Chapter 9° "Love is ... a waterproof rimmel"

The next few days were very difficult for Hy.

No one ever before had that effect on him, no sentient being had invaded his heart in such an all-encompassing way. Before that, loneliness had often been a lifeline, he took refuge in loneliness and confided in the routine before making important decisions.

Now, however, although he felt the need to be alone, to think about what had happened, he saw loneliness as a frightening and terrifying hurricane that was about to attack with all the violence it was capable of a small and trembling flower.

He thought about what Reve had said to him, when he had taken him to the bathroom ... he thought about his words, actually, he didn't remember much of what he had said to him ... just a few words

... only 2 words...

"BOYFRIEND"

and

"LOVER "

… Why? ...

Why did these two simple words have the power to upset him so much?

He also thought of what he had said, or rather, had yelled at Reve that damn night at the club, the night he couldn't control himself, when, after seeing him kiss someone who wasn't himself, he was seized with blinding anger… that had completely darkened his mind.

He thought about what had happened on the day and, above all, on the night of the festival; he thought of the sound of Reve's violin, and how he had totally enraptured his being, how he had touched the deepest notes of his soul.

HE ...

To forget that feeling so absurd he got drunk to the point of not being able to stand up, and how suddenly he woke up in a bed that wasn't his and ... Reve's body abandoned on the sofa ... that strange and powerful heat that Reve's body gave off and that irremediably attracted him so overwhelmingly... and then ... that kiss from which he had no strength, indeed, from which he did not want to escape

... that KISS ...

... so intense ...

He only remembered his beautiful eyes and Reve on him ... and then he woke up again, in a bed, as if everything were just a dream, with only one difference: him in bed with Reve, in his arms, wrapped in the intoxicating scent of his skin

... NAKED...

This was driving him crazy!

Yup…

All this troubled him as nothing had ever succeeded before ... the feeling of well-being and lightness felt that morning was becoming a real obsession, his soul still wanted him so much that the fact of not remembering sent him completely on tilt.

All this was wearing him down inside, this deep sense of bewilderment was crushing both his body and soul.

He had to know!

... he must have known what happened that night...He had to know why his body, his soul and his heart were asking, indeed, they were not demanding so vehemently to try again that feeling, that sense of well-being and contentment that had made him happy even if only briefly.

He absolutely had to talk to Reve, but after his placement at the club he highly doubted he would still want to talk to him

... but he had to know ... so in the following days he often went to the faculty of fine arts to try to meet him, to be able to talk to him so that he could understand what was happening to him, and return to life before, where everything was clear, where everything was under his control, where it was the mind that dictated the law not the heart.

All attempts were in vain, because Reve seemed to have disappeared from the face of the earth.

"Hi, sorry if I kept you waiting," Lan said as she sat down next to Hy. "I was running errands with Mum. What do you have to tell so urgent that it can't wait for this weekend? "

" Well ... I ... you see ... I ... "

Hy stammered, not knowing how to start a speech that until now he didn't think he should do

"Honey, I see you rather tired, you have a face ... shattered ... I know, I know you want to be the number one, and that honours you, but you don't have to be reduced to this state" Lan continues sipping a bubble tea

"No, that's not what I wanted to talk about ..."

"And what then?" Lan urged him

"Can I ask you a question? But I would like you to answer me as sincerely as possible ..."

"Tell me"

"What do you like about me? Why did you choose me instead of someone else?"

"What do you mean? I don't think I fully understand what you are asking me ... anyway ... let me think... First of all, you are beautiful, and that never hurts, then because you are the captain of the swimming team, you are also intelligent, in fact since we have been together all my friends envy me a lot ... and then mum and dad like you so much "Lan finished smiling

"So this is what you think ... what do you think of me" whispered Hy

"Yes honey, why is there some problem by chance ?!"

Hy looked Lan in the eye and tightened his lips in a hard line.

"We need to take a break... I'm not sure about us anymore… after all if it weren't for our parents, we wouldn't even know each other ... "

"But ... what are you saying ..." Lan whispered surprised

"Wait don't interrupt me ... I'm not sure anymore ... I have to think ... I have to reflect on what I really want ... I'm sorry but it's better if we do a break "

" A break ... but ... but ... "Lan muttered more and more upset

" Yes, I want to be alone to reflect on what is best for me, for my future ... And for now… I don't see you ... I don't see you next to me in the future "

Hy took a deep breath

He got up and walked away leaving Lan stunned.

Hoping to meet him, despite the fact that the fine arts canteen was far from the engineering department, and had had many classes in the afternoon, Hy, with the excuse of wanting to see his friend again after a long time, meets Tip.

"I see you very tired, it seems that he has hit you in a train ... what happened to you !?"

"Nothing ... it's just routine ... exams are upon us ... you know ... training for the swimming race ... I'm just a little tired ... that's all"

"Are you sure? More than tired you seem drained, it seems that you no longer have a thread of energy in your body ... you look like a zombie ... you have dark circles ... if I didn't know you until long time, I would say that you haven't slept because there is something that torments you "

For a split second Hy's eyes went wide

"Fuck ... did he get it ... that he really understood something !?"

