Chapter 7

I was crying alone in hospital and I don't have anyone around. My heart hurt like something sharp stuck on it. I don't know what made me cry so hard.

Somone grab my arm which made me alert from my dream. It was my mom . I took a long breath in relief. Oh,... it's was a dream, I said to myself.

She ask , " what happen Samten? Your sobbing very hard. Is there anything wrong? with worries and confusion written over her face.

I smile her ensuring everything was fine.

" I don't know. Are you sure that am crying at this hour? I don't even remember having any weird dream or nightmares . May be it just happen. Don't worry mom, am alright. U can go back to sleep now" I said with smile.

She left my room after kissing me on my forehead,looking back again making sure I'm really fine before closing door.

I lie to her about not having any dream. I'm sure something bad must be on my way. I don't know what is it actually, my dream that made me cry in hospital. I know my mom nor me has any health problem. When I look at watch, it's 4 in the morning. I hope and pray nothing like that of my dream to happen.

But I think it's just a dream and something like that won't happen to me. I believe, I said myself.

My life is already at trash and I don't want anymore sufferings. I wake up thinking that I have to study as my exam is almost near. I study till 7:30.

After that, as usual I went to school. When I leave school, I didn't saw my three siblings at sitting room. So I just assume may be they are still sleeping instead of helping mom. Moreover I was happy that I don't have to experience their weird stare with big eyes like that of bull which made me to fear and sad at the same time.

When I'm inside class I can see Namgay fixing his eyes on me all the time but I just ignore him as far as possible. During free hours I used to stay in class but today I went out where Namgay can't reach me. I was feeling afraid of students feeling hatred towards Namgay.

Almost week pass, and still am avoiding Namgay. He always try to talk to me but I just ignore him leaving behind in confusion.

One day when I was walking back to home after school, Namgay jump on my way which made me to fall but luckily on his arm. When I look into his eyes, I can see him looking into me with care, love and lots of emotions. We froze there looking into each eyes untill someone caugh behind us making both of us to jump. There Karma, one of his friend is standing smiling looking at us. He was carrying few book in his arm. I don't know how to act.

" Ah...I was about to fall on groud but he catch me in his arm...ahh..umm...it's nothing like u think " I said still blushing and heat covering all over my body.

" oh, I thought you two were shooting movie. May be I'm mistaken" he said with still smiling and more of joke.

I feel awkward, so I walk saying goodbye but I was froze there when I heard what Namgay said to his friend Karma.

He said, "why did you disturb us. When we are enjoying our date."

I can't believe what he just said.

I turn back with anger and said, " what did u just said? What are you trying to do? Are you going to hurt me just like everyone. I thought you as my only friend that is there when I need, but I think I'm mistaken now. I beg you, please don't even dare to look at me from now. Please leave me alone."

I walk toward home with anger and sad, which made my tears to fall after my eyes no longer hold them back. I wipe my tears when am about to reach home.

I try acting normal, I smile as usual and enter into house. I saw my three siblings sitting on sofa staring at me giving weird look as always. I walk towards room,someone grab on my shoulder when I reach halfway through sitting room.

It's Zangmo, the eldest who is looking into me with hatred and anger. I don't know what did I do wrong. I thought today will be my worst day. I was afraid by that looks which I bend my head low. She grab me by my hair letting me too meet his eyes which made me want to cry out of pain. It's painful when she first, grab me by my shoulder and now, by hair. I look into her with fear.

Two others chuckle at how much am weak, who are sitting on sofa with one leg over other. I want to cry and call out mom, but I knew my mom is not home. If she is, they wouldn't have done such things to me. I shed my tears again in pain. She pull me by my hair and drag untill I'm near other two siblings. She throw me into ground which made me to moan in pain. I don't know what I had did wrong to them, so that they hate me so much. I look up with confuse.

These time it's Cheki who knew about my confuse look. She said, " we hate you because you kill our father. If we still had our father we would have become richest person in Bhutan. Now you got why we hate you right? Now get up and bring us tea. Don't put your act as if your hurting". I was again confuse by what does she mean to become rich if my dad was still alive.

I was lost into my thoughts, when I realise someone is grabbing on my tago and dragging me into kitchen. Now it was Tshering who drag me into kitchen. I prepare and serve them tea in fear.

After serving them tea, I was about to turn away when Tshering stopped me. I stood there with fear bending me head low. Soon something hot fly into my face. It was Cheki that throw me her tea into my face followed by other two. " What a worst tea I had taste ever" they all said in unison. I scream out of pain.

Soon I rush into washroom and pour some cold water into face. It's feel better but still pain kill me inside. I cried loud this time. I no longer hold how much I want to shed my tears. I again rush into kitchen opening fridge in search of ice cubes. I press ice cube on my face which made me much better. I thought who will feel sad when I die? Except mom right? With these I cried till there's no tears left to shed.