Chapter 9

Roseanne

"Right." I immediately left after those words left my mouth. I went inside my room but it suddenly left foreign to me. I no longer felt like it was meant to be mine. I do not belong here. No-one wants me, from my parents to my mate. Do I even deserve to be called Harold's mate? He helped me in every way. Everyone here, kept me secure, they fought with witches when they actually attacked last time. They kept their life on line just to keep me safe. But what did I do? I rather choose to just think about my life, my miserable life but in the process, I messed up everybody else's life. This is who I am- miserable and pathetic poor girl.

I was sobbing. I was crying yet I couldn't shout my lungs out. I wanted to let it all go but I was scared; scared to make them worry for nothing. I was just crying so what? I cannot tense them when there's already enough problems on their plate. I don't remember falling asleep. When I woke up it had already been five hours. I heard someone knock on the door. I looked myself in the mirror. There I was looking pathetic. My eyes were sore and bigger then my natural size. They were all puffy from crying. My throat got sore as well and it hurt when I tried to speak.

"Roseanne, you there sweetie?" Granny knocked on my door. I could tell she was worried.

I opened the door and gestured her to come in. "Anything I can do for you granny?" I said ignoring- to look into her eyes.

"What happend to your face and why is your voice so different ?" She said coming towards me. "You're burning and you're all red." Granny touched my whole face. "You should get checked up. Let's get you to the pack infirmary."

"That's the last thing I want to do." I replied looking at the ground.

"What?" Granny asked me.

"That is, I don't want to go to the infirmary granny. I just woke up and that's why I feel hot. This happens to me sometimes." I said, faking my smile. I don't want to bother anyone, not in this situation. "And I sound different because I ate icecream last night. Tons of icecream." Liar.

"I know it's because of earlier right?" Granny said, making me and herself sit on the bed.

"Not exactly." I glanced everywhere but her.

"I won't push you Rosie but please don't overthink that it's all because of you. Harold was wrong I won't take his side but you know Ida was lost and then-"

"I know granny. I understand everything. Whatever Harold said was right. Anyway, did we reach Ida?" I said walking towards window.

"About that, we decided to call your friend Charlotte." Granny said.

I got cheerful. "But Harold?"

"He's gonna look for Ida himself. He's getting ready. He's still hesitant but I decided it." Granny said taking my hands into hers. "Right now, Ida matters most and nothing more. I am going give him handful of ears after we sort this out." She assured me. I nodded

I called Charlotte and we went back to the living room. Marilyn tried to ease me for earlier but I didn't let her talk me into that. Instead I just asked for things of Ida as requested by Charlotte. I also felt someone peeped at me through window but I just ignored it. As granny said, Harold was no-where to be seen but I was relieved. I wouldn't have been able to face Harold. I was sad more like shattered. Charlotte arrived shortly after I called her.

Charlotte actually went inside Ida's room and came out after ten-minutes. All of us had mixed feelings, we were curious and scared at the same time. Peter was pacing here and there whereas Marilyn cupped her face with her hands. Granny was restless- she was tapping her foot. And here my mind was somewhat wandered off elsewhere, my heart knew where.

"She's in a hospital." Charlotte said running downstairs.

"Which hospital?" Marilyn asked.

"Green life." Charlotte replied.

"I am going to mindlink Harold." Peter told us.

Soon we all reached Green life hospital. We thanked Charlotte. I knew Harold would get there sooner than us so I asked Charlotte to go home and I would meet her thoroughly. That was for the best.

Everybody were pacing here and there outside the private ward. I was seated whereas Harold had gone to bring some clothes, necessary ones. I saw him coming towards us so I pretended, to be asleep. Right. All I have to do is pretend.

The doors opened, maybe after twenty minutes? I didn't see but could hear.

"Congratulations. Its a boy and a girl. All three of them are healthy. She is to be kept for inspection and can be discharged after three days." Doctor told us.

"Thank you doctor." Granny and Peter said at the same time. I was awake now. Granny, Marilyn and Peter's eyes were twinkling and they were happy to their lungs. Marilyn and Granny hugged and sobbed. Peter asked why are they sobbing and they replied 'happy sobs'. Girls. Meanwhile Harold's happiness was not seen in his expressions. He was lost. Even though Ida was safe, his eyes were searching for something else. Me?

He must be curious and restless to meet Ida and her babies. I glanced at him and asked inside my heart, 'why aren't you happy Harold?' He immediately looked at me after that. Perhaps I was right? He can hear my thoughts. The nurse told us we can meet Ida. The moment we were waiting for finally came.

Marilyn sobbed, "Thank god you're fine. Oh goodness. Luna goddess surely looked after you and kept you safe. How are you sweetie?" Marilyn said hugging Ida.

"Mum I just delivered babies, you are squeezing me." Ida said playfully and it kind of worked. Everybody laughed.

"My grand-grand-children. How happy I am!!" Granny clapped her hands and kissed newly born babies forehead. She was busy adoring babies. Marilyn joined as well.