Hy thought in surprise meanwhile he looked at his best friend

"But imagine ... what should have happened?!"

Hy tried to fly over, but Tip didn't miss a thing

"Wait wait!!! Don't tell me I got it right!? Wow man ... what's going on?"

"Nothing ... I told you that I have nothing ..."

"No, you have something, spit the toad!"

"I told you I have nothing ... don't insist ..."

"Spit it out ... I'm or I'm not your best friend!"

"Well ... I ... really ..."

"Come on, don't be begged"

"Ok ok ... yesterday I left Lan"

"How ... how !?" Panted Tip

"Yes why ..."

"Yes because ..."

The words that should have come out of him died on his lips; he opened his eyes wide as if he had seen a ghost

"What's going on ..." Tip said turning in the direction Hy was looking at

"Ah ... I thought I was ... it's Reve ... so he found five minutes for me ..."

"Five minutes for you? "Hy asked him

"Yes ... to bring me his notes ... he is a genius and his notes are very sought after, a bit like yours, the day before yesterday I asked him, and he told me that he would have gladly lent, but being very busy he didn't know when he could".

Here he is finally ...

His blood began to flow faster through his veins and his gaze instinctively dazed. "My god how beautiful he is" he thought he had never seen anything so extraordinary in all his life, that face with its finely marked features, those deep and changing eyes, and those lips so soft ... no one had ever done to him that effect ...

"Calm down ... I have to calm down!"

Reve was not alone, he was still accompanied by that boy, the one with whom he had seen him at the club

... hand in hand…

... "Why?" ...

"He does it on purpose ... He's doing it to make me angry "thought Hy" …What am I thinking ?!"

Useless, however, because his heart gave the same jolt as that evening.

Reve looked around, saw Tip, waved at him, and walked over

"Here are the notes you asked me for. Keep them as long as you want, I don't need them anymore"

His gaze fell on Hy…

…For a brief moment

BUT… it was enough to make him shiver

Hy had never seen a more glacial look in all his life

... his blood froze for a moment ...

He felt cold inside ...

So cold…

He shivered

"Talk ... say something ..." Hy thought "I ... here ... I" could only stammer

The words, what he wanted to tell him, what he wanted to ask him died in his mouth, the anger he felt at seeing those two intertwined hands prevented him from doing something as simple as talking

"Thank you bro, thank you very much," Tip said to Reve

"I guess ... I don't need them anymore," Reve replied

Looking at Hy again

"Well, if there's nothing else to do ..." Reve walked away giving one last look at Hy.

Hy was devastated.

"Ok ok ... what did I miss my friend?" Tip said even more bewildered.

Love is strange, you think you are the lucky once if you have found it, you think that with love everything is peaches and cream, everything is easier, that you can overcome every obstacle in life

... all with love …

All this if you are lucky enough to be able to live it…

"Here we go again ... ... but who cares ... the point is that we are back to the top again, he needs a shoulder to cry on again "

Iris thought of this as she consoled Alen after yet another breakup with his boyfriends on duty, and this time too, like all the other times, he seemed inconsolable, and as a good friend she couldn't do anything else

"You don't have to stay here Iris ... your shift is over ... I can do it alone here" said Alen between a sob and other "Of course, no, not a problem boss! Am I or am I not your best friend?! " Iris replied giving him a wink... "One moment ... one moment ... FRIEND ... wait I really said" friend "... but Alen is the perfect man to marry, handsome, sensitive, intelligent ... so why now should I consider him as a friend ... since then ... what's happening to me today!!! " thought Iris.

An immense sadness took hold of Lan's heart, one step after another, the sadness turned into pain, pain that invaded his whole being ... one step after another ... inexorably

"I have to sit down ... otherwise I faint"

A sense of profound bewilderment had now taken hold of her body ...

She opened the first door of hers that he saw in front of her, entered and sat on the first free chair she saw, not realizing that many black tears were colouring her white face.

Iris turned and what she saw frightened her ... an angel ... an angel with large matted white wings, sitting in a chair, hunched over, as if trying to hide the purest and most incredible eyes she had ever seen, eyes from which gushed black tears that dirtied those very white cheeks ... Iris rubbed her eyes ... it was certainly a hallucination ... there could be no such sublime being

"Oh my God what's happening to me ?!" she thought, putting a hand on her heart that was beating wildly "Calm down ... calm down ..." she went to the table where he was sitting Lan

"Are you okay? Can I offer you something?" Iris asked "My God how beautiful is she!?"

"Well ... I'm fine thanks ..." Lan whispered thinly

"I don't think so ... Rimmel doesn't melt by itself" continued Iris handing her a handkerchief

"You're right ... plus it's waterproof ... you're right" sobbed Lan "Hy, my boyfriend, has left ... without a reason ... without a why ... " "It's impossible! There must be a reason "Iris replied "How is it possible to leave such a creature ... an angel from heaven ... it's impossible! ... but what am I thinking? ... why should I care ... I barely know her ... but see her suffer like this it breaks my heart so much ... Why I really want to hug her? ... wait ... calm down ... calm down ... calm down my heart! " thought Iris as she listened to Lan

... neither of them noticed that Iris had taken Lan's little hands in her hands ...