CHAPTER 1

MJ's POV

KRING. . . . KRING. . . . KRING. . . .

That was my alarm clock. It's 4 o'clock in the morning but shit I need to wake up. I have many things to do. Why? Because I'm only poor, I'm not rich. I need to work so hard to feed my self and to get my needs. I have my family but they don't feel the same way . For them I'm a disgrace to their family and I don't have freedom for my self. That's my life after my beloved grand mom and grand dad sleep forever! Yeah I know! It's sad right, but no one cares at all!

I realized and stop my self 'Stop it, M. There's no room to this rants'.  I blew a loud breath and stand up from my bed. I roaming my eyes around and a little bit sad, a small room that no personal comfort room , no bedside table, no bed and darkness invades me. I can do anything worst and I can kill myself there that no one knows.

Sometimes, I think that world is unfair to me. No one loves me, no one cares for me, no ones there for me if I needed someone to lean on. I'm strong but has limitations. I want to quit, I want to give up but this is not the right time. I clenched my finger into fist. I'm mad at the world, I'm mad to people who kill my grand parents who loved and cared me unconditionally. They are so unfair to me, my parents who leaved me that I'm useless to them. I wiped my tears and blew a loud breath.

'You are strong,M . No tears, no smile and no weakness . Keep in mind,M.' I always told that to myself.

I go to the kitchen and ready the breakfast of the queen and king together with their prince and princesses . This is their castle and I'm their slave. I smirk for my thoughts. Clean there and clean everywhere, that was my routine everyday for two years already.  

I look at the wall clock and holy shit it's 6 o'clock already. I go back to my room to get my towel and ready to take a bath as fast as I could. I will go somewhere when I can breath and think peacefully. I feel like hell to this house, no fire but the atmosphere surroundings me are totally the same. Haha ! I laugh at that thoughts.  I think I will go crazy haha . This is my happiness opposite to anyone.

I readied my self . Long sleeves, pants and shoes are okay with me. Not expensive but I'm totally comfortable .   Also, I readied myself from my anaconda tita. Nope, she is not snake but they are similar . Am I that bad? No I'm not but they are.

" MJJJJJ!" that was my anaconda tita. I told you I need to be ready.  I ran as I could go to her.

"I'm here ,tita" I respected say to her. Although, she's like that my grand dad and grand mom taught me to be good to her.

" Where are you going, bum?" she said out loud. It's hurt me so much.

I bow my head " hmm, one of the school here tita , I passed there entrance and  qualifying exam" I explained to her.

"What? You're going to school, you enrolled there, do you think you have a future just because of that shit education?" she shouted me . She don't believe that I can do it. She don't trust me this thing.

I know why my anaconda tita mad at me, because I disappointed her for what happened to my grand dad . Because of me, they died . I regret everything for what happened to them. Just because of me, because of my shit. That was my nightmare that I could wish I will stay awake forever.

"Why are you shouting at this early in the morning, hon?" Her king. The bullshit king.

"This bum, who enrolled in school" she explained to her king.

"Oh really? Hahaha" he laughs at that thought. He look at me with disgust to his face.

"You little bum, stop dreaming. You don't have future. You failed us at the beginning of your existence. Stop that nonsense. We will not help you at all" He pointed my head. But I don't have power to talk back to them . I need to respect them. If they don't respect me then I will respect them.

"Hmm, yeah , but tita this is what I want" I look at her in the eyes. Telling that I am sincere to this . But. . .

"Whatever! I will not support you in the first place. Do what you want!" she shouted me again. And turn around to the table.

"Do you cook already?" my uncle asked.

I told him without looking at his eyes "Yes, I did. I finish my work here so that I can left."

"Good. Just wait until we finish and wash the dishes so that you can left" he says to me with smirking .

Yeah! Just like that. I have no power to say No. In this castle, I'm just slave. Powerless, useless and all less in the end of the word. I look at the wall clock and just wow. It's already 7 o'clock and I am damn late. What could I do? No !. I need to walk for how many meters . Shit ! That all I can do. Cursing ! Am I that bad? NO.

I wait and wait and wait until they finish . Thanks God. They finish but its already 8 in the morning. I have no choice . I wash their dishes 'coz they don't allow me to eat together with them. I do as fast . I look the wall clock at the last time it's already 8:30 and I'm doomed. I already late  I will explain to the dean. I hope they will understand me.

Before I go, I ask permission to my anaconda tita even though they ignore me. For the last time, I look at our house, I wish I could not go back there. I sadly said.