Chpter 6

I can't stop myself from thinking of Alex's face. He looked so distant and closed off, almost like he never wanted the subject to be brought up. A few days has passed since Emily asked about children and Alex has been avoiding me since. He doesn't look at me, doesn't even acknowledge my presence. The only things he will say to me is hi, or something short and simple. I've tried to get him to talk to me but nothing.

Does Alex not want children? Is that why he's being distant with me? He knew this is what I want eventually but it doesn't seem to be the same for him. I get to my store and begin to open it for customers trying to forget about Alex and why he acted the way he did. I go straight to mu office and lock the door not even bothering with waiting for Shawn to show up or even starting to straighten up out there. All I would do is stand there and replaying his words and face in my head over and over and I wouldn't be help to anyone.

After A few hours of sitting in my office locked up trying to do paperwork, I get a knock on my door. Curious as to who I slowly get up and make my way to the door and unlock it. "Hey Sam." Emily says with a shy smile. "Hi, come in." I say while opening the door wide for her to enter. I head back to my chair behind my desk and sit while Emily hesitates before sitting in the chair across from me. I slightly raise my eyebrow before chuckling a bit. "I'm not mad at you Em, don't act so scared." I say in between my giggles. "I know I know, it just feels like I'm in the principles office you know?" She replies making me laugh before I offer a small smile.

"So, what made you want to pay me a visit today?" I ask before focusing on paperwork to get done during our talk. "Uhm well, I just wanted to say sorry about last night. I didn't mean for Alex to ghost you or anything like that. I just figured that, it's what you both wanted but I didn't think he would react that way I swear." She says quickly as I look at her and take in her words before shaking my head. "No, Em, it's okay. It was something that would have to have been brought eventually. It's not your fault that he doesn't want kids." I say assuring her that it isn't her fault but mine to think my own husband would want to have kids with me. "No, you don't know that. Maybe he was just in shock at the fact that it was brought up so quickly, I mean you guys have only been married for a few years." She states.

Hearing her words and remembering his face last night and the way he said his words, my eyes start to water and I shake my head again and smile before replying. "You didn't see the look on his face, not the way I did. Or his words, the way they were said. He doesn't want children and I need to think about if this is the married life I want to live. I always wanted kids, but if it means never having them, I don't think Alex and I will work out." I wipe off the tears that fell down my face before taking a deep breath to calm down. "No don't say that Sam, just talk to him first before you make a decision I know you will regret. Maybe he was acting that way for a different reason and not because he doesn't want children." Emily says trying to make me feel better but I can't help but feel like he really doesn't want kids. "Let's just talk about something else while you're here. Uhm did Jacob ever come around?" I ask her trying to change the subject, but Em being Em knows what I'm doing and gives me a smile before answering. "Yeah he did. He apologized for the way he acted and was excited to be a father. He was still in shock about it but he's coming around." She says letting her face fall into a wide smile and a faraway look probably thinking about that day. "So do you guys know the gender or have any names picked out?" I ask still trying to keep the conversation off of Alex and him not wanting any.

"Well we actually wanted it to be a surprise and we did actually pick out a few names." she says. Before I can ask what they are she continues, "We was thinking that if they were a boy, we would name it Samuel. Sam for short." She says softly to me as a smile covers my face. "You want to name you're baby after me?" I ask as she nods her head. "Yeah, I was thinking of using Samantha but I figured that's kind of cliché to actually use your name and I was thinking of what else Sam was short for and we came up with Samuel. Which reminds me of the main reason I came here. I wanted to know if you wanted to be the godmother." She states as more tears start to appear in my eyes as I smile and nod my head frantically. "Yes, I would love that Em." I say she smiles with me. "And for a girl he was thinking of something like Grace or Claire." She says.

"I would go with Grace, it sounds prettier." I say sniffling and shrugging before giggling with her. "Why did you want to name you're baby after me?" I ask her. "Because Sam, you're my best friend and I want you in my life always, plus it's going to be funny when he gets older to see you guys get confused on which Sam people are referring to." She says giggling making me laugh with her thinking about it. "You're evil." I say as she laughs harder.

"It's getting late, I have to get home before Jacob gets worried." Emily says as she stands up. I get up as well and walk with her the short distance to the door before she turns and gives me a hug. "It will work out, between you and Alex. Like I said, talk to him before you make a decision you will regret." She says pulling away before she turns and leaves as I nod. I turn to go back to my desk when I feel my phone vibrate in my pocket. I pull it out thinking it's Alex but shock covers my face as I read the text and know who sent it.

Can't get rid of us so easily Shorty, you will pay for leaving me for dead and for Brooke being on the run.