Chapter thirty- two :)

His skin was on fire burning to touch Louis'. Just loving the way Louis looked above him like an animal looks at his prey.

The way he moved his hips against Harry, made him move too. He pinched his fingers deep into Louis' arms. And let them sneak around his neck, he pulled him impossibly closer kissing him passionately, Louis' tongue meeting Harry's. Both of them breathing heavily between their kisses. Harry let his left hand slip under Louis hoodie, his skin was just as hot and full of energy as his own.

His other hand slid down to the hem of Louis hoodie and pulled it up above his head. Louis looked down on him, his legs bent at each side of Harry's waist. Harry's hands rest on the top of them. The lettering on Louis chest was right in front of his eyes but Harry couldn't really read he was too distracted by those abs. Louis' hands wandered up and Harry helped to pull his hoodie above his head.

Staring at his birds tattoo for a second before he placed his small hands onto Harry's collarbone and leaned down to kiss him gently along the neck. A shivery gasp escaped Harry's lips. That felt damn good. His hand exploring Louis back his skin was sticky and a little sweaty.

Louis hands slowly slid down along his chest and belly leaving a path of goosebumps behind them until he stopped at the start of Harry's skinnies. "Wait." Harry clasped Louis wrist looking wanting it his blue eyes which were sparkling. "Do you have.... you know" He whispered breathlessly.

Louis bent over to open the drawer of his bedside table and pulling lube and condoms out. Harry leaned back and sank into the pillow "Sure" He chuckled at Louis grin. Sure he had it right next to them in a drawer. Harry rolled his eyes sarcastically "You never know" He shrugged. "You're so unbelievable" Harry smiled pulling him down at him again. His chest was rubbing against Harry's, skin on skin, pressing Harry into the mattress. Then Louis continued unzipping Harry's pants, pulling them off. Louis was so gentle and caring he looked ready to stop any second if Harry would show just the slightest doubt.

Their eyes met intensely Louis' eyes looked down asking Harry if he was really a thousand percent sure, Harry just nodded thirsty to finally feel Louis inside of him. A small grin grew on Louis' face as he pulled off his own pants. Where his crotch was supposed to be was now a big butch. Harry's smiled as he saw it. He never thought he was capable to make someone feel that way.

Louis was moving tight against his body Harry added his own movements, his hands all over Louis and Louis' all over him. It was nothing like when Cha- The little kisses Louis placed along down to Harry's belly button made him totally forget about absolutely everything. He didn't think. He just let Louis do, whatever he was doing at the moment. It felt so good.

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Harry woke up from the buzzing sound of his phone, he reached over Louis bare chest to grab it, eyes half-lidded. The glaring screen light burning in his eyes. It took a moment until he could read the messages he got they were from an unsaved number.

Don't you dare ever coming to my house again!!

unless I tell you to!

Remember what I told you, Harold.

Harry's heart stopped, it was Charly. "What are you doing?" Louis murmured, eyes still closed snuggling closer against Harry. He quickly deleted the messages and turned off his phone. He still couldn't believe what happened yesterday, they just had sex. And it felt so damn good to see Louis smile right now.

He slowly opened his eyes and looked deep into Harry's "How are you feeling?" his voice deep and raspy. "Perfect" Harry whispered back giggling. He had never felt so good in his life before, then with Louis. He gave him the opportunity to be himself. And in his presence he could finally forget his past, sometimes.

Maybe he was finally free now and could carry on. Days went on and school started again, it was better than ever, no one was mean to him, Charly wasn't there, for what reason ever and lunch was actually good for the first time. "So what do you think?" Niall gave Louis an asking look, chewing on his fries. Harry took a bite of his burger to avoid answering.

He was trying to persuade the boys to go and play golf together after school. "Listen Niall we all" He made some movements with his hands and continued "have no idea how golf works and..." Harry didn't listen to the rest he said, he was banned by the messages that popped up on his phone.

A few from his mom asking how he was and if he needed something.

Harry almost forgot that he was angry with her over time, but no matter how much he wanted her in his life he couldn't just forgive her, but he missed her. That's why he texted back saying that he was fine and didn't need anything and added a thank you. Just as he was about to send it another message popped up it was from Charly.

Harry stopped moving for a second as he opened it, it said 'me you locker now!' A few exclamation marks following. The cafeteria seemed silent for a few seconds. He was here. In school. Waiting for him. "Who is this?" Louis asked looking down at Harry's phone. Fuck. He quickly turned it off avoiding Louis confused look. "No one." He cleared his throat faking a smile.

God he hated lying to Louis especially when everything was going so perfect with him. What is it that Charly wants? Harry hadn't told anyone so there was no need to be afraid. The rest of lunch break was filled with awkward silence and Louis looked kinda angry.

He hadn't said anything anymore the whole day long. And the ride home was even worse, Louis just stared straight ahead and every time Harry asked him if something was wrong he just answered with a quick "No"

Was he angry because of the text messages? Or something else?

