Chapter 21

I pace the room, my emotions flying here and there and everywhere. Nothing makes sense, nothing is in my understanding. All my emotions are jumbled. Anger at Luc for not letting me go to Jim, sadness for both my wanting to be in Luc's arms, as well as missing Jim's. Hurt from the look of hatred in Jim's eyes, not sure if it resides there for Luc or for myself. Pain due to Jim not even trying to come to me. Not one step in my direction did he take. Not a single one. I feel like I'm looking through a window on a man I thought I knew. The man I knew would have done anything to protect his family. This man looked absolutely cold. I'm so confused.

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