Chapter 56: Feelings

This has got to be one of the worst experiences I had in life. I thought everything will be ok, but no! I thought exactly wrong!

I've just been played around by some kind of clone or a robot, or whatever you may call this freakin' thing!

And what are robots anyways?

Everytime I try to attack, it blocks me and when it's his turn to attack, I can't even block back. I am now full of bruises and what's worse? Is the fact that I need to stay here until the time is up.

What do I do?

I asked myself and think of a way to counter it. But, to no avail. It'd just continued to attack, until I dropped on the floor breathing heavily and cannot move at all. When he was about to make his next attack, the bell rang, saving me from my death and he quickly disappeared.

Upon hearing the cue, I hurriedly stand back up to my feet and walked straight towards the door. I don't care if he's outside, I just want to go back to the dorm and sleep the whole day to regain my strength. And guess what, I was right about the thought, cause he was actually just leaning on the left wall beside the door, while reading something. But I don't care. I didn't mind him and just continued walking away until I arrived at my room.

Even if I was too tired to do it, I still tried my best to go to the bathroom and wash myself up first, before locking the door and laying on my bed. I couldn't help it, so I closed my eyes and just let myself sleep.

Granger

I thought it was easy pretending to be someone you're not, but I was wrong. If Marc didn't kept an eye on me, we would have been noticed by now. I can't help but act as to who I was. So Marc told me to stay away from anyone in town and just observe.

We're now at one of the cottages here at Eastern Dawn. This is payed by the princess and we have been separated.  All boys, all girls in one cottage, so we have two cottages to stay in. I just excused myself to get some fresh air, but the truth is... I just went out of the cottage to think about something... Or someone?

I looked above as I see the dark sky matching up with the moon and stars. It was very beautiful, but even if I smiled at the thought, I still felt sad. Knowing that I am not with someone whom I trully want to be with, just gives me sadness.

How is she doing right now? Is she fine? Does she misses me everyday?

This feeling... Since the day we left Northern Dawn, I felt something strange within me. I felt like when she is with me, I am the happiest person in Aurora's Land.

This may sound crazy, but whenever she is around, I feel safe and protected and... Complete. She makes me whole, but now that she's not here with me, I felt empty.

Everytime I go out of the palace to visit our families grave, girls would always try to get close to me, and I hate it, because I felt like I am betraying Daisy. I think of her everytime a girl tries to seduce me, or whatever you may call it. But it doesn't affect me. Maybe it's because of Daisy. She's the only one who makes me happy. Oracle Ban makes me smile too, she helped a lot, but Daisy is different. The way she makes me smile, that memory keeps on in my mind. Her face, her smile, everythimg there is about her.

She's different from everyone. Maybe that's the reason why I like her. Wait what? What am I even thinking?

"Quitely thinking deep of something there huh?" I heard Marc's voice from behind, so my trail of thoughts was broken. "I wonder what? Or should I say, who?" He asked in a seemingly mimicking tone.

"Stop it with your bullying Marc, you're not helping." I said and looked away. 

"Now that's what I like with you the most. Like, hey! I'm your superior, but you talk to me like we are just in the same rank. You got some balls."

"Tch! If you don't have anything else to say but keep on pestering me, then you're free to leave." He just laughed at what I said.

"You're hilarious! HAHAHA!" Good thing his laugh was just enough for us two to hear. But it's still irritating, how this man continues to talk to me even if he already knows that I don't want to talk. I glared at him and he looked back at me. Seriously looked back. "I just want to know more about that lucky girl in your mind. Is it the phoenix bearer?" After what he said, it made me surprised for a bit, but I hid my expression as fast as I could. Good thing it's a bit dark, so we couldn't really see each others expression quickly. "I heard she's been sent to Genesis Academy." He said and looked up at the sky. "What is your relationship with her?" He asked again, so I too, looked up and think of whether to answer it or not. But I guess, nothing wrong is going to happen if I answer a bit, right?

"We are both survivors of the Northern Dawn massacre. We only have each other since then, and the last time she was with me, was after the Emperial Trial." I answered and he slowly nodded. "I don't know why, but sometimes... I can't stop thinking about her. Is she fine? What is she doing right now? Does she think of me and oracle?"

"You know, there are some things that we need to sacrifice, even if it's a hard choice for us to make. But that sacrifice will be payed with something more... Beautifully unexpected later. You just have to be patient with it." He said and smiled.

"Yeah. I think you're right."

"The reason why you always think of her, is because you're starting to fall in love with her." My eyebrows knitted at what he said. "You may not agree with it yet, but I know that someday, you will tell her how much she means to you." He said and patted me on the shoulder. "Just let your feelings do what it wants. You'll just feel pain if you try to be against it." He advised and took his leave after.

Well that was unexpected.

Anyway, after what he said. I figured out... Maybe he's right. Maybe I just need to be honest with my feelings about her. Maybe I do love her, not as a friend or a younger sister... But as someone who is more than that.

By what I thought, I felt tired, so I went back to the cottage to sleep. Tomorrow is going to be a very busy day. I just do hope that she feels the same way with me though.

To be continued~