Chapter 24

It's been three weeks after that night happened.

It's been weeks that i didn't catch up with Reige.

I never tried to talk to him. And even him.

He only looked at me miserably everytime he caught me home late at night.

But i didn't mind him, and didn't even bother to stay my sight longer in his face.

I walked straight to my room and never intended to go out if i knew that he's just around the unit.

I Avoided myself to talk to him after that night.

Everyday, i left early from his condo so can't reach him.

Sometimes, when he woke up early first, i didn't come out from my room.

Sometimes, when i'm tired from the shoot and i woke up late, i waited him to leave first before i went out from my room.

There were times that i want to give up and just forget what happened that night, but it's too pain to just forget easily.

Especially when everytime, it came across my mind of what his friends have told me that night.

And Like how they judged me.

There were times that he waited for me no matter how late i went home.

Though i intentionally did it.

He even always texted me while i'm at the shoot,but i didn't reply.

He kept on calling me even if i didn't answered.

"Cath, i'm sorry."

"Please talk to me."

"Can i fetch you?"

"Please let me know your schedule."

Every night when i went home, i saw some food on the table he left.

But, i didn't eat it.

"I'll wait till you get ready to talk to me."

I smiled bitterly.

"Cath, have you eaten yet?"

I was surprised one time in the middle of the night when i went home from the bar and saw him waiting for me at the sofa.

He asked me in a calm tone but i can see the annoyance in his face.

I was a bit tipsy.

So, i gave him a nod for an answer.

He stepped towards me but i stepped back.

He noticed what i did, so he stopped his steps midway.

"A-are you drunk?"

His expression was full of concern but at the same time annoyed.

I smirked and started to move towards my room.

He caught my body when i almost stumbled.

But, i pushed him. The reason why he unconsciously stepped back.

" Don't you come near me.!"

His eyes widened.

"Cath-... Shit!"

He didn't finish what he was about to say when i stepped back again and stumbled.

"Fuck! You went to a bar? With who? Shit! What if...."

He thrilled of and sighed heavily to regain his calm temper, but it didn't work.

The tone of his voice was evidently angry.

I smirked again.

I felt numb.

Myself felt numb for everything.

But i don't want to feel pity for myself, this time.

His face turned into pale when he noticed my reaction.

He tried to reach my hand but i avoided it.

He lifted his head and closed his eyes intently while sighed heavily.

If this is the only way that he i can let go from him, then i will do it.

If this is the only way that i can lost all his patience and decided me to go back to me condo, then i'll do it.

If not, then i still have another option.

"Shit! I tried to understand you because i want to give you space, but i didn't allow you to go to a bar without me, and came home looking at you like this drunk!"

He sighed heavily again and walked towards me.

I avoided again.

"Cath... Fuck!" he warned.

"Stop wasting your time with me Reige, it won't work. And i don't give a damn!"

His mouth dropped open because of what he heard from me.

I turned away and started walking towards my room but he followed me and caught my waist.

He immediately wrapped his arms around my waist and hugged me tightly.

He put his head in my shoulder and breath heavily.

I can feel his body trembled. Or maybe it was just my wild imagination because of drunkness.

"You didn't mean it right? Tell me please. You're just drunk. You're just angry."

He sighed heavily.

I shook my head.

And i can fell his body shaking.

But i'm too numb to give a damn attention about it.

I don't fucking care whatever he'll going to say, even if it's his friends too.

I loosen his grip and moved away.

I saw the fear in his eyes when i did it.

He tried to reach again of my arms but i avoided it even more.

"I will not talk you unless you will let me go."

"No! I told you, they're just-"

I turned and walked as fast as i can towards my room.,so i won't hear his explaination.

I'm tired of it anyway.

I immediately closed the door as i went in and locked it.

Not even a minute, i heards something's broken outside from my room and shut from his door.

It felt pain for me but i endured it.

I woke up early in the morning at five and prepared myself to leave the condo as early as i can....

I didn't talked to Reige after that night in his condo.

And he didn't wait for me again.

He's just inside of his office inside the condo and did the paper works there.

He didn't go to his office either.

Just inside in his office in his condo he worked.

After almost a month of not paying attention with him, now i got decided already.

After i prepared all the things i need for today, I texted trexie to meet her early at the studio.

