THE START OF A NEW BEGINNING YANA'S (POV) CHAPTER TEN

"It's summer once again and I'm stuck in the house" I said As i fixed my baby girl loni some breakfast.

I hated staying with Ms. Sally and Bre. Even more i disliked Sally if only she new that Jr and Loni is brother and sisters. I hated the fact that Rick was murdered and I had to deal with this baby and losing my mother. Rick use to date my mom before Ms. Sal. He molested me at 12, at first I was scared and I wanted to tell my mom but I just couldn't. I actually grew to love him. The only person that knows is Bre and Kay but they dont know the full story of it all. I regret telling her. Sometimes I regret being her friend. She took Leo from me, he was my crush I wanted to have sex with him first but she just had to fuck my man. We'll he wasn't mines but dammit i had plans and she ruined it. Then to find out Ricky tried to have sex with her made me furious but I really couldn't be mad at her. On the other hand I was glad Leo was kilt, If I couldn't have him Bre sure wasn't going to get that pleasure. I lied to her about losing my virginity to him, I couldn't risk them getting together or hooking up and someone find out I lied. Do you know how embarrassing that is. My plan worked! Rick never liked Leo so when I told him Leo tried to rape me it wasn't nothing for Rick to set some shit up. Deep down he knew he was wrong for molesting me when I was younger, he had grew to love me to. I remember when we use to meet up and he use to say how he was saving up for my 18th birthday so that we can move out of state and start over where no one knew us and have a family. That way no one not even my mom could keep us a way. I even hated that my mom had him first sometime I use to wish death upon her until it happened. I was somewhat ashamed if my mom found out she would have been hurt and I couldn't risk that. Even worst maybe she would have kicked me out! Everything happened so fast my pregnancy Ricks death. My mom was the only one in my corner Bre was depressed about Leo being murdered I had no one. My mom asked me one time about my child's father I lied and told her some guy from school that moved away. The response i gave her she knew it was a lie I could tell. Sometimes I think to myself that my mom knew who was my childs father that's why she never questioned it. I remember one day we got into a serious argument the day at my doctors appointment when the nurse announced i was two months pregnant. I remember her blurting out "I'm going to make sure that punk bitch rot in hell or go to jail" I wasn't sure what she meant that day put now that I think about it she could have been referring to Rick. She probably knew the whole time. Maybe that's the reason she kicked him out that's probably why she didn't like me being at Bre's. I wonder if she was the reason behind his murder. I hated that my mind was rushing with thoughts that I couldn't control. Here i am only 17 with a two year old with barely a place to stay no social life no family no nothing just me and these two annoying humans. Every chance Bre gets she either lecture me about shit I care nothing about or talk about finding my child's father. I truly wonder why Bre cared so much it wasn't her vagina, her child nor the life she had to live. I always want to snap on her ass but I bite my tongue only cause I have nowhere else to go, no job and they been helping me out as far as a roof over my head. I appreciated that part if nothing else so I kept to myself and did as I was told. Living their didn't make me in Bre any closer, we didn't get along at all she felt like an enemy to me. Even though she told me good things to motivate me and get me going I just always thought that she was throwing how my life turnt out In my face and I hated that. She was to nosey for her own good my life was already fucked up I could not risk anything getting out. What men will want me knowing all of that. No man seems to want me now that i have a child.