Chapter 15: Time Walking In Memories...

[The present time...]

After a week my sister was detained in the hospital, she finally discharged from the hospital today. I feel relieved that she able to go out and her wound look better.

In that evening, I settle out first all her bill and the document for her check-out procedure. I sat in the checkout counter area to wait my turn. It looks like many people there and I think that I have to wait for a little longer.

''Jordyn?'' Ariel approaches her from the back.

''Hey, Ariel! Hi!''

''Did your sister discharged today?''

''Yeah, that right. Are you off from work?''

''Yup.''

''I see, so...take care on your way.''

''Okay. Anyway, if you don't mind, I can send you two going back home.''

''No, no... it's okay. I appreciate it. I don't want to bother you. After all, you must be tired from your work. We can take the grab car later.'' I grinned a little.

''And my queue here still long.'' She added

Ariel chuckles after hear that. ''Actually, I dont mind waiting for you. But, if you still insist I don't want to force you. So, I going back first. Bye!''

''Okay, bye!''

'Phew! Luckily I can keep him away. I don't want him to tell Emmanuel later about me. I need to keep away from him also because he closes with Simon and Emmanuel. She thought.

Then, after half an hour, I finished settle down all my sister discharged. I going to my sister there and after that, we walk out and waiting in the hospital lobby.

''Vic, you wait for a while here. I call for the grab car first.''

''Okay,'

''Hmm, it takes a long time because it's rainy right now,'' I said

''It's okay, we just wait here only.''

''So, tomorrow you can go to work. I will be okay at home. After all, my wound was not in pain anymore. I can do my work from home.''

''Are you sure? I can ask to extend my leave. I can accompany you for several days.''

''Yeah, it's okay. I can take care of myself. I'm not like you!'' She laughed at her.

I just make an angry glare at her.

''I afraid your lovely boss didn't want to approve your leave again." She said with a little chuckle.

"Vic!" I make an intense glare at her.

"Okay, just kidding!''

''Let us go. Our car has arrived.''

After an hour, we arrived at our home. Once arrived, I help my sister to do her things and of course, I need to cook for her.

''So tonight, what we want to eat?''

''Emm, anything you want to cook. I follow you.''

''If like that, I cook spaghetti for our dinner.''

''Okay, that's cool. I take a shower first ya.''

''Okay, be careful with your wound sister.''

''Yeah, I know.''

After twenty minutes, I did cook for our dinner. I set our table and place our food on there.

''Vic, come here. Let eats.''

''Okay, coming!''

''Wow, it smells good. Thank you my little sister for the food.'' She added.

''You're welcome.''

''Jessa?''

''What?''

''Can I ask you something? Promise me you not angry?''

''What is that?'' I make a curious glaring.

''Why haven't I seen Emmanuel visit you at the hospital lately? I mean, didn't he going to see you?''

''Why should he see me? We not that too close. He just my boss okay?''

''Only your boss?? Not...a lover?'' Victoria chuckles after said that.

''Sister, please don't make false assumptions. Between us only employee and boss.''

"Why don't you try first? You never know what will happen. What if he is the one that you are waiting for this time?" Victoria teases her more.

"Nope! Never!"

"Why? Are you still waiting for Simon?"

I silent for a while when hear her said like that. My heart suddenly feels hurt and my sadness that I keep for a long time.

''Jessa, don't make your heart hurt anymore to keep reminding him. I know how you feel, but if you can...I hope you can forget him so that your heart will be in solitude.'' Victoria was a worry for her.

''I was done eating. I went into my room first.'' I standing up and want to move away from there.

''Jessa?''

"Sister, thank you for your concerns, I know what should I do," I said that and I leave her and went to my room.

Victoria just watched her sister pass by. She knows Jessa still can't forget about Simon and she knows how painful it is for her to brace herself to continue to be happy on her own.

It already has been many years, but Jessa still keeps her sadness in her heart alone. She didn't show it to anyone, but Victoria knows her sister very well. Victoria still remembers the night Jessa and Simon were broken up before.