We have another meet and greet for today, right after the shooting, so i asked her to come early.

I want to tell her about my plan. So she'll be aware of my disappearance.

I decided and wants to leave early because i don't want to encounter him in this early.

I don't want to catch up with him right after what happened few weeks ago and after that night in his condo.

I know he was angry last time.. He even shut and slammed the door of his room , right after i told him that.

It's just too early to go to studio for the shooting and our meet and greet is about at two o'clock in the afternoon.

So definitely, i have a long and enough time to wait and roam around.

I planned to jogged while roaming around before going to studio.

I brought something to change, so it's fine if i got sweat after i jogged.

People seemed to always talked about Reige because he's that insteresting and he's that handsome as..... Shit!

Aside from everyone knew about his achievements,i'm very certain that they also knew everything about him most especially when it come about his woman.

My goodness.

He's that freaking famous about that thing.

I was already at the studio at ten o'clock in the morning for the short shooting.

I felt tired from jogged, so i changed immediately my clothes right after i reached here.

Wearing white rubber shoes, with skin tight jeans and a white top.

I confidently looked fine.

"Cath, where's the body guard's body guard?"

Trexie, Daisy and Grace, aproached me with a smirked platered on their faces.

I frowned and i didn't even understand right away what she meant.

Daisy and Grace, laughed.

I didn't answered trexie because i didn't know what to answer her either.

But instead, i glanced at my phone.

I saw a thirty seven missed calls from Reige and twenty text messages.

"Goodness, Cath. Is That the reason why you can't concentrate?Are you that too in love, huh?" she said with a mocked in her tone.

I didn't tell them about what happened last night especially to trexie, because i knew what they'll going to react.

Especially Trexie.

Though i'm pretty that i can't hide anything from them, i will surely tell it to them, but maybe soon.

I decided already. And no one can change my mind this time.

This is for my own good, anyway.

"Cath."

"Cath, where are you?"

"Do you have a schedule for a shoot today?"

"Don't make me fucking worried! Answer me!"

"Goodness!" don't make me fucking crazy! "

" You'll come home late again tonight? And drunk? Tell me! "

" You did it everytime. What the hell were you thinking! "

" Shit! Answer me! "

Reige cursed. I can feel his frustration for me bit i don't give a damn.

How much more after if he woke up tomorrow without Cath in his life anymore?

Without Cath ruining his perfect life?

Without Cath who's whorrle gold digger?

I sighed deeply and typed a message for him.

" Don't bother. You don't need to pick me. I can get home alone. "

I pressed the send button and not even a minute, my phone rang for his call.

I startled and reject his call, not minding the three persons watching me in front.

When I lifted my head, and saw how Trexie raised her brow, while Daisy crossed his arms,and Grace smirked while watching me.

Trexie laughed, and i frowned.

I turned my swivel chair back from them and pretended that i'm doing something.

"LQ, babe?" Trexie said while continue laughing.

"Tss,"

"Well, it's a normal for a relationship. It's inevitible."

She added.

I don't want to think anything this time.

Maybe Vince and her sometimes like that?

But our situations from them is much different.

People will agree in their relationship because Vince and her came from a known and wealthy family.

While me and Reige.....

I sighed heavily again.

We're done with our shoots, and we're already at the backstage.

Anytime later our meet and greet will start.

We have drinks and food for everyone.

And Everyone's busy, but my mind was clouded for Reige.

What happened in the bar last time came across my mind, mostly.

The way how his friends dislike me.

The way how his friend insulted me.

The way how his friends prefered Shane Sandoval for him than me.

I looked at my wrist watch and checked the time.

It's almost two o'clock in the afternoon, and any short moment, our meet and greey will start.

I need to prepare myself too.

Did he already ate this time?

My phone rang again for his call but i just looked at it, and never bothered to even answer one of his calls.

"Cath, you don't look fine."

Grace noticed my mode.

"I'm fine."

I shook my head and didn't talk again.

"Don't think too much. Cheer up!"

I smirked.

When Reige took everything from me years ago, this is how i felt.

Hopeless.

And now, after so many years had passed, we met again after.

And agreed with this agreement in him, i felt more than hopeless.

I'm totally fucked up.

Even if i already achieved the dream that i dreamed even before,

Still it's not enough.

