I really don't know how to explain it to him, how to make him understand that it doesn't really matter if he have a girlfriend, all I want is he should not lie to me.
I don't want any disturbance in my heart and mind anymore. It made me loss focus on my goal and I can't let that happen.
I'll slowly distance myself to him so he won't bother why I suddenly ignore him one day.
"Can you trust me? I can't explain it to you right now but please... trust me? Hmm?" He sounds like almost pleading and I admit, it touches my heart but my pride matters.
I love myself.
Now that he can't tell me or explain it to me then I don't have any reason to hold unto him..
"I trust you." I said as I look at him in the eyes, assuring him that I'm telling the truth.
He lied to me, why can't I?