She can say that was the first and the last time Jessa was crying out loud. She very worried at that time because she really in sadness. After that happen, Victoria didn't see her sister cry anymore. She didn't even know if that were the good or the bad thing.

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That night, I was lying on my bed. I lay down while listening to some music. While I'm resting myself, Suddenly, I got a call from Lily.

"Hello?"

"Hello, Jessa?

"Yo, what's up to Lily?

"Are you coming to work tomorrow?"

"Yes. Why? Are you missing me that much?" I laughed.

"Of course I miss u friend. But, actually, I just want to inform you that tomorrow my last day to work."

"Last day? Where you want to go? Are you resign??" I am a little shocked.

"Wow, wow... calm down. Did you forget I take my leave for my wedding? My wedding was next weekend."

"Oh god! I'm sorry Lily. I forget about that. Sorry, dear... "

"It's okay, I know you busy taking care of your sister. But, in return make sure you give me a big gift wedding. Hahaha... "

"Of course my friend, I will give you a gift that you never forget from your best friend. Oh yeah, I'm sorry too because I can't be your bridesmaid. I don't have time to make it."

"No, don't be dear. I understand. It's okay... just make sure you come to my wedding."

"Okay, sure, congrats my dear."

"Alright, let talk again tomorrow okay. I will pass my work to you and the other things we need to arrange before I on leave."

"Okay, see you tomorrow, bye!"

"Okay, bye!"

After our calling end, I started thinking about what gift should I give Lily. I surf the internet about the choice of wedding gift. Sometimes I laughed myself to imagine the weird and funny gift to Lily. She must be angry if I give her something strange. I just smiling alone to thinking about that.

When I was busy looking for a gift for Lily, All of a sudden, I got a message from Emmanuel Karson!

(Are you asleep?)

(Emm... not yet, why?)

(Nothing, okay, good night)

Our message conversation was ending just like that. I wonder what he wants to say actually. I was thinking for a while. I remember that we last meet was at the hospital. That day he confessed to me? Or he just asking me out? Argh!!

Did he just want to say good night only? Or. . . something else?? Okay, never mind! Maybe he forgets what he wants to say. Let's forget about him!

I getting ready for bed and want to sleep, but since I have insomnia, I cannot close my eyes easily and fall asleep as quickly as possible. I try many ways to recover from my insomnia but I always can't help myself.

I always wanted to have a better sleep but it will always the same, every day and every night...I had to force myself to close my eyes.

In fact, I was thinking many things before going to sleep. I've tried many times not to think much but I still can't. Therefore, actually...the only way I always do to help me going to sleep is, I had to hold the necklace Simon giving me before.

I would use the necklace on my neck every night, so that only then could I sleep better. I always recall back our memories before. I know this is a crazy thing I have done but I only have to do this because I lose many years without him.

I wished I can pull back the time and saying out loud what actually inside my heart.

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{The Flashback moment when Jordyn Jessa and Simon Karson break up the last day}

''Karson, thank you. Thank you for letting me hug you. I will remember this warm hug from you.''

''Jessa...''

''No, please don't speak any words. I want to hug you like this for a minute.''

In my heart, I only speak with myself about my real feelings. Karson, I love you...I really can't be far away from you anymore. I thought your return for this time was to come back here forever but it just only in my dream. I didn't know that this time was the last time we been together.

{ A letter by Jordyn Jessa : }

Dear Karson,

Emm...I didn't know how I want to start writing this letter to you. Actually, I have many questions to ask you but I didn't know which one to asking you. Maybe I can just keep that all in my heart only. I don't want to be emotional. Haha!

I hope if you read this letter in the future...I don't know if I were still together with you or not, but believe me...it only me that only in your heart and just only you in my heart!

Whatever happens, that will come between us, I want you to know that I will be waiting for you here. I want you to know that I will always be close to your heart. I will love you even you didn't love me anymore. I will cheer you from far even you far away from me.

Just remember...I will choose your love for today, tomorrow, and forever...

Your Lovely Shorty,