Everyone's already pepared, and We're already ready meet and greet our avid supporters.

This is where i belong.

My world belongs here.

Only here.

It's not new for me that some fans usually flock to me before the three.

"Miss Cath, you're so beautiful and blooming."

One teen said.

"Really? Should i take that as a compliment?"

I answered and smiled widely.

"Should i hope to see you again, next time?" i added.

She nodded and screamed.

Aside from women, some men flocked my line too.

"Thanks for coming! Ssee you next time.!"

And Of course, pictures were necessary too.

It's inevitible anyway.

Girls likes to chats, while men likes to touch.

But That's even fine for me.

It's part of the work.

"For you, miss.Cathy."

The one shy type of teen hand me something.

She's with her friends.

I can see that most of them were shy and didn't know if how to give their gifts for me.

"Ahm... M-miss. Cathy, for you."

"Thank you!"

They smiled, and i smiled back.

"Cath, i need to go home first, my mom made a call, and it's emergency.!"

Trexie suddenly approached me right after.

She looked so tense, and i don't usually seen this kind of expression from her.

She looked to worried and uncomfortable.

I was not in the mode really, so i just gave her a nod.

" See you"

She waved at me and kissed me in the cheeks and she left.

I watched her while walking towards the door, and sighed.

Why the world so cruel for me?

I started to fix all the things that i brought for me to leave also.

While scrolling down of my phone, i thought of calling jenny.

So After, i dialled her number, and put the phone in my ears.

It rangs three times before she got to answered.

"Hi, Cath. What's news.?"

I sighed.

"Jen, i'm planning to book a ticket later after my work. I will book for a flight tomorrow." my voice really tired.

I felt like there's somene whispered me to think about this first, but i'm decided already.

And I don't want to encounter the things i encountered last night with Reige's friends.

I don't want to hear those insults again from them.

" Really? But why do i fell like something's wrong in your voice? Aren't you happy?"

Jen's voice sounded worried.

"I'm just tired from the shooting Jen. Don't worry, i've decided already. This is what i want. Please prepare my room. I'll be there soon. I'll book a ticket for my flight tomorrow." i made sure.

"Sure! God! My sons would surely be happy. They're itching to meet their beautiful Tita Cathy."

I smiled. I can feel her excitements.

And that's what matter me the most for now.

"I'll send you the details of my flight, right after i bought a ticket, right?"

"Fine, just send me. And take care Cath. See you soon. Mwaahh."

"See you, bye. I need to cut this. I jeed to go. "

"Okay."

I approached and asked my manager to leave first because i have some important things to do.

Daisy and Grace weren't curious by my sudden exit, so i left without any curious questions from them.

I need to take my time for this day.

I need to make somethings memorable for me.

I went out from the station and left going to ticket outlet for me to book a flight.

After, i went to an internet cafe to print my resignation letter.

Everyone inside the internet were so curious like how they looked.

Maybe because of my look?

Or maybe, they recognized me but they're just confused?

After i buyed ticket and made resignation letter, i decided to dropped by at the nearest grocery store to buy something to cook for tonight.

I want to cook for tonight.

I want to cook something for Reige.

I want to make this nighylt somethings extra special.

Or, can i ask him to cook for me?

Or maybe we can help each other about cooking right?

Maybe, right?

I want to make things right for us, tonight.

Just for tonight.

I want to make this nighy an extra special and momorable for the both of us.

Like Something's he can't forget about me.

I want him to remember me, after tonight.

I roamed around first before i got decided to go to grocery store.

I spent my time sitting at the luneta park.

The place where most of the lovers, came and visit and spent their precious time together.

My phone rang and i looked at it.

Messages from Trexie, Jenny, And Reige top up onnthe top on the screen of my phone.

I roamed my eyes again at the sorroundings.

I saw a couple of lovers who sweetly seated at the some benches.

I bowed my head.

Insecurity hit me.

If i can only love the right person.

If i can only love without anyone's judgement.

Then maybe i don't need this pointless life.

I lifted my head and looked at the starsand smiled bitterly.

This city has a big part of my life.

The city where i started my dreams.

The city where i met the person i love, but can never be mine.

Trexie:

Cath, where are you? Can i meet you tonight?