"Lou?" Harry asked carefully as Louis unlocked the apartment door. He didn't answer just walked in throwing his bag and jacket onto the couch. "Please talk to me" Louis chuckled it was faked to show Harry, what he said was pathetic. He turned around his eyes shiny and clear. "What about when you go first?" Harry dropped his bag and coat. Louis looked mad. He had never been mad at Harry before, ever. It kinda scared him.

"What do you mean?" He could already think of some stuff. Louis gave him a strict look. The crease between his eyebrows got deeper and he looked about to freak out. He made a few steps closer and grabbed Harry's wrist turned it and looked Harry dead in the eye "What is this huh?" The cut. It was just slightly to see but still there. Harry pulled his arm out of Louis strong grip and pulled his sleeve down.

"I- that was an accident w-"

"No. Harry, I don't listen to that shit anymore. Do you think I'm stupid? Why do you think there are no razors in the bathroom anymore?!" He shouted right into Harry's face. It broke something inside of him, a painful lump in his throat. "You say you're fine? I tell you what, I don't believe you."

"I know I promised you to leave it alone but I can't, you didn't tell me what happened to you. Do you have any idea how worried I was? Still am?" A tear ran down his cheek.

Harry could still remember how he wasn't able to move and just sat there in the corner of his room, waking up in Louis apartment not knowing where he was or how he got there but he was with Louis and how safe it made him feel.

He bit his lip. The picture of Louis made him sad his chin started trembling. The look Louis gave him was full of grief, fury and.....betrayal? "Louis I-"

He started he had such a fucking huge guilty conscience and it was so exhausting not to be able to open up to Louis the person he loved the most in this broken world. The tears came up. No. He swallowed and reached out for Louis' hand but he took a step back. Anger was written on his face.

"What? Do you want to tell me another lie?"

"I don't want to lie to you, really but-"

"You have no chance? Yes, I know." He fumed. Then he took his jacked walking past him towards the door. Harry tried to stop him from leaving by grabbing his wrist but he freed himself "Let go of me" He hissed through wet eyes and slammed the door shut behind him.

That was it. Exactly what Harry feared the most. His life was destroyed by Charly, once again. He couldn't help it anymore the tears just run down his cheeks without him even noticing. Everything had been good he was able to ignore the messages he got from Charly over time and to live his normal life without being afraid to see him or even think of him.

All because of Louis and the boys. They all have helped him become the guy he was now. And Goddamit he couldn't lose Louis the one person that changed his whole life for the good just because Charly told him to keep silent.

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Days got by Louis decided to sleep at Liam's for a few days. He came back to the apartment once to get some clothes while Harry was asleep. He had left a note that said,

I will stay at Liam's for a while you can stay so you don't have to go home.

That was it, no smiley no little sassy note next to it. They hadn't talked since the fight, no phone calls, no messages and no talking in school. The school days were the old usual again except that Harry still had Niall, Liam and Zayn that talked to him but they spent a lot of time with Charly together so Harry rather sat alone at lunch.

It hurt to sleep in Louis bed that still smelled like him, to sit on the couch they had have so many movie nights and making out sessions on or to see the clothes in his closet. It was so hard to stay there that he even called his mom asking if he could come back home. He never thought he would do that someday but he had no other place to go and to be honest he really fucking missed her.

The last months showed him how much he wanted their time together back. Since he arrived home he and his mom had talked a lot more than usual, about everything he and Louis did together and how much he meant to him. It felt surprisingly relieving talking to her about it. The whole time they sat at the kitchen table talking she looked so happy.

And she gave him advice for his situation with Louis. He only told her that they had a fight because of some misunderstandings. Now Harry was laying awake overthinking everything.

His room, still the same as always, but he wasn't, it didn't fit.

He stared non stop at his phone hoping to see Louis name anytime but it didn't show up. It has been a horrible week, the thoughts of Louis' lips on his or his lovely looks and sassy lines haunted him and all he desired was to be with him again. He stared to the ceiling thinking about what his mom said.

"Just drive over and talk to him."

What was he still doing here? Louis meant everything to him he couldn't lose him. He took his keys and run downstairs. "I will be right back." And shut the door behind him.

He had already been at Liam's and Niall's house Zayn was at Nialls too so Louis wouldn't be at Zayn's house either. The red light of the traffic lights fell through the car window right onto Harry's face.

Already Mine started playing. God the radio really had the worst timing, Harry's eyes started burning as his head played through the memories of him and Louis dancing to this song in the shopping mall. Surrounded by the stars lighting up the darkness. Louis hand on the middle of his back, the other interlocked with his and the smell of his coconut shampoo and- holy shit!

"I always come here when I need to think or need to be alone"

Harry remembered, Louis' voice in his head. His eyes widened right as the traffic light turned green. That's it he must be there. Harry turned the car abruptly and drove in the direction of the mall. Hopefully he was right.

It was full even though it would close in about an hour. He made his way through the crowd of people up the escalators and stairs. He ran so fast that he had to wait a minute and catch his breath. He didn't even need a hairpin the door was already a gap open. Harry slowly pushed it.

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I HAVE FOCKIN ZERO IDEA IF THIS CHAPTER MAKES EVEN SENSE BECAUSE TO ME IT DOES NOT BUT I REALLY ENJOYED WRITING!!!!!!

I will do this! Promise :)

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