REBORN

Aria woke up after being trapped in her weird dream again .

Yes , it was her 5th life ...

Her 1st life was exactly like the book depicts her ending . She died just like that while not blaming her family .

Her 2nd life , she thought she was dreaming when she was back in the past . She thought her first life was just a nightmare so she didn't even take a note of it and follows what her family wants and her ending repeated again .

Her 3rd life , she was afraid of dying and this weird phenomenon of going back to the past so she sometimes avoid her family but once her family try to become close to her she trusted them again and boom ! Her ending was still that .

Her 4th life , she still crazy for love but she tried to keep a distance from them . To no futile , she again ended up becoming a puppet and dying of terrible fever after being abused .

This is ... her 5th life . She doesn't know why god still pitied her even after she didn't take any chance to run away from her family . She actually never knew that her life was a novel . That dream she gets after dying of her 4th life , that was the first time she knew she lived a novel life . Even after being reborn so many times , she actually only remember bits of pieces from her past lives that's why dying so many times because of her family doesn't change the fact that she craves for love .

She wanders her eyes and scan her surroundings and believed that this was her room and she was on top of her bed . However , there is something strange , she looks at her petite body and small hands . She's currently wearing a white night gown that come past her ankle . She saw her skinny arms and legs with a white bandages on her left palm . She was confused . Although she only remember a little bit of her past lives but she knew that whenever she was reborn , she would come to the time when her dad's company started to crumble but this ... this looks like way before that time comes .

She started to move from her bed and jumped down with a ' thud ' . She surprised that her bed way more taller than before . What happen ? She almost hurt her legs when she jumped down fortunately she balanced herself before that . She scrambled her way to the standing mirror in her room and looks at her appearance . This ..... what is this ?

Her long wavy hair that comes to her waist . Her natural dark violet hair that she always missed . She lost this hair colour because her family hated seeing her beautiful shining violet so she had to colour them to a deep black but how come ?? Her fluttering eyelashes with her natural light pink eyes though her left eye was bruised at this time . Her smooth and white face , her blushed cheeks though it seems hollow now . This .... She saw her child appearance in the mirror and guessed that maybe she is 5/6 years old now . She doesn't know what to do . This isn't what she expect to be . Her childlike appearance with injured eye and hand ...

She remembered now ! When she was 5 years old , she accidentally spilled a hot tea at her eldest brother when she has to served him , he was so mad that he pushed her and her left eye bumped into the table , he even poured a completely hot water at her palm so now her left palm was so scalded badly . So .... she returns to when she is 5 years old ? Why ... ?

Her being 5 years old means that she needs to endure and endure again . How can she fight her own family when she is like this .. She thought her 5th life means that she needs to get away from her family . That was what other Aria said , the Aria in that dream . She told her to not budge , not to care about her family . But how ? At this very age that she starts to crave for love , she starts to envy every child that have a loving parents . Being a kid means that she wanted a full attention towards her but she never gets it . How .. ? How can she resist her desire to being loved ?

Violence is like a routine for her . She doesn't even mind anymore . When her eldest brother started to yell and hit her like crazy , her body doesn't tremble anymore because to her he is a family . He was not a stranger . It was weird to have this mindset but because she was so used to it she even takes that as a sign of affection . That's why she can hold on to this place until she died . She craves so much that she hypnotized herself that everything her family do good or bad , it is an affection . It is a sign that they need her .

In this 5th life , she still believed that , that is why it's hard for her to avoid her family . To damp her desire of being loved . Just how ... can she survived like what other Aria said before . No matter what people see her for , her feelings for her family still rooted hard in her heart eventhough her resolution is trying to move away that feeling ...

Can she survived this 5th life .... ?