NEW BEGINNING BRE (POV) CHAPTER ELEVEN

"Shit has been really hard lately and No one seems to give a crap. On top of that my aunt lost her job a month ago and I just found out two weeks ago when I called her job. My auntie really have lost her self since the murder of Rick. Sometimes I wish I could bring him back myself if it means getting her happiness back" I thought as I got off the city bus...

"Hmmm what can i do to fix this mess?" I continuously thought over and over in my head. ------------Sometimes I just feel like my life consists of bad luck and my life was a mistake. Ever Since the death of Rick I've been trying to keep my aunt Sally sane and help with lil Jr but it seems she giving up on him to. I remember her saying how she should give him up for adoption, I couldn't do that to lil Jr. After my parents were killed my aunt took me in and raised me and practically gave up going to college for me, not in a million years I could just leave my aunt like this.

Its summer but next year I'm suppose to graduate but it doesn't seem like that's going to happen. Starting high school was a little bumpy but I got through the skipping school, fights, bad grades and 11th grade made me realize there's much more to life. After that year of my 14th birthday I did a complete 360 i listened to my aunt more kept up with my grades and kept relationships out of my vocabulary. I'm not saying I'm gay but guys don't excite me. I had two minor relationships and it showed me a lot, and I dont have the time to deal with people that's going to leave me anyway.

All these thoughts in my head. "My parents left me so did Leo and I barely knew him. It was my first time and I couldn't remember something that was supposed to be so special to me. Not only that anything could have happened that night. I could have been hurt or killed. It may seem like Leo had rapped me and technically he did if this was a case because I was unaware and my drinks were spike, but he was different we connected spiritually and I just wish I could have at least one day with him to at least get a chance to know something else besides his first name.

My thoughts was coming to an end when i approached the front door of the apartment and seen a letter.

Bre: "Auntie did you know there was a eviction letter on the door" I said placing the letter on her bed

Aunt Sal: "Bre I cant do it anymore you and your friend will have to get a job and figure something out. As for me and Jr I will have to find a shelter until I get on my feet" she said staggering out of bed.

I could tell she had been drinking and different men been coming in and out, my auntie was losing her self and just by looking at her you could tell she was unhappy and depressed.

Bre: "Auntie you don't have to do that I will try to get a job and help you out please dont do that" I said as tears started falling from my eyes.

Aunt Sally: Bre no you don't me nor my child is none of your responsibility I want you to finish school further your education and do what all I never got to do. As for that lazy ass friend of yours she need to get up find her family or something. I had her in my house two years and she still has yet to find a job or try to go stay with a relative" she said crying.

While my auntie was crying I went and held her for comfort to let her know everything was ok.

Bre: "I'll talk to her and maybe if we both get jobs we will be able to pay the rent" I said with hope.

Aunt Sally: "Dont bother its court ordered we move within 30 days so unless we have money to move out to get another place we are fucked. How is that possible to get that money without a job no form of income no one to borrow from its just useless" she dropped to her knees and began to pray in her head.

Just thinking about what my aunt said i knew it was time to have a talk with Yana. Ever since she got pregnant and lost her mom she changed I don't even know who she is. She's a liar that's what she is. All she do sleep all day and at night she leave and leave her daughter here with me to watch. She's not even trying to go back to school or work. She just think somebody is going to take care of her while she run the streets. Sometimes I wish i never talked my aunt into letting her stay with us. As if my auntie didn't have enough on her plate dealing with Ricks death jr and me. She want even take my advice and search for her baby father, who knows maybe he can help. From what she told me he was an older men who sold drugs and moved away. Yana lied to me so much I don't know what to believe I probably wouldn't have believed that loni was her baby if I had not been their with her myself while she delivered. The look Yana give me is full of hate and I wonder why things are different between us. I don't want to be rude but right is right and my auntie is right we should have been let her go her way.