Chapter 11

Time flies by, the cold of the night gave him to understand it, winter was near and that only made the omega sad, two more weeks had already passed, almost three since he did not address any word to Anthony, work they had together had to separate at the request of the alpha, thus obtaining a partner with whom he did not meet but if they presented the work.

He was tired of being just a point for the alpha, he had to find a way to at least talk to each other again but seeing the alpha with that omega, his hand on his jaw while they smiled like lovers made him understand that it was not worth it, that Everything was lost and I shouldn't have even tried.

—All bloody alphas are the same.

For a moment they exchanged glances, one of courage and the other with a spark of fear, the Omega was the first to cut that look by turning around to go home, it was already late and if he did not hurry he would be late for his interview.

Yes, he had lost his previous job for missing a week without commenting on it, he had undoubtedly been fired and was forced to get another one as soon as possible, his savings were running out, the payment of the apartment rent was getting closer and that. It terrified him, he could even live without eating but without a place to sleep, he couldn't.

He grabbed his suitcase crossing it on his chest and was about to leave the room but his characteristic figure made an appearance, he did not flinch, he was not scared, he just looked at him seriously while he thought about how to leave the room without saying a word to him but well, it was almost impossible.

—You have to attend to your boyfriend. What are you doing here? As far as I know, we don't take this class together.

—Do you think I care? And he's not my boyfriend, he's ...

—You don't have to explain me Yang, it's not like we're something, with permission I'm late.

He pushed him, getting him to move away from the door, there were still several hours before his interview but he wanted to get out of there as soon as possible, his desire to want to cry, he was not going to allow himself to cry in front of him, especially if it was stupid of him It was hurting him, he was hurting me, he had to go, however he couldn't, he stopped when he heard that sentence that left him frozen, why did the alpha have so much effect on him?

—I wanted us to be something,

I turn to look at him incredulously, noticing that he was looking at him with crystalline eyes, no, this must be an excellent performance, after that he would surely start laughing and go to catch that omega, who was undoubtedly much better than him.

—Don't make me laugh, will you? An alpha like you with an Omega like me? That really is a comedy.

—And what has it? I've never cared, I don't even care about your past if I want to be your present and your future, I'm sick of continuing to ignore you, of mentalizing every damn morning that you're not important to me when it's the opposite , of trying to fixate on another person but no, your face appears in my mind, I cannot erase you from my mind, you are tattooed, why can't you understand me?

Anthony was crying, the tears were running down his cheeks without any shame, feeling as he was undressing in front of the omega, he was giving him so much that he could not believe it, he had never done this for anyone, the others did not matter, he only wanted him, He only wished that he was able to see it, able to understand it, able to love it or at least try it, he only wanted that, did he ask a lot?

James was not far from wanting to cry, he kept holding back the tears not wanting to believe what he had just heard, he kept with the stupid idea that it was just a performance, a joke, a mockery, whatever the hell he wanted to interpret it, he wanted to believe him, really he wanted to do it but, he had suffered so much that he refused to believe so easily.

—Tell me this is just a fucking joke and then the other idiots will come out to make fun of me saying, "The stupid Zorra fell in love", tell me Anthony Yang, tell me that you're not in love with me, tell me you're not interested, tell me it was all a lie, tell me!

His omega was so hurt that he almost feels like dying when he sees the tears begin to bathe his delicate cheeks, he approached slowly not wanting to scare him, he felt that James did not deserve anything bad, he still wondered how shit they had done.

He wanted to heal those wounds, damn he wanted to do it, he passed his fingers wiping the trail of tears, a touch so soft that the omega felt, he did not want him to stop doing it, they looked into each other's eyes feeling so calm to be able to be so close, so together, they wanted to stay like this for a long time.

—I care so much about you that I promised myself never to hurt you, that I would be there to protect you, to take care of you and never leave you, but look at me what an idiot I have been, you have every right to hit me James but, I'm so damn lost for you, don't punish me by depriving me from you, please don't, forgive me.