Chapter 13

"You sure you're not mad at me?" He chuckled.

"Of course not. Look, I know you're scared to introduce me to your family and I won't blame you, its a big step, I won't force you, whenever you're ready" my little heart started beating hard again.

God this man.

"What good have I done to deserve you?" I whispered into the phone speaker.

He chuckled again and I can imagine him flashing his pearly white teeth as his eyes twinkle.

"Are you still at work?"I said trying to get comfortable on my bed as I lay down.

"Yeah, but I'll be done in a few minutes and head home" God, he sounded really tired.

" you're really tired, have you had anything to eat?" Concern clouded my voice.

"Its fine, yeah I had dinner an hour ago what about you?"

"Couldn't eat"

"Why's that?"

"I couldn't stop thinking about what happened earlier between us"

"Should I be honored that you can't stop thinking about me?" He said teasingly.

"Shut up creep" his laugh echoed through the speaker as the smile on my face I didn't notice I had on from the beginning of our conversation grew wider.

"Uh...Chris, if you're free tomorrow can you please come over? I'd really like for my family to know you, the source of my smile everyday" I said biting my lips. He paused for a while before heaving a loud sigh.

"You'd really want that?" It came out almost as a whisper.

"More than anything" I smile

"Alright then, absolutely I'll be there" from his voice I knew was smiling like crazy.

"Just drop by whenever you're ready"

I had to cut our conversation short as I noticed Cass on the door way. When she noticed I saw here, she withdrew her head back so I won't see her.

"I know you're there Cass c'mon" She came over and sat down beside me.

"How much did you hear?" I said raising a brow.

"Everything" with all the excitement in her eyes, her teeth were shining through her smile.

We sat there in silence both staring at each other and not knowing where to begin but this silence was comforting and it spoke a thousand words that couldn't be expressed. I had no idea I had started crying until Cass wiped my face and engolfed me in a reassuring hug.

"Cass I don't know what I'm doing" I hugged her tighter as I cried more.

"Let it out girl, let it all out" she said patting my back.

After I cried out all my frustration, I looked her with puffy eyes and red nose.

"You really like him don't you? As a matter of fact you've fallen for him already huh?" She smirked at me as she leaned her back on the bed rest.

"What? No, impossible I don't even feel it" she looked at me closely and then chuckled.

"You don't get it don't you?" She tilted her head to the side to look at me better.

"I don't get what? What are you talking about?" Still maintaining her cool, she folded her hands to her chest with a smirk.

"You get excited when you see him, you blush at every sweet thing he tells you, you feel those butterfly thingys you talk about when you're around him or even when he's being sweet, you always want to hear his voice, when he's hurt you're troubled...I can go on and on my love but I'll still land at the same thing, all this is love as far as you don't feel it for anyone else, just for that special someone. You can convince yourself that its not true but actions don't lie. Your head can deceive you but you see that heart of yours, it can never deceive you, ever"

What? Love? No way Tina nuh-uh this can't be happening. Love? No no no no no, I can agree I'm starting to develop some feelings for him, if possible like but love? Nah I don't agree.

"I can't love him Cass" I said shaking my head.

"Why can't you love him? Is he undeserving of your love?"

"Its not the case Cass, he doesn't deserve any of this, hell I don't deserve him but I've tried everything I can but I always end up questioning myself" she held my hands and smiled at me

"You still don't get it Tee"

"Don't get what Cass?"

"You never got closure from your last relationship right? Thats the problem, you need to set your heart free in order to accept what's happening to you. I'll advice you to do that soon before you loose this great guy you have"

"That can't be it" I said shaking my head in negativity.

"It sure is Tee, I've seen this happen a lot of times" I stare at her for an awfully long period of time before drawing her in for a hug.

"Its funny how you're the one with the love therapy, has Mr sexy given you some you know what?" I said wiggling my brows at her.

"Oh you naughty ass, of course I've gotten some, he's too damn sexy. Geez Tee what do you take me for" she dramatically flipped her hair as we both started laughing.

The rest of our talk was more of me teasing Cass and sharing a lot of goofy memories.

The next day came faster than I thought. I woke up this morning with so much anxiety, I almost didn't leave my bed.

Chris did not tell me when he was going to come so its kind of freaking me out. I got tired of waiting and went upstairs to freshen up, I spent a lot of time in the shower to relax better and after my bath, I can say I'm way calmer.

As I headed downstairs, I started hearing voices, an all too familiar one thats been playing over and over again in my head stood out. Oh my gosh this is it. The closer I was to the source of the voices the more my mind couldn't stop going back to what Cass mentioned last night, what if she's right?

Danny and I never talked after I left, hell I didn't even look back.

How am I supposed to just walk up to him and do that?

I honestly can't do this.

Damn you Danny, why can't you just leave my heart the fuck alone? You moved on didn't you?

Douche bag.