Jenny:

Everything's ready Cath, see you soonest!

Reige:

Please come home.

I will explain all this thing to trexie right after i arrived there in U. S.

I know she'll understand me.

God!

I need to fix my things later, but maybe after...

I sighed.

For Trexie:

I'm doing something right now Trex, next time.

Trexie:

Okay. Take care.

For Trexie:

You too, take care.

She immediately reply.

So She's not this busy right now?

I thought there's an emergency.?

Yeah. Knowing that brat.

I remembered how she hurriedly went home for an emergency.

Was there any problem from their family?

Or business?

Well, wealthy person.

I shrugged my shoulder and continued typing my message.

For Jenny:

Thank you Jen! See you soonest! Send my warm regards for your sons.

I didn't type a message for Reige.

What's the point?

Anyway, i'm going home any moment, so no need.

It was seven o'clock in the evening after i'm done buying from grocery store.

I started to move and started to leave the place

Heading to Reige's condo.

It's still seven in the evening, so i still have time to cook for our dinner, right?

I was thinking if he went to his office, today?

Or maybe he stayed in his condo the whole day and did the paper works there.

He's the owner of his own company so he don't need to make himself pressured.

He has everything in the world, and even to manage his own time, i'm sure he can handle it.

My phone bombarded with so many text messages from him including missed calls since this morning.

I want to be selfish and never mind what other people would think about us, especially from his friends.

But, i am not that selfish to bring him down.

What i did from him five years ago, was enough experienced for me to never make a wrong move because of desperation.

I won't do such a shityt decision just to be benifited.

I was thinking, i am not that too selfish to let him suffer from all these from me.

I'm already at the lobby of his unit building.

I went straight to the elevator and got inside.

And pressed the button of the last floor of the building for his unit.

I sighed first, when i reached the right floor of his room.

I remained standing outside of the door on his unit and fixed myself first before i decided to went in.

I held the doorknob and opened the door of his unit using the passcode he gave me.

He gave me the passcode right after i moved in here, and that's the good thing he did, so i don't need to wait for him.

As i opened the door, the dark color of his unit greeted me.

My hand left hanging on the doorknob as i started walking inside.

I didn't turned on the light first.

All the lights from his unit was turned off, even the sala.And That made me confused.

He opened it most of the time even without us here.

But i was surprised why it's all turned of Tonight.

And i didn't hear anything.

Even a slightest noise.

He's not here?

Or, Didn't he home yet?

I checked the wall clock, it's already seven thirty in the evening and almost eight.

Usually, he came home at five from his office.

Is he out with his friends for a night out again?

Or he's with his woman?

I shrugged my shoulder and smiled bitterly at my thought.

The thought from the last time where i met his friends and how they insulted me, came acrossed my mind.

I moved closer and continued my steps.

That's his life anyway.

That's where he belong.

And it's pointless if i'll give a damn care about it now.

I'm leaving anyway.

If he's not here, then i will wait for him, right?

Fine! I will wait for him.

I still haven't open the lights because i was thinking to close the door first.

But, i almost jumped from where i was standing, when a strong arms hugged me from behind.

Right after i closed the door and locked the doorknob.

"What-"

"Shh."

Reige said and possesively hugged me from behind.

He burried his face in my neck and gave it a feathered kiss.

I let out a sigh when a familiar sensation came because of his kiss.

"God Reige! You scare the hell out of me! What are you doing!?"

I angrily said.

Shit.

I was shocked! Really!

"Let go off me!"

"No."

He simply answered.

"You didn't talk to me a few weeks and you come home at night late. You didn't even answer any of My calls and messages. You made me fucking worried." he said with a cursed.

"What's the point then? I still got home, anyway."

"Even. You must still answered me. Or message me. You made me fucking worried the whole time. I thought... I thought..."

He thrilled off.

"You thought what Reige?"

I challenged him, but he didn' t answer.

He only tightened his grip around my waist from behind and kissed me again.

"Don't fucking do it again, Cath. Don't made me fucking worried again. Don't fucking do it again."

Shit.

How can i leave if he's like this?

I closed my eyes intently.

And think about my idea of leaving

Shit!

I landed my hand in his hand that firmly wrapped around me, in front.

I caressed it.

" Did you eat your dinner?"

"No. I waited for you."

