Chapter 5: Happy Valentines Day!

It's unbelievable that I will be trapped in the elevator with my boss. I have a mixed feeling when alone with him here. I can feel awkward in the air and feeling shy with him. But, I don't know why my heartbeat beating faster.

Whenever I close with him, I will feel that he is the person who can give me a warm feeling. This happens whenever I'm with someone before... I suddenly thinking about Simon my ex-boyfriend.

"Jessa... Jessa..." Emmanuel called her name softly.

At this time, she also can feel his presence and his voice too. Jordyn was in her own world while thought about him.

"Jordyn Jessa!" He touched her shoulder.

"Huh?"

"Are you okay? Are you still breathe? "

"Yeah, of course. I'm still alive here."

"I was called you much time but you didn't give any response."

"Oh, I'm sorry...I thinking about other else"

"Your boyfriend??"

"Nope! I don't have any. Just... someone I didn't see anymore... "

"You still love him?"

"Sir... I think your question too personal and I don't think I should answer your question.''

"Okay, let do this. Right now we alone in here and our working time was over... so... you can think me a stranger or friend?. "

"What? Are you sure? You didn't angry at me later when we at the office next week?"

"No... we can keep this thing between us only."

"Are you promise sir??"

"I promise to you shorter!" He put his hand in her hair.

I suddenly shocked by hearing him call me by that. It's really a long time I didn't hear someone calling me like that. '' Shorter??''

"Oh, I just randomly call that. After all, I'm not your boss right now."

"Oh..." I just control my tears to not fall down at that time. I really miss that calling...

He feels a little nervous because he slips his tongue to call her like that. She must not know who was me actually. I need to keep this secret from her. Jessa, I'm sorry... I will be telling you the truth one day.

''Did I remind you of someone by calling you like that?'' He asks purposely. He wants to see her reaction.

''Hmm...'' I nodding my head slowly.

''Oh, I'm sorry. I didn't mean it.''

''No, it's okay...I didn't know where was he also. Maybe he already forgets also about me.''

Emmanuel was felt sad at that time. He only stares at her eyes sadly. He wishes that he can hug her tightly there.

''Sir...? Sir...?''

''Oh, yes?''

''Are you soul didn't here also?'' I teasing him.

"Oh, sorry. So... can I hear a story from you while we wait for people to come and help us?''

"A stories? Hmm... what you want to hear?"

"Anything that can kill our times here and to getting out our boredom."

''Let me think first...hmm...''

''How about you tell me about your boyfriend before? I just curious about him.''

"Wait! Why do you want to know about him? I think I know something new about you, sir!"

He suddenly feeling nervous. Does she know who I am??

"I know you like a girl too sir! You must be like a gossip too! Hahaha!"

Emmanuel was shocked and he feels relieved too that she didn't know.

"Hahaha.. you can think like that. Shhh, just keep this secret." He pretends to laugh and tried to cover himself.

''Wow, I can't believe it, sir! This must be a big secret I have to know.''

''So...can you tell me?''

I make a deep breath and gather all my encouragement to tell him about Simon.

''It's okay if you didn't want to. I didn't want to force you. Just forget my question.''

I quickly grab his hands and telling him. '' No! I will tell you about him. After all...I have a long time to share with someone about my feelings about him. I didn't tell my sister and friend about my true feelings before this because I didn't want them to worried about me.''

''Jessa...''

''I miss him...I really missing him. Even before we agreed to split up from each other...I still can't forget him easily. I always force myself to not thinking about him but when I'm alone, my mind always leads me to think about him again.''

''Did you still waiting for him to come back to you?''

''Always...I always waiting for him today...tomorrow and forever. I already do many things to find him but still no news about him. Sometimes I didn't know why he didn't come back to me at least once. I just want to know how was about his life.''

''I'm sure he does well right now. Or maybe he has too busy with his life.''

''Yeah, I hope too. It's okay if he forgets about me and already has someone in his life but...I just want to see him for once only.''

''I don't think he has someone else. Just give him more time to coming back to you. I'm sure he has his own reason why he doesn't come back to you so soon''

''I hope my heart is still strong to wait for him to come back to me. I don't know how long I can wait for him.'' I try to hold my tears. I wish I can shed tears until my heart out at that time.

''No! You must be strong. You must be waiting for him. I believe he will comeback to you.'' He said fiercely to her while holding tightly both her shoulders.

I was shocked to see him like that. I don't know why his reaction was like that.

''Sir...it hurts.''

''Oh, I'm sorry. I was too emotional to listen to your stories.'' He slowly released his hand.

''It's okay. I also carried away by my feelings to tell all of this. I just want to express all my pent up feelings.''

''So, after tell out of this...can your heart be more light?''

''Nope! It will not!''

''So...how you want me to do?''

''Hahaha...I'm just kidding sir! I'm okay...! Thank you sir for listening to my stories. I didn't know why I can easily share with you about my stories. After you hear all of this, you must be thinking that I'm a crazy loser woman right?''

''No...I didn't think it like that. Dont worry, I will keep all of this by myself. But we must look at your work performance first!''

''Sir?! You?''

''Okay, I'm kidding too! But, I have something to ask you.''

''What is that?''

''Can you just call me Karson when we were outside from our working time?''

''Err...I...''

''Can you promise me?

''I...can't...sir''

''It's gonna be weird if you call me a sir if we outside of our office. I don't too like to use that formal call.'' He deliberately asks her to call him by that because he wants Jordyn to remember him always. I'm sorry Jessa.

I hesitate to call him by that name because Simon's full name also was used, Karson. I used to call him by that name before and now I must call this man by that name too again. Why would this happen to me? I want to forget about him very hard but there were always things that will keep my mind to always remember about him.

''I...I will try.''

''Okay, I will forward to it!'' He rubs my hair gently.

After a long conversation with him, suddenly my alarm phone was ringing. I forget that before I set it to ringing when it turns 12pm because I want to celebrate my valentine's with myself. I quickly turn it off. I try to hide it but he managed to see the note alarm that I set on my phone.

He gives a smile to me and gently said,'' Happy Valentines Day Jessa...''

I was stunned by his look. His face was really close to me. My heart was beating faster. I hope he didn't hear my sound of the heart beating. Jessa...Jessa...calm down...he just said it without any meaning.

''Haha...Happy Valentine's too sir!''

''Sir?''

''I mean...Kar...son...''

''Say it again with my name.''

''Happy Valentines too, Karson...''

Emmanuel gives her a sincere smile. He didn't think that finally this year he can wish that words to her in person.

I didn't know why I will easily follow what he told me. I don't know why I feel his personality has the same as Simon but luckily their face was different. I wish my heart will not waver to him. I must know my limit!

''It's weird right that we like the other couple that looks like celebrating this lovely day.''

''I don't think this weird.''

I was shocked to hear those words from him. Does he only joke around?

Suddenly, we heard someone was coming there to save us. Finally, we can get out from there safely. Luckily, we didn't have any hurt and just a little suffering to waiting for them to come.

''Jessa, I send you home''

''Err...I...''

''It's late already, I will send you home. Come.'' He pulls my hand.

''Are you okay? Can you breathe well?''

''Huh? Yeah, I'm okay. I can breathe well.''

''Just tell me if you didn't feel well''

''Oh...okay. Thank you for your concern.''

''It is indeed my responsibility to take care of you.''

Indeed? Yeah, after all, he's my boss, and I'm his employee. Why do I want to think about his words seriously? He must be caring about me as his employee. I didn't know that he will show me his other different side than be a serious boss that I always see at the office.