Chapter 3

Noah's POV

I pulled out of him slowly, and lay on his side. I saw tears in his eyes and it broke my heart. His beautiful green orbs were filled with tears and my beautiful husband was crying. And I didn't know what to do. I've never seen him cry and also I'm a horrible comforter when it comes to comforting a crying person.

"What's wrong baby? Why do you have tears in your eyes Elijah?" I asked him softly.

Fuck I can't stand seeing tears in his beautiful eyes it hurts.

"It's nothing I just missed you so much baby, am sorry I've been distant." He says slowly trying to force out a smile but I can see right through him.

He can't even make eye contact with me. He's literally avoiding my gaze. Fuck! I know he's hiding something but what?

"Baby why are you like this. I'm sure you been distant is not the only reason you are crying darling, what is it? Did I do something?" I asked stroking his face while pecking him on the lips softly.

"You did nothing wrong baby, it's all me, I caused everything! I'm sorry baby, I am so sorry for everything I promise I'll make it up to you,I'll do better my love cause you deserve better" he stated with guilt dancing in his eyes and I looked at him in concern. Wonder what he feels guilty about.

I've never seen him cry for the past 5 years I've known him, hell even when he lost his dad he didn't cry. So it hurt so much knowing maybe I could've caused this or he didn't trust me enough to share his problems with me.

"It's okay baby, I love you so much monchéri and I forgive you Eli,I'll always forgive you. You are my angel and I'll always and I mean always forgive you cause I love you too much to let some silly mistake such as you being distant or taking sometime to yourself get in the way of our marriage." I soothe him softly wiping his tears.

"I love you more Noah, so much. Promise you won't let anything get in the way of our love."

Okay now I'm suspicious. What's going on with him?

"I promise, I already told you when you proposed that you are stuck with me Elijah. Forever baby" I cooed and hugged him tightly.

Our naked bodies pressed against each other's and the feeling just rose.

He grind his hips unto mine making me ache for more friction as we both moan.

"Let's get in the shower baby I wanna eat you up for breakfast" he says while nestling my neck.

"Mmmmm, go run the bath and I'll be there soon baby" I said to him and he nodded and left to do so.

Then I got to thinking. What was wrong with him? Why was he so distant? I just hope it's nothing major. I don't want to push him to tell me anything, that doesn't work on Elijah.

I wish I could read his mind sometimes and know what's going on with him.

What are you up to Elijah? I have to find out. I can't keep watching him go on and off like this it's not healthy. 

I just want to know what's wrong with him and help him out in anyway I can. I don't understand what's with him crying. That's never happened before and am not going to sit around and watch it happen again.

I seem to be lost in thoughts cause I heard Elijah yell. "Baby you coming?"

"Coming babe" I yell my reply as I got off the bed and headed to the bathroom.

"Well hello there sexy" he smirks at me.

"Hi gorgeous". I wink at him and he diverts his eyes.

Something is just not right with him. He can't seem to hold my gaze anymore. There's  this guilt circling in his beautiful eyes that has me wondering if he actually did something wrong. He always holds my gaze, he always looks straight into my soul and knows what's going on with with me all the time.

But now it's like he's shying away from my gaze and he's always so tense around me somehow. Always avoiding conversations with me. Always nervous, and am going crazy wondering what's wrong with my beautiful man, I just wanna help with whatever it is.

He can always tell me anything and I won't judge him and he knows that perfectly well but him not talking about whatever the problem is driving me nuts.

The tub was filled with water and bubbles.   I slid in slowly and beckons him to come in. He enter and sit between my parted legs. I slid my hands slowly to his shoulder and started massaging him and he moans as he relaxes into my touch. He was way too tense before.

I decided it was the perfect timing for questions. I just want to know what's going on with him, I really do.

"Elijah?" I called softly and he hums.

"Is everything okay baby?  You hardly talk to me these days, you don't eat at home anymore, are you avoiding me?"

He tenses again and I continue rubbing him to relax him.

"It's nothing Noah, please don't worry about it" he murmurs.

"Baby please if it me lemme know, I promise I'll change whatever it is that am doing wrong, I'll change my whole being just to make you happy Eli and you know that. Please baby talk to me I beg of you. to not push me away"  I plead against the beautiful tanned skin at his neck kissing it gently to relax him, I just didn't want to scare him away.

He pulls my hands slowly and gently rest it on his chest where his heart is and it was beating fast I swear I could almost hear it skipping a beat.

"Do you feel that baby? It beats just for you. My heart is yours and no matter what happens please promise to never leave me Noah, you are my world. I swear I'll do better"  he says choking on a sob and I held him tightly to my chest against my skin. My heart was equally beating fast.

"Do you also feel that mon chèri? It beats for you Eli and only you. My entire being is just yours Eli, that's why I want you to talk to me so we can solve any type of problem you are facing baby" I murmur to him and he sobs even harder.

God what did I do now?

"I'll never judge you baby. When I married you I married everything about you and accepted you completely that's why I want to know if it's me and I promise I'll be the ideal man for you." I continued to tell him and I meant every word that I said, I love him  so much I can even end the entire world just for him if I had