He said gently.

While his face still burried in my neck.

He kissed it again and it brought me some tickling sensations.

I nodded even if he didn't saw my answer because of the dark.

"Let's prepare for our dinner, then? Let's cook for us? . Cook for me Reige. Please."

He lifted his head and rested his chin in my shoulder.

He hugged me even tighter like he's afraid if i'm going to disappear.

"Anything for my baby."

He said and kissed me in my cheeks before he left.

All the shapes of his face, his perfect nose, fiercing eyes, eye lashes and eyebrows, i memorized it all.

I want to remember every bit of him.

All of him.

He smiled when he noticed my stares.

He switched on already the light after, so i can clearly watch him.

All of him, as clear as water.

"I'm so happy." he said and shook his head.

"Me too." i smiled at him.

He kissed me on the lips torridly, and guided me through his kitchen.

"What do you want me to cook?"

"Ahm, anything. What dish do you rarely cook?" i answered.

"Alright. I'll handle it."

I raised my brow and watched him all the time.

Seemed like, i don't want to avert my gaze from him.

I felt like i'm scared, if i lost him from my sight.

Reige isn't really meant for me.

And i'm surely not meant for him too.

That's the reality that i need to accept.

We can't be together.

Especially when it comes to our life status.

He's in his rightful state.

While me, not.

And being here with me, will be the mess of his life.

"You're so weird. Why are you staring at me like that? Can't help staring at my handsome face?"

He smirked and raised a brow.

I laughed loudly and started to move so i can help him to cut the ingredients.

"Don't be too much full of yourself Reige."

"I'm not."

He shook his head and approached me.

He didn't want me to do anything so i sat on the high chair and waited for him to start cooking his masterpiece.

I felt nervous when he caressed my lips using his fingers.

I lifted my body from leaning tha chair and sat straightly because of what he did.

He moved closer to me and whispered something in my ears which made me almost breathless.

"I know you, already. So i know when you lied or not."

"Really?" i crossed my arms and watched him intently.

He looked for my arms where i placed it under my chest and swallowed.

"Oh, my baby Reige is out of her mind watching my-"

"Stop it Cath."

I laughed. He suddenly knew what i was about to say.

God!

And i enjoyed it. Shit.

"Don't provoke me. Well, eventually we'll do that things on your mind. We'll eventually do more than kissing baby. And i can feel that it will happen soon."

He laughed and move a bit away from me.

"Stay here. I will start to cook."

Hope you can forgive me Reige.

His last words stuck in my mind.

We'll do the things more than kissing.

"You can wait at the sala and watch movies while i'm cooking. I will call you right after i'm done."

I shook my head.

I want to watch him.

I want to stay with him this time.

"No, Cath. I can't concentrate if you'll stay here."

He said with a mocked.

I laughed. "I want to watch you cooking."

He frowned while his attention was on the cooking pan.

He put it above the stove and started doing his dish.

He's wearing a v-neck t-shirt.

Simple but yet attractive.

It suits him.

I put down my two elbow at the counter and rested my palm in my face while watching him cooking the dishes.

"Fuck! I can't concentrate. I'd better think what you were thinking than thinking about what would be the next ingredients i'm going to put."

I raised my brow.

"Excuses! . Just tell me straight to the point that you can't cook dishes, Reige." he stopped and raised me a brow too.

My body was almost jump from sitting in the high chair when he walked towards me while holding some ingredients in a plate and landed it in the other counter.

" Really? "he said like he challenged me.

I laughed fakely to ease the nervous i felt.

My body trembled. And my knees seemed like want to burry in the stand of the high chair.

" You're hurting my ego, Cath. "

He whispered when he's near at me.

I leaned my body a bit, so that i can stay away from him.

It made me feel dizzy when he's closer next to me.

Because i'm scared to give in.

For god's sake!

Jesus! We're inside the kitche!

Damn it.

He bent to whisper.

"You' re blushing." he snorted.

My eyes widened when he immediately noticed it.

I stared at him and waited for him to say something again.

"You'll see." he said and walked through the cooking area.

I didn't do anything but only watched his back which kept on flexing everytime he sliced something.

Everytime he put something inside the pan, he made a glanced at me before he continue.

He's almost done.

He put the chicken with special seasonings inside the oven.

