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I look at him confused while he drives to Starbucks.

“It is not a date.” I state while I look at him. He looks back at me with a smile.

“Then can I take out for a date one day?” He asks me joyfully.

“I don’t know.” I state while he stops the car.

“What do you mean ‘you don’t know’?” He asks while stopping the car.

"I mean what I said." I say while I look out the window avoiding eye contact. He continues driving and sighs.

"It is okay, I will take you out someday." He says confidently.

"Okay." I say in a low voice while I feel a warm feeling in my chest.

We got coffee and now we are heading to school. Oscar is making jokes that make no sense but make me laugh. He has managed to make me laugh the whole way to school. We are now having an argument about Ice cream flavours.

"I am telling you, Mint Chocolate is the best." He defends.

"Are you mad? No, seriously are you mad, insane? Mint Chocolate is the worst flavour ever made. The person that made it deserves to be arrested. How can you even like that shit? Just normal Chocolate was fine." I defend my side while he parks the car.

"Come on, it is just Chocolate with a minty flavour to give it a little spark. Just normal Chocolate is boring and I am not the only one who eats Mint Chocolate ice cream." He states while we walk out the car and head to school.

"Well the only people that eat Mint Chocolate are psychopaths." I state.

”I actually feel offended.” He say while dramatically holding his chest.

We walk into school and they are a few people already her. We walk to my locker and take out my things. Oscar stands next to me and watches me.

“Are you going to get your books?” I ask him. He sighs in annoyance.

“Fine.” He says in a tired tone. “I will see you in class.” He says while he turns away. I nod then he walks to his lock. I turn to walk to class.

On my way to class I see Mike talking to people I don’t know. He looks at me but then I just smile and continue walking. I suddenly hear Mike and his group laugh. I turn to look at them but they are already looking at me. Are they laughing at me? Maybe they aren’t? What would they be laughing at? There is nothing on me right? I start to search my body and clothes to see if there is anything out of place; but there is nothing. Why would that look at me then laugh? Why are they laughing? Maybe I am over thinking it? Not everything is about me. I turn and continue walking.

I walk into class but I am still wondering what is so wrong with me that Mike and his friends had to laugh? I can’t just let it go. I thought he had changed but then again a person can’t change over night. Did he tell them something about me that is bad? Or embarrassing? Why would he do that? It is filling my head. I can’t stop thinking about it. I am over thinking things again. I should stop thinking about it but I can’t. Why did they have look at me and laugh. Maybe it is on my face? My face could have something funny? Maybe a stain on my teeth? I should go to the bathroom, but they were near the bathrooms. I would have to pass them to get there. They might laugh again. Okay I shouldn’t go to the bathroom, but if I don’t go this thing will keep being in my head. I need to stop thinking at it. There is a chance it is not even about it me. What the hell just get out my fucking head! I need to stop thinking!

”Ava!” I hear someone shout, startling me cutting my thoughts. I look at the owner of the voice and it is Oscar.

“Ya?” I respond in a low voice.

“I was calling you for a while but you weren’t responding and you are biting your nails. You should stop that.” He says and I notice my nail in my mouth. I look at my hand and notice I drew out some blood. I wipe and put my hand down. “What were you thinking about to hard?” He asks. Should I tell me? But if I tell maybe he might think I am looking for attention.

“Nothing.” I respond knowing it is a lie.

“Okay. Class is about to start and Haley is not hear yet.” He says.

“Don’t worry about it. She is always late on Monday’s.” I explain to him. He nods while he sits on his seat.

”Are you okay?” He asks. I nod at him and turn away from him.

The teacher walks in but Haley still hasn’t reached. I don’t know if I should be worried or not. I suddenly I see her bursting into the classroom. The teacher looks at her in disappointment.

“Sorry.” She says while she quickly walks to her seat. She flashes me a smile while she passes me.

The classes ends in a flash, it is lunch time, however what happened this morning with Mike is still bothering me. Haley, Oscar and I walk to the cafeteria to get food. While we walk in I notice Kevin and John sitting at a table. They wave to us so we can seat together. We make a line for food. I catch Mike walking up to John and Kevin, for some reason I feel anxious.

We get our food and walk up to John and Kevin. Mike is still there talking to them. I pass by a table then I hear them start laughing. I look at the them and it is the group of friends Mike was with in the morning. Maybe there is something on me. I stop walking to look at me back but nothing. I look at my clothes and nothing. I feel the air in my chest closing in. Why are the laughing at me? What is on me? What is so funny? Was a picture of me uploaded? What do they know that I don’t? I hear constant laughter around just getting louder. I hear a loud crash, when I look at what made the sound. I finally remember where I am. The crash came from my tray of food. I didn’t even notice me letting it go. I look up and find everyone looking at me. One of Mike’s friends point at me then start laughing.

“Shut up!” I hear someone shout, it sounds like it from a far. The laughters continue, the actually increased. My throat feels clogged, like I can’t breathe. My heart is racing. I feel like I’m dying, I am swearing everywhere. I feel someone grab my shoulder firmly. I look up and see Mike. He hugs me shocking.

“You really thought I was going to let you take my friends away that easily. They are my friends and you are just a useless piece of trash that doesn’t deserve friends. You don’t deserve anything in this world. Honestly your pity speech you gave me yesterday made feel sorry for you but I talked to mom and she reminded me that you were always the actor. All this just because you hate mom and me. You are pathetic. I really thought I would believe you because you cried. Don’t make me laugh. Leave my friends alone you bitch.” He whispers in my ear and my whole body shakes while tears stream down my face. He lets me go and points at me, he starts laughing. The loud noise of laughter, my shaking body, my tear, my throat clogging. I feel a sharp pain in my heart. I hear screaming, it sounds so distant. I look at the floor and that’s when I realize I am the one screaming. I feel arms wrap around me while I fall the ground, struggling to breathe. I hear a loud commotion but I am unsure where it is coming from, the laughter is so loud. I can’t breathe but I am screaming. I cry in pure pain and agony. I feel the person hugging swing me back and forth. I feel more hands surround me. Then it all goes blank.