THE NIGHTMARE

I'm soaking in my hot bath and candles glowing it's light in the darkness.

The smell of rose oil, lavender and chamomile flowers floating in the air.

Oh the warm water and the scent calm my soul...

Those pains of lost and grief is masked by the feeling of giddiness and qualm.

The recollection of happenings during

dinner time is bewitching.

O God of Mercy! I condemned this feeling.

Please bring me enlightenment and clarity of my emotions.

To release all of these...

I'm humming the melody of Mama's lullaby.

A reminder of my task and obligations to my family...

Nana...

and Lada...

And started reminiscing the wonderful moments that I had with my family.

The music filled in the air, in our Banquet Hall.

It's my fourth birthday! The day after our Christmas celebration.

Too many people in the hall.

All wearing in their beautiful Princess dresses and noblemen wearing suits.

All are merry and dancing on the floor.

And I'm wearing a mint green color Princess ball dress and a tiara on my head.

My Nana Irina helped me with my hair and put a dash of make up.

Then my father, Tsar Dimitri approached me asked me to a dance.

And I enjoyed it a lot! He is almost carrying me in his arms.

It's only us on the floor. Everyone is looking at us.

Then, Maxim approached us and asked permission to dance with me.

He bow down and then he stretched his arm, ready to waltz.

And I'm delighted!

He whispered in my ears "You look gorgeous tonight.. My little sister!" he said cheerfully.

"Oh thank you elder brother! You are so handsome too!"

He is wearing a cute tuxedo and trying to be gentleman.

Then, we laugh out loud.

And Annika comes near to us and joined us. We all hold hands and keep on dancing.

We danced and eat all night.

All my favourite food and desserts are served in the table.

It's magnificent feeling!

I hugged my parents and thank them for my grand birthday party.

And I'm feeling bloated as the party ended.

My mother Duchess Anastasia is very worried.

And called in the Royal Doctor for help.

Then...

The doors of my room opened.

And my spirit is startled.

I jump off the bath and took the towel to cover my naked body.

And I immediately collected my gold necklace in the sink and wear it.

My hair is still dripping with water.

Then, I slowly open the lavatory door in small portion, and survey the room area.

A shadow of a man standing in front of the windows.

He is facing through the view of the bay.

Oh God! No please.. Please spare me.

His body built is not Mikael.

And I felt the tremor of my body endlessly.

I closed the doors and I took the candles to help me see the face of this unwanted visitor, a culprit.

Then back, I opened the door of the lavatory, wider and stayed on the entryway.

"Who are you?!? what are you doing here inside my room?" I asked annoyingly.

I tried my best to conceal my fears.

A deep voice answered "Do I need to answer your question? " he sounded annoyed.

His voice is not familiar.

How could anyone, get into my room without anybody else noticed?

"I'm supposed to asked you that!" he added.

I sense the anger on his voice.

" I...never knew...that this is someone else's room! " I stammered.

I run through the dresser table , put down the candles and grab my hand bag.

I swiftly took my pistol and point it to the stranger in my room.

His face...

Chiseled jaws, strong chin, shabby brown hair, straight-edged nose and oval shaped blue eyes...

Broad shoulders...toned body and wearing a black cotton shirt and jeans.

He is taller than Specialist Mikael.

Then...

He laughed...

Embarrassment hits me all over my face.

"Are you satisfied with my looks, My Lady? " he asked in a gibe.

"You are the most impertinent, rowdy guy that I have ever met! You go out of my room..NOW!" I hollered.

He continued to laugh and much loudly.

I felt enraged.

"Olivia!?!?!" "Master Jones!?!?!" "Specialist Magnusen!?! O God..where are these people!" I exclaimed on top of my lungs.

"Well, well, well...Did my younger brother Mikael brought you here? "

My eyes wide open.

Brothers?

"O Yes! My brother...the prim and proper and a gentleman. You're too skinny for me. Better change clothes or you'll die in cold." he blatantly said.

Then, he leaves the room in a swift.

I immediately put the pistol back in my handbag and took my clothes in my suitcase and changed in my sleeping dress.

Then locked the door and took a chair to support the door for security.

How dare him!

He's a total apathetic jerk!?!?!

Tomorrow, I'll make sure.. you will pay big time!

I have troubled sleeping in bed, restlessness and anxieties keep me awake.

I decided to write in my journal.

December 22, 1980

Seward, Alaska

My beloved,

My first day in Seward is full of surprises.

I meet people in different characters.

And I will surely not forget, the most horrible, arrogant stranger, the culprit, the unwanted visitor inside my room.

Hope I'll have more clarity tommorow and peaceful sleep tonight.

Beatrix

I closed my journal and lay down in bed.

I hugged my cushions for comfort.

And humming a melody to calm my senses.

And I drift to sleep.

Sounds of gun shots ringing in my ears...

Smokes and fires...

Somebody hold my hands tight..

Embracing me in comfort..

I'm terrified.

The we started running.

We keep on running.

Until the darkness succumb us.

Then, the spark of light emits upon us.

The skies changes into azure blue and flowers bloom like spring time.

We are like flying in the air.

And...

Then, I looked into my companions face.

Those shabby hair, chiseled jaws, oval round blue eyes....those strong arms..

And blood..

blood dripping..in his handsome face..

I felt the horror.

I disengaged my hands from his.

And I'm falling down.

Keep falling down.

Falling down very strong against the winds.

And the ocean is below me.

I keep on yelling.

Please help me!

Please...

NO!?!

I'm eaten by the big waves.

I couldn't breath.

I'm drowning.

"NO!?!?!" I screamed at the top of my lungs.

And rolled myself over in bed.

Falling...

I'm awakened, breathlessly.