.

"Good morning." I greeted everyone. They faintly smiled, a forced smile.

"Morning. How was your exercise Rosie?" Granny asked.

"It was good." I smiled back.

"Did something happen?" I asked looking here and there to find Harold.

"Harold has gone to talk with warriors." Marilyn spoke. She looked energy-less.

"Are we under attack?" I was panicked.

"Ida mindlinked Harold. She said 'find me and help me I am-' and nothing more. Harold tried to contact her but couldn't."

Granny said. Marilyn was on the verge of breaking off that Peter had to hold her.

What could have happened to Ida? What if someone tried to harm her? What about her babies? She was nine months pregnant with twins. It must have been her time to deliver babies.

"I spoke with warriors. Half of them are going to look for Ida and half of them will guard here." Harold said coming into the living room, still gazing at his phone.

"It must have been the time to deliver babies." I spoke. Harold looked at me and so did everyone.

"Babies?" Harold suddenly asked, making me scared with his voice. Everybody looked at him.

"Ida's pregnant with twins. I thought that hospital lady told you-." I replied.

"Why the fuck would she tell me about Ida being pregnant with twins?" Harold snapped making me jump. For the first time. I deserve this.

"Harold let her finish and why are you shou-" Granny stood up but he interrupted her. "Granny not now." Harold told her.

"How could you spare such important detail Roseanne? Tell me everything at once." Harold snapped, looking into my eyes.

For the first time. I deserve this.

"Ida's pregnant with twins. A boy and a girl. Doctor told me while checking her up because she passed out. She said her babies were fine." I paused for a moment. Everybody looked sad and sorrowful. "I didn't ask anything further more because I didn't want to invade her privacy." I spoke.

I closed my eyes to remember everything about Ida. I closed my eyes to stop my tears from falling. "She had bruises and wounds around her body." I didn't open my eyes. I didn't want to look Harold in the eyes.

"She... She" I thought deeply.

"She what." Harold said, more like raised his voice. For the first time. I deserve this.

"She had something on her neck. Below her earlobe. It was some kind of art." I said opening my eyes. Harold looked pissed off and angry. For the first time.

I closed my eyes again trying to analyse what it was. "It was autumn leaf. More like a tattoo." I said looking at Granny.

"The witches, it's their symbol. They use it to trace someone- more like gain control of them."

Peter spoke. Marilyn broke when Peter spoke. She was sobbing loudly.

Harold looked towards his granny. "I can't trace her Harold." Granny sobbed and sighed. "When I married your Grandfather, they broke off ties with me and maybe used some spell to stop me from reaching them." Granny closed her eyes.

"If only you said it sooner Roseanne." Harold spoke. I heard him.

"We can take help from Charlotte. She's a witch and I'm sure she can help us find her. She won't deny our req-" I was cut off by Harold.

"You have no say in this Roseanne. You shouldn't cross your limits." Harold looked angry and disgusted. For the first time. With me. I disgusts him. I deserve this. I fight with my parents all the time buy this was different. I feel heartbroken. Harold looked at me with those eyes, if only eyes could pierce, if only eyes could break, if only eyes could break my heart, eventually they did. I feel heartbroken. It's like someone just broke my favourite infront of me. Harold didn't break me. I failed him and it broke me, I broke myself. I deserve this.

How can I be so self-centered? I am so selfish. I didn't even think about Ida, for once. I was so engraved in my life that I completely forget about Ida. I pulled everyone into my mess, I didn't let them think about Ida. I am definitely cursed and I think that's why wherever I go, I bring problems. I dragged everyone into my fate. If only I didn't come here, if only I didn't threw my problems at them- they would have focused on Ida more. She would have been safe and sound here, with them. I should have told Harold about Ida but I chose to ask him about me. He was there for Ida but I pulled him on another road. It's all my fault. My fault.

Just when I felt like I have a family, just when I felt like I was loved and cared for, just when I thought I could start over with Harold, Karma came running and slapped me in the face. I don't think I deserve anyone's love or a family, let alone Harold's. I shouldn't have been his mate.

Granny was angry and shouting at Harold but I didn't hear anything. I was blank and empty. My visions were blurry due to my tears but more than that my heart was crying. For the first time.

"Right." I faintly smiled. I said to myself. I don't deserve this.