Chapter LXI -Card**

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I had no time for explanations, it was my disastrous life coming back, I always ended up wallowing like a worm in despair and sadness, the darkness was part of me. And it showed in my mood when I answered him. He insisted

that I explain to him what was going on, I was filled with hate, at that moment I felt no trace of compassion and I told him "YOU MEANT NOTHING", I saw how his eyes glazed over so I couldn't stand it and looked away.

I hated his sensitivity, but I hated me more for doing that to him, he was not to blame, he did mean a lot to me, so much that I even love him... but I had to cut the tie and dependence of his love, I had no more room for that in my life, I never had it, and I ended up hurting him more and poisoning myself with the last sentence -, "you were a joker, I used you at my convenience".

He shook his head and tears came out of his eyes, and they weighed on my heart.