And wiped his hands with a white clean rugs.

"I noticed something." he smirked.

"Do you find me more handsome while wearing this shirt?"

My jaw dropped half open for what he said.

He smirked even more when he noticed my reactions.

"How can you say that?"

"I noticed how you stared at me when everytime i wear this kind of shirt."

He shrugged his shoulder.

I scanned his body.

Almost all his shirts was perfectly fitted in his masculine body.

But i particularly love him wearing this kind of shirt.

"I will buy more of this, if that so."

Seemed like my heart squeezed when i heard it.

He smirked when i lifted my gaze.

"W-why?"

"Because you love watching me wearing this shirt, right?" he smiled evilly.

I nodded and slowly scanned his body down.

He reached my chin and lifted it up, so our eyes met.

"My Cath love me wearing this shirt."

He smirked and caressed my face.

I bit my lower lip and felt his touch.

I held his hand and caressed it.

When i looked at him again, i sighed when he moved closer to me.

"Remember what i told you before?" i swallowed.

What does he mean?

He said so many thing anyway.

I can't specifically remember what he meant any of those.

"You're mine. All of you. No one can touch you aside from me.Only me. Remember?"

I let out a deep breath.

I tried to stand to reach for his lips and kissed it.

I grabbed his shirt towards me but he held it and pushed it back.

"Tell me first that no matter what happen, you'll stay beside me. And that you love me too." he whispered.

My hands trembled.

I'm falling hard for you Reige, but i can't promise to stay.

I'm afraid.

I'm afraid of everything.

I'm afraid that i can get more than a hurt if i will stay and continue this.

I'm not everything for him, anyway.

And if he has a feelings for me, then i'm very certain, it will pass by after i left him.

Maybe the feelings he had for me right now won't stay long after a year will come.

I can't say what he wants to hear from me.

It took a couple of minutes before he spoke again.

"Come on, Say it.," he said in a more gentle way while putting some loosen strands of my hair behind my ears.

He muttered a cursed when the oven rang.

I let out a deep sigh for a relieved.

I can't really say what he wanted to hear from me.

I can't do it.

I can't tell it in front of him.

Not now.

He let out a deep sigh too and moved a steps towards the oven.

He took the toasted chicken and i smelled the delicious scent from it.

I seated properly.

He slightly put the toasted chicken into a white plate and put some decorative style above it.

So It will look more presentable.

He took a two plates and glanced at me.

"Let's eat here."

I sweetly said while remained seated in my chair.

"So romantic." he sarcastically answered.

"But no. Let's eat there at the terrace."

"No, Reige. It's fine here. Please.." i said and looked around of his kitchen.

He glanced at me for a while before He sighed and nodded.

"I'm hungry already. So, let's eat here." i snorted.

"Alright." he landed the plates in front of me.

I can't look straight at him when he put the two glasses for us and poured it with pineapple juice.

He put the chicken he cooked in front and put vegetable salad beside it.

He also put some amount of rice and sat right in front of me.

"Let's eat?" he said and put my plate a some piece slices of his recipe.

Toasted chicken.

"Looks like delicious."

"Try it."

I nodded and reached my pork to pick some.

He watched me all over as i chewed the chicken inside my mouth.

I shook my head and took a piece more from it.

"How was it?" he asked nervously.

"Well, as expected from a Reige Del Rio."

He chuckled.and sighed.

"Proved you wrong?"

"I was just kidding Reige. I know you can cook. At least you concentrated from your cooking lately while i'm around,right?"

"Yeah, if you just knew."

He said while took out the sauce beside my mouth.

He moved closer and kissed my lips gently.

"Let's eat."

He said after the kiss.

We ate well. I can't stop myself watching him while eating.

If he wasn't playboy, if he's not this rich, if we're not into this kind off agreement, and if he just live a simple life like i do, then maybe i can fight the love i have for him.

Even if he can't reciprocate the love i can give.

"Stop staring." he said and closed his eyes.

"I don't"

I frowned.

I said and averted my gaze.

I felt his intent looked so i lifted my gaze again for me to see him.

He stood up and took a water inside the fridge.

He approached me and poured some water in my glass.

I watched him and raised my brow.

"I said stop staring, Cath."

"I said i'm not."

I smirked.