12

I wake up to get ready for school. I put on an oversized hoodie and jeans. I walk out the room to find the lights still off. I finally look at my watch and sigh in annoyance. I did it again, I woke up hours before I was actually supposed to. It is actually 4am, and I would usually wake up at 7 . I thought I have stopped doing this but I guess bad habits die hard, I guess I will just have a walk until it is time to go to school then I will walk there.

I grab my sneakers and keys then walk out the house. It is still dark out and people are probably still asleep. The breeze is till cold as it grazes my skin. I walk on the road with no actually destination, just my phone and earphones. I listen to music while I walk. The street is so quiet only a few light noises but mostly quiet. All the houses have the front lights on but it is dark inside.

There is a few things in my head while I roam the streets. I think about my mom. If I were to ever meet her I would like to ask her a lot of questions. I would like to know why she left. I would if she actually hated me. what was so wrong that made her leave? I didn't do anything wrong last time I checked. I wonder how she is? does she miss me? does she think of me? Or am I just as useless as my dad says. Do I really deserve anything? I am just a burden to everyone? I should probably talk to someone but if I do I will be seen as the girl with problems. They will pity me and feel sorry of me. I will never have real friends if they are only with me because they feel sorry for me, not because they care about me; then there is no point of everything. Maybe Haley just pities me, that could be the reason why she is friends me. I would make sense; I am not fun, cheerful or an extrovert. She probably just feels sorry for me.

I hear a car horn then I look up and see that I am heading to the road and there is car wanting to pass. I step back finally realizing that it is 6. I should head back home so that I can get a ride to school or I could just walk but my legs feel tired. How far did I walk? I look at the street and notice that I don't know where I am. Shit, how the hell am I getting home. I take my phone and look at the google maps to find my way home but I can't do shit with maps, I should really learn how to use them. I try calling Haley but she doesn't pick up, so the next person that I know that has a car is Oscar. I call him and he picks up.

"Hey." He say is a deep, raspy, sleepy voice.

"Hey, sorry if I woke you." I say in a low voice trying not be bothersome.

"No it is okay. Whats up?" He ask after clearing his voice.

"I am lost, I don't know where I am or how to get back." I tell him, feeling embarrassed.

"Why don't you use google maps?" He asks while I sheepishly giggle.

"You see the thing is, I don't really know the name of my street so I can't get back." I explain to him. I can hear his laugh through the phone.

"You have got to be kidding me now?" He asks while I can hear movement on the other side.

"I am not. I am really stuck." I say, he laughs at me again.

"Okay, stay right there. Send me your location, I am coming." He say while giggling.

"Fine." I respond then cut the phone. I send he the location and wait patiently for him.

I see his car come after a few minutes. He parks it in front of me and I get in. He smiles at them laughs so hard he grabs his tummy.

"Can you stop?" I tell him feeling ashamed.

"I just can't believe you don't know your street name." He say while he stops laughing and drives the car.

"I just never pay attention." I tell him.

"I noticed. You always seem like you are in your own world." He states. "I bet that is how you got lost. You were probably in your own head and forgot to pay attention." He says while I can hear another laugh wanting to come out.

"Shut up." I say defensively.

"Okay, so why were you walking so far?" He asks me.

"I don't know. How did you make it so fast?" I ask him.

"I live near here" He says. "Do your parent know that you left?" He asks.

"No but I doubt they even care." I tell him. He hums in understanding.

"Haley told me about how your parent treat you. Why don't you just call the cops on them?" He ask and I sigh. I have heard this question so many time from Haley.

"I don't have proof for proving it actually happens. They could deny everything and it would just get worse." I explain to him, he sighs in disappointment. I get it, it can be so demotivating when you find out there is nothing you can do. The only thing to do is just deal with it.

"Any way, you have me now." He says while smiling brightly.

"What do you mean?" I ask him, confused.

"I mean I am by your side now." He says while pulling into school.

"You joke." I tell him while he parks the car.

"What?" He say dramatically. "You don't think that I am special?" He asks.

"I don't think you are all that." I tell him bluntly. I grabs his shirt dramatically and pretends to be have a seizure. I roll my eyes at him. "Okay drama king." I say while I open the door to the car and walk out. He follows behind me quickly.

"You do know we have 1 hour and 20 minutes until school actually starts." He says making stop walking.

I turn and head back to the car, he follows me like a lost puppy. I open the car door and get in.

"What you doing?" He asks.

"I am staying in the car?" I say while I close the door. he walks to the other side and gets in.

"Then what?" He asks.

"Then I wait until it is time for school." I say. He turns on the car. "What are you doing?" I ask.

"Let's go get coffee." He says while smiling at me.

"Okay." I respond.

"Good. It's a date." He says while driving way from school.