Peter had tears in his eyes. He didn't show them but I noticed. Peter and Harold sat on both sides like they are bodyguard. Finally everything came into place. Ida is safe and so are her babies. All of us are so happy I cannot imagine what would have happened if we didn't find her. Now that I think of it, everything looks blurry to me. I can't even imagine.

Every part of me feels happy for the babies. They have their mother, their grandparents, grand-grand-mother, Harold and me. I'd love to be a part of their childhood and experience everything again. I would enjoy their cried and their first baby steps. Their first word, their first cries, their first step, everything. I'd see the family love they get which I was deprived of. From being infant, to being a child, to teens- I wouldn't miss anything at all. It's will be like I will be living my childhood again with Harold's family, if I get to.

Everything is in future tense. I am tense and my words are tense as well. I don't even want to know what happens after this. What will happen to us? Should I go back to the place I once started calling home or should I get to the place where I should actually call it home- which I don't want to do at all. I haven't faced my parents at all after that incident. They tried to call me but I denied their request every time. They tried to lure me to meet them but I didn't. Lure. My parents had to lure me, to meet them.

Everything happening in my life seems like a joke. Everything's falling apart just when it started to make sense. Harold and me were getting to know each other. We shared moments and were happy even if it just started from week or so but now we are far from being happy. We are below scratch and I don't know how do I face him and talk to him.

I didn't want to ruin their family moment. I decided to walk off but then Ida called me.

"Where are you going?" Ida asked looking at me. Well, everyone looked at me.

"I-uh-I" I was searching for some reason which I failed to think.

"Come here. Sit with me." Ida pushed Harold aside and gestured me to sit beside her.

I stood there for two minutes before joining her.

"How are you feeling?" I asked Ida.

"I am good. Delivering two babies is just ....... exhausting. It feels good to give life to someone but then it aches as well. I mean your body, my heart just floats with happiness whenever I look at them." Ida said looking at her babies. "Why is your voice so different? And you're kind of burning up." Ida asked. "Are you feeling unwell?" She was worried. I could tell. Everybody looked at me. Harold's eyes were for the first time in hours set upon me. I am glad.

"I am glad that you're fine and so are your babies." I said smiling not knowing how to react and what to say. "And I am fine. I had like tons of icecream and now my voice kind of sucks." I replied.

Ida took my hands and spoke, "Thank you so much for helping me that day Roseanne. If it wasn't for you, I wouldn't have been here today. I can't even think what would have happened but bygones are bygones. I hope for the best and you and I are gonna be bestest friends." Ida said, her voice full of cheerfulness.

"You are fine. That's all that matters." I told her. "And I'd love to be your friend." I smiled, a genuine smile since morning.

"Let me correct. We are family already. I know you guys are mates. I want to know everything later." Ida tried to tease but didn't go too far.

"I'd love to but I am actually going to meet my parents. I haven't contacted them and it's been so long. I want to visit my home and spend some time with them." I looked at Granny and Marilyn. "If that's fine with you guys."

"Of course darling. They are your parents. You don't need to ask for our permission. You are free to meet whoever you want." Granny said.

"But can you stay for the night?" Ida asked me.

I was about to decline her offer when someone else spoke for me. "Of course she will." I looked to see who the person was. If I am correct she's Harold's and Ida's elder sister Ashley.

Ashley, Harold and Ida are in order. Ashley's been married already. I haven't seen her in person. Harold told me about her when we talked about his family tree and I must say she's even prettier than in pictures. She has sky-blue eyes and freckles on her nose. Her freckles aren't many but they perfectly fit with her beauty. She has natural Ash hair color and she's beautiful. Now that I think of it, Ashley has sky-blue eyes, Harold has navy-blue eyes and Ida has mint-blue eyes. Ida looks similar to Ashley. She has darker freckles than Ashley and has cream hair. No wonder they speak looks and genes.

"Hey?" Ashley snapped me out of my thoughts. I looked at her and Harold was smiling. Of course he'll.

"You were saying?" I asked her, embarrassed. "I am sorry. I was just..... lost."

"I was saying you're gonna spent the night with us. It's you, me and Ida today. Harold will guard the room." Ashley said smiling. "Right Harold?" She asked him.

"Sure." He replied.

"Now come on, give me a hug. We're meeting for the first time." She was chirpy. "And you definitely need to visit doctor." She said.

Ashley said hugging me. She's nice and playful and chirpy and cheerful. I like her.

"It's nice to finally meet you Ashley. I'll visit tomorrow morning. " I said breaking the hug.

"We have so much to talk." Ashley winked. Ashley hugged everyone. She sent off everyone except Harold. Well particularly, he went with them to bring Ida some food and clothes from home. Now, it was just me and two Rhinelander sisters and some wolves guarding outside. It is going be a long night. I sighed.

"Don't sigh. You don't even know Harold's never kissed anyone nor had sex. Now that you guys are together, we can't say the same." Ashley said and high-fived with Ida.

It's going to be a good fun night